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♥ Jamie’s POV: ♥

“Where are you going?” Mom asked, as I picked up my purse and adjusted my coat.

“I’m going to visit Justin at the hospital,” I said, giving her a quick kiss on the cheek, “I’ll be back in time for dinner.”

She gave me a worried look and then gave me a small smile. “Be careful, ok? It’s getting dark out,” she said.

“No worries, I’ll be fine!” I said, and left shortly afterwards.

It’s been about a week since Justin’s accident, and I think the fans know something’s up. I’m pretty sure they all know he’s in the hospital, but they’re not sure why or what happened. As for Justin himself, he’s slowly getting better, and I haven’t had the guts to confess him my feelings for the second time. I don’t even know what I’m waiting for either. All I’ve accomplished was crying myself to sleep for 6 nights.

But today I just want to change something about the way things are going. Justin’s been asking me questions about Nathan that I honestly don’t know how to answer, considering I haven’t talked to him in ages and he’s not really the father of my baby.

Besides, I remember what Ryan told me yesterday when I came over to his house because I didn’t want to be alone.

~ flashback ~

“What if he never gets his memory back?” I pouted, sitting down next to Ryan on his couch and trying hard not to break down into tears again. I think Ryan’s had enough of me crying.

“He will,” he simply replied.

“You don’t know that.”

“Well, saying he never will isn’t going to help him get it back,” he pointed out, and I paused for a second.

“I just don’t know.. Everything right now is how it was when I wasn’t pregnant, except I am pregnant so I need him..” my voice shook.

Ryan turned his head so his eyes locked into mine. “But Jamie, he still likes you.. No, scratch that.. He still loves you. Only because he still thinks he’s with a certain bitch, doesn’t mean that his feelings for you completely vanished. I think you’re missing the point… Didn’t he tell you himself that he’s had feelings for you for a while? Didn’t he write Catching Feelings about you? Nothing’s changed, if you ask me. He loves you all the same. But think about it, he must be heartbroken at the fact that you practically told him your ex got you pregnant. He might be thinking he can’t have you, and that’s not the case, is it?” he smiled lightly.

I shook my head slowly, “I love him too.”

“Then make sure he knows it,” Ryan nodded, grabbing a bag of chips beside him and opening the bag.

~ ~ ~

Now I’m here, driving to the hospital and praying that things could go back to normal soon. I refuse to find out the gender of this baby until Justin can be right there with me, finding out at the same time as I do.

After all, it’s his baby too.

Anyway, I was soon at the hospital and past the front desk, taking the elevator to the sixth floor like last time. My heart skipped a beat when I was face to face with Room 612.

Here goes nothing.

I knocked on the door five times and waited until an angelic voice said, “Come in.”

I slowly opened the door and watched as Justin’s facial expression lit up at the sight of me.

“Jamie! Hey!” he greeted me, his face forming the biggest smile.

“Hi,” I said softly, forming up a smile of my own. “How are you feeling?”

“I’m a little better. Minor headache, though,” he said.

“And your leg?”

“Hurts like shit,” he chuckled. How can he be so happy when he’s in so much pain?

“Oh.. Sorry,” I tried chuckling along with him.

“Not your fault,” he said, then pointed at the chair beside his bed, “Come sit.”

I obeyed his suggestion and walked over towards the chair, sitting down and then looking back at him. “I brought you a little something,” I smiled.

“Really?” he asked, and I swear I just saw the cutest twinkle in his eyes.

“Yup, you’re going to love it,” I winked, reaching into my purse and pulling out a bag of cookies, showing him the brand.

“Choc-O’s?” he gasped, gaping at the sight. I smirked and nodded teasingly. “I haven’t had those in so long!”

Yeah you have, I thought to myself. But you don’t remember me bringing them because of your amnesia.

“I know, but I also know how much you love them,” I giggled, handing him the entire bag. “Just take all of them, I have more at home.”

“Jamie, you are a saint from heaven,” he winked, and I immediately laughed.

