< Chapter 72: Memories >

♥ Selena’s POV: ♥

I got inside my car quickly, shutting the car door closed and buckling my seatbelt. I pulled out my phone and searched through my contacts for that one special name that means everything to me. My heart bounced when I stopped at his name and I hesitantly tapped it, dialing his number.

I pressed my phone to my ear and waited patiently until he picked up. That is, if he would pick up. After a while, I was surprised to hear his beautiful voice on the other end.

“Hello?” he breathed through his phone.

I let out a small smile. “Hey Justin, how are you?”

There was a slight pause and I could hear his heavy breathing. I stared up at the road ahead of me, the car engine was off and I sat there in place.

“Who is this?” he finally asked.

“Umm, it’s me.. Selena,” I replied, “I just landed from L.A and I’ve been dying to see you.”

There was another pause at the end of the line and I was growing nervous. Why is it that he’s almost hesitant to talk to me?

“I-…” he began, taking another small pause before finishing, “We’re through, Selena.”

My heart stopped and my eyes widened. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I couldn’t believe he was breaking up with me. Again.

“W-What?” I stuttered. “Why?”

He laughed bitterly, making my stomach churn. “I think you know why.”

That was all he said to me before hanging up. Just like that.

My jaw tightened and I hung up myself, before sliding my phone back into my pocket. I didn’t quite know how I was feeling at the moment.

Probably angry, hatred, sadness and… betrayal? Those seem like appropriate words to describe the situation.

Looks like Justin and Jamie really are back together.

Well, I tried.

I thought that he’d see how much he really loves me if I took the opportunity to show him when he had lost his memory. I thought he could regain his memory and realize how good it felt like to be with me again.

I mean, I know they’re having a baby together but was that all it took for Jamie to steal Justin from me? To think I considered Jamie and Phoebe good friends of mine.

I have to think again.

So Jamie is a backstabbing bitch, and Justin is a cheating douche.

I see how it is.

But what am I going to do now? I’m not going to just let this all slide, am I?

I. Don’t. Think. So.

♥ Jamie’s POV: ♥ 

After Justin and I were both done with breakfast, we decided to chill in my room and watch some television while cuddling. I could feel it just by the way his arms wrapped around me that he wanted nothing more than to spend more time with me. I think he hates it to know that he’s actually spent so much time with me, but can’t remember a thing about it. I know it’s hurting him on the inside that he can’t remember, probably more than it hurts any one of us.

“Justin?” I mumbled into his chest, an idea popping in my head.

He stroked my hair twice before looking down at me and placing a kiss on my cheek. “Mm?”

“I wanna show you something,” I gave him a light smile, and his face twisted in confusion.

“Like what?” he asked, and I stood up from his embrace, reaching across my bed where I left my laptop closed. I opened it up and went to my web browser, typing in the address:

youtube.com/kidrauhl

I pressed enter and scrolled down the web page until I found what I was looking for.

“This,” I turned around to face him and pointed at my computer screen. He looked at the screen in confusion, and his eyes locked at the video titled Huge Announcement. He looked down at the video thumbnail to see a picture of both him and I, sitting on a bed.

“W-What’s this?” he asked lowly. His gaze flickered over to me as his eyes locked into mine.

“This is a video we released to the world to let everyone know about our pregnancy. It was your idea of being honest to the beliebers,” I lightly smiled.

He continued to stare at me until I saw his lips curl up slightly and he smiled back at me.

“Can I see it?” he asked.

“Of course,” I nodded, turning my attention back to my laptop so I could click the video. We waited a few seconds for it to load and I looked at him one last time before clicking play. Right after I did, the video displayed both Justin and I just how I remember it happened, and Justin began speaking.

“Wassup guys, Justin Bieber here, with my beautiful best friend,” he gestured for me to speak in the video.

“Jamie Hughes,” I piped in, and Justin continued.

“And we’re here to deliver a special announcement.” He took a pause before continuing, and I took it as my chance to watch Justin’s reaction. He was staring intently at the screen, watching himself in the life he used to live before losing his memory. It was almost as if he was thinking that if he stared hard enough, he’d become that Justin again— the one in the video. The one that remembered every detail of our relationship.

That’s when I began to feel a little guilty. I didn’t mean to show him this and make him upset about the fact that he couldn’t remember. In all honesty, part of the reason I showed him this was so that he had a bigger chance of remembering.

But it wasn’t working.

“…I’m just a normal guy. I’m bound to fall in love eventually, find that special someone and start a family. I know that you all will too, ‘cause it’s just the way that life works. So before we announce this special news, I’d like to bring up a few days ago for a moment,” Justin spoke within the video, and my heart beat picked up twice its speed.

I just remembered that in the video, Justin gave a whole speech about our first date, and how I fell down because of those fans chasing us. This is either going to upset Justin even further, or it might ring a bell and he’ll start to remember things.

“What happened a few days ago was that Jamie and I had our first date,” he began in the video. I looked over at the Justin next to me and his ears perked up, wanting to hear more about this event he had forgotten. “We were coming out from a building surrounded by fans and most of them began chasing us. Now obviously, we're not dressed in sweats and running shoes so that we can outrun you guys, we were trying to get to a dinner. So basically, Jamie tripped, fell, and tore her dress, and that made me really disappointed in you guys. I just want to bring up the fact that if you try and hurt Jamie, you're hurting me too. You guys are supposed to be family, and family doesn't do that to each other.”

Justin let out a low gasp and he paused the video, turning towards me.

“My fans did that to you?” he asked, concern lingering through his eyes. I gulped slowly and nodded my head. “Jamie-..”

“-No, it’s ok. I got over it and you were supposed to get over it too, except… You lost your memory, so of course you’re going to be concerned again. But really, I’m fine,” I smiled lightly, “Your fans did it to me, not your Beliebers.”