“Well thank you,” I winked back. I looked back down at my hand and played with my fingers before staring up at him again. He was watching me carefully and I decided to try something. Slowly, I reached towards him and took his hand in mine, immediately feeling a spark run throughout me, and I found the warmth it gave me so amazingly overwhelming. I stared at Justin as he looked at our hands touching, and watched as his cheeks flushed a deep red and he instantly looked away, closing his eyes as if it’ll help with the blushing.

I smiled to myself. Ryan was right. Nothing’s changed. He still loves me, just like I still love him.

“Justin?” I called out softly, starting to caress his hand. His eyes shot open and he stared back at me, his lips shut in a thin line as he examined the sight of our intertwined hands.

“Y-Yeah?” he sounded nervous. Aww, he’s so cute.

“Can I ask you a quick question?” I said lowly, and it came out more as a whisper. I was still scared to ask him, but I knew I had to.

Justin sighed and I felt his hand grab mine back, so it wasn’t just me who was holding onto his hand. You actually don’t understand how happy that just made me.

He’s holding my hand back.

“Ask,” he whispered, and I felt butterflies flying viciously through my stomach. The way he said that was just so… sexy.

“Well… Umm… Do you-… Like me?” I asked anxiously, causing Justin’s eyes to widen.

“W-What?!”

“Do you like me?” I repeated. He pulled his hand away from mine and I instantly missed the warmth it gave me.

“Jamie, you’re my best friend,” he said awkwardly, shattering my heart to a billion pieces.

What?… Was that a no?

“O-Oh..” I replied in disappointment. “Sorry for asking. I was just curious.”

Justin’s eyes continued to pierce into mine and his gaze was getting a bit uncomfortable. He looked away for a few seconds and then back at me again.

“Did Ryan tell you?” he asked softly.

“Tell me? T-tell me what?”

“That I like you..” he answered shyly. My heart skipped a beat and I froze.

“Y-you like me?” I smiled.

He looked me straight in the eyes and said, “No.”

What the hell?

He closed his eyes and continued, “I don’t like you.. I.. I love you, Jamie. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you. I really do. I love you.”

My heart fluttered at his words and I gawked at him. Did he really just say that? Ryan really was right.

Justin opened one eye to peek at my reaction and I burst into giggles. He’s so cute. He’s so, so cute.

“Guess what?” I smiled.

“What?” he opened both eyes.

“I love you too. A lot,” I said and his cheeks turned red again.

“Y-You do?”

“Trust me, I’ve had feelings for you for way too long. I was just scared to find out if you loved me back..” I explained.

“I was too scared to find out if you loved me back,” he agreed.

“Really?” I asked, even though I already knew it’s the truth.

“Yeah,” he smiled, “But… What about your baby? Don’t you love Nathan?”

I scrunched up my nose in disgust, “Ew no, he’s nothing compared to you. I’m so over him.”

“But you two had sex. You have a baby together,” he pointed out, disappointment evident in his voice.

I sighed. “Justin.. You do know you’ve lost some memory because of the accident.”

“Yeah, the doctor told me. But you guys said it wasn’t much. Most of what I know is that I can’t really remember anything about the accident.”

“What? We never told you that..” I said in confusion.

“Well, by you guys I really mean Selena,” he clarified.

And it all makes sense to me…

What a bitch.

“Oh, well you actually missed a lot,” I said.

“Like what?”

“For starters… You’re the father of this baby,” I admitted, and his eyes widened.

“What?! That’s impossible! We never had sex and.. We never.. I never-…”

“-But it’s true! We got into a little argument before the accident. That was when everything was normal, we were dating, our feelings had already been confessed, and you knew about the baby.”

“When did we ever have sex?” he gulped.

“The day I told you I had feelings for you. I had to tell you again now, obviously. Since you don’t remember stuff..” I said.

“I don’t.. I.. don’t believe you,” he murmured.

“What? Why would I lie to you? This baby really is yours!”

“What about Selena? What happened to her?” he raised his voice.

“You left her because.. You wanted to be with me. And I think she wants you back, which is why she’s telling you lies and making you believe that you’re still with her.”

“Then prove it..”

“Prove it? Prove it how?” I asked.

“I don’t know. Just prove it.”

I stared at him for a few seconds, a billion thoughts running all at once. How am I supposed to prove this to him?

And then it clicked.

“Okay, well to start it off, you gave me this ring as a promise of your love for me,” I explained, showing him the promise ring on my finger. He stared at it for a couple of seconds and his eyes met mine again.

“What the-? That’s the ring my grandma gave me,” he said softly.

“I know, and she told you to give it to the one girl you truly love, right?” I smiled.

He looked back up at me, “Right.. Oh my god.. You’re not lying..”

My smile widened, “I wasn’t lying when I said I love you, either.”

“Same here,” he stared at me dreamily, admiring my face and it made me want to blush deeply. He then looked away for the billionth time today and stared shyly at the floor. “Jamie?” he asked.

“Yeah?”

“Can I try something?” he said nervously.

“Like what?” I questioned. He remained silent and tapped the spot next to him on the hospital bed. I took the hint and moved from the chair to the bed, still waiting for him to clarify what exactly is it that he wants.

“Can I-.. Can I kiss you?” he whispered, looking at me again with pleading eyes. His gaze traveled to my lips and my heart skipped a beat.

I didn’t answer his question. Instead, I leaned forward, leaning my forehead on his and smiling at him. I let him grab my chin lightly as he pulled me further towards him, adjusting his position. I waited until he began to lean forward again, his eyes closing peacefully and I felt his lips come into contact with mine.

It was as if I’ve never kissed him before, and my heart burst with joy as I felt the sparks all over again. His lips always feel like heaven... Always.

“Holy shit,” he moaned into my mouth. I let out a small smile and continued to kiss him. I felt his arms wrap around me, urging me closer as he shoved his tongue into my mouth. To be honest, I couldn’t stop smiling as we made out. I’ve been waiting so long to do this. So long to feel his lips, or his arms wrapped around me.

We continued kissing nonstop for what felt like years until we had to pull away to breathe. I caressed his cheek lovingly and gave him a smile.

“Do you remember now?” I asked, hoping that those cheesy movies where the kiss makes people’s problems go away applies to this situation.

Justin’s chest rose and fell as he tried to catch his breath from our kiss. “I just know that I love you, and now I know you love me too. But sorry, I just can’t seem to remember anything about us being together. I don’t remember ever kissing you, but now I know how it feels like. And I don’t remember having sex with you, or… Or… Wait.. We’re having a BABY together?!” he asked loudly as realization just hit him.

“Shhh, yes we are. I know it sounds weird, but I swear it’s true,” I giggled.

His gaze switched to my huge belly, where our baby is growing as we speak.

“Can I?” he asked hesitantly, reaching his hand to my stomach.

“Of course,” I smiled, and he lifted my shirt slightly so he could place his hand at the top of my belly. He began to caress me softly, a small smile forming at the corner of his lips. He ran his hand up and down soothingly and leaned in slowly, placing a sweet kiss on my belly.

“Aww,” he whispered to the baby, “I can’t wait to meet you.”

I couldn’t help but feel so overjoyed after hearing him say those words. This means that he really believes me. He believes this baby is his, he believes we were dating at one point, and most importantly, he still loves me.

So many emotions washed over me at that moment, but I also couldn’t help but feel a little depressed. Even if his feelings are still the same and even if he believes me… He still doesn’t remember those feelings we’ve shared.

Our first date, our actual first kiss, when we had sex the first time, and the many times after that. All those moments we shared that made us fall deeply in love with each other more than we ever thought was possible… is all gone in his memory.

And, you know what? I can’t pretend like that doesn’t hurt me.

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Aww, a little more #Jastin <3

But Justin still doesn’t fully remember… :(

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I decided to post earlier than the weekend because… I’m AWESOME :)

Hope you enjoyed and see you this weekend (maybe) with another chapter.

- Nina xx