He stopped, closing his mouth shut and staring at me for a moment. “You’re right,” he whispered. “Sorry.”

“No, no, it’s not your fault,” I said, “Why are you blaming yourself? You keep doing that lately.”

“I don’t know. I just feel so out of place. I feel like you miss me even when I’m sitting right next to you.”

I paused, taking in his words. To be completely honest, he was right. I did miss him even when he was right in front of me. But I’m not saying it’s his fault he got into such an accident that affected him this way.

“Justin…” I began, “You’re doing it again.”

“Doing what? What am I doing?”

“Blaming yourself,” I whispered, looking down. “If there’s one thing you promised me, it was that you’ll always be there for me. And you know what? I believed you. and I still believe you. Because you’re still here with me even after you lost your memory. I still love you and you’re still here loving me right back. I realize now that you really meant it when you promised me that. Not even losing your memory stopped us from being together. You’ve really kept your promise,” I smiled at him, meaning every single word I said. The important thing is that he’s still here for me, just like he promised.

“I’m never letting you go, Jamie. I’m sorry I don’t remember how our relationship has been going so far but I know one thing and that’s that I love you… so much. That’s never going to change. I’m glad I promised you I’ll always be there, and now that you told me I did, I’m going to make sure I never break that promise. And I’m glad I’ve been keeping it this far,” he reached out and took my hand in his. “I love you, Jamie.”

My heart skipped a beat as if it was the very first time he told me he loves me.

“I love you too,” I smiled, feeling happy tears threatening to fall from my eyes.

After that, we finished seeing the video to the very end, and Justin asked me what happened after we released it. I told him all about the hate we were getting, and that I, at one point, let it get to me and that he had to comfort me about it. I made sure to tell him how amazing he treated me before he lost his memory, and it seemed to be working because he couldn’t stop smiling. He was glad that he was a good boyfriend to me, and I was glad he wasn’t asking about the fights we would get into.

“So…” he trailed off. “Do you know anything about my accident?”

I looked up at him curiously, “What do you mean?”

“I mean… How did I get into that car accident?” he asked, “Was I just driving somewhere randomly and it just so happened that I had crashed him someone?”

I looked away from him for a few seconds, not able to look him in the eyes. “I don’t know, honestly.”

He raised his eyebrows, “You don’t?”

“No,” I shook my head. “All I remember was visiting Phoebe’s grandmother with her and Noah and then Ryan called,” I gulped, remembering how it felt like when Ryan broke the news to me. “He told me you were in the hospital and I..” I laughed bitterly, “I thought it was some kind of sick joke.”

Justin’s face fell and his look softened. He scooted closer towards me and caressed my cheek with his hand as I continued, “I left as fast as I could and.. It was just terrible the way I felt at that moment. I felt like everything was slowly crashing down around me and all I could think about was hoping you were okay. I couldn’t even imagine what I’d do if you had died,” I felt Justin’s thumb on my cheek and I realized I was crying. He pulled me into a tight hug and I buried my face into his neck.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered in my ear, and my eyes shot open in disbelief.

“Sorry?! Sorry for what?” I asked, looking up at him with watery eyes. “You’re sorry for getting into the car accident? Because if so, Justin, it wasn’t your fault!”

He stared back at me with a sad expression and shrugged, “I guess so, but I’m sorry you had to go through all that.”

My breathing patterns became irregular and I wiped away a few tears. “It’s okay,” I muttered.

Silence fell between the two of us and Justin was the first one to speak after a while.

“When was the last time you saw me before the accident?” he whispered.

I looked back at him and bit my lip. “That same morning.”

“Did I tell you anything about going somewhere? What exactly made me leave the house, do you remember?” he asked innocently. I know he was just trying to remember, but I felt a pang of guilt rush through me.

It all makes sense now.

After our little fight that day, when he claimed I couldn’t go to Phoebe’s, we argued a bit before I stormed out. He was probably going to go chase after me and that’s when-… That’s when the car crash happened.

Jesus Christ… It’s all my fault.

“I, umm..” I spoke nervously. “We might’ve had a little argument that day.”

Justin’s eyes widened at this new information. “A little argument?”

I nodded.

“How little was this argument?”

“I don’t know. You were sort of tense that day. You told me I couldn’t go out by myself and that I wasn’t allowed to go, according to your thoughts,” I explained softly.

Justin raised an eyebrow and signaled for me to continue.

“I basically got mad at you and, to be honest, I think it was mostly the hormones lashing out on you. I told you that you weren’t the boss of me, neither were you my father so that means that you can’t control my life,” I said, continuing to feel the guilt rush through me. “You told me that I’m pregnant now, meaning I should be more careful, but it made me angry, saying that being pregnant doesn’t make me disabled. I pretty much stormed out and… that was the last time I saw you before I got Ryan’s call.”

I swallowed hard, looking up into Justin’s eyes to see he was staring intently at me. He held no expression whatsoever and was silent, hearing every single word I spoke. It was dead silent between us, and I could feel my heartbeat accelerating.

“I don’t know if you went out looking for me after that and that’s what caused the accident or something else but… You were just being overprotective of me and… I’m sorry,” I gulped.

Justin closed his eyes and let out a deep sigh. “I think I should be the one apologizing,” he murmured, opening his eyes back to look at me.

“W-What?” I stuttered.

“I said I’m sorry,” he clarified. “It seems to me like I was being a jerk that day and… I’m sorry.”

Is he serious right now? He doesn’t even remember his reasons behind what he did and he’s apologizing? Does he love me that much? I’m pretty sure the bitch the day the accident happened was me, not him. And here he is, begging for my forgiveness over something that wasn’t his fault…

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