[ CHAPTER 19 UPDATE ]

Your POV
when taehyung said that those hurtful words to me I wasn't thinking and said whatever that popped up in my head.

" YOUR LYING! "
" does it look like I'm lying "

I clenched my fists together because I knew that I was lying to him and I knew how much it hurts to be lied to.

" please tell me you are lying "
" no I'm not, after that night I called jimin over and things happened "

I tried to stop my mouth from blabbing lies out but I couldn't the anger took over me and I just kept on talking and saying things even though I don't mean it. I looked at him in the eye and I knew it hurt him because he had tears streaming down his face.

" maybe you are right y/n we just aren't meant to be together. Because every time where together something bad always happens and I'm starting to thinking this isn't the life I want "
" then leave and never come back here "
" is that what you really want? "

I didn't answer him because that's not what I want at all. I want him to be with me forever and I want to be happy with him again, instead I didn't want to even give him a single glance.

" y-yes "
" okay then "

He walked past me but stopped and turned to face me.

" but just know my door is always open for you whenever you decide to come back "

He left and I had a little flashback to the time he left me and it happened the same way but this time he didn't leave me for good. I heard my door close and finally let the tears out. I cried until I couldn't cry anymore I walked to my room taking out the picture of me and taehyung. I looked at it before throwing it in the trash and laid down on my bed. I tossed and turned all night not getting a proper sleep because I had so much on my mind at the moment but it started raining and that fit my mood well. I woke back up and took the picture out of my trash again cleaning it and putting it back in my drawer. I just couldn't throw away the memories because that's the only memory I had even though all I wanted to do was get him out of my mind. If I could go back I would change everything from the first day I met him in his dressing room and to the day I said yes to his proposal. I laid in bed still not being able to sleep I looked at the time and it was already four in the morning. I gave up on trying to sleep and decided to drink some coffee. I suddenly heard a knock on my door and from that point on I started to feel scared. Who would come knocking on my door at four in the morning. I grabbed my umbrella and looked through the peep hole seeing jimin standing outside. I quickly opened the door for him to come in because it was still raining hard out there. He came in with his clothes all soaked from the heavy rain.

" jimin what are you doing here at four in the morning? "
" I couldn't sleep, I had to come and see you "
" well you could've waited until noon or something you're all wet "

I reach to touch his face but he grabbed my hand looking at me with a serious face.

" y/n why do you do this to me? "
" do what? "
" why do you make me go so crazy for you? "

He took my hand bringing it close to his chest

" this is how much you make me go crazy for you "

I slowly moved me hand away from him

" you should go change, I don't want you getting sick "

I was going to walk away but he grabbed my arm again pulling me back. This is the first time I've seen him cry in front of me.

" please y/n do I have to beg for you to understand me "
" jimin please don't this "

He got down on his knees and I felt my heart break all the way when he did that.

" jimin don't do that please get up "
" no, not until you understand me "

I got down and cupped his cheeks looking at him.

" I do understand how you feel I know the feeling of loving someone and not being able to have them for yourself "
" do you really? "
" yes, and I'm sorry that I hurt you this much this was never my intention at all. You know I love you so much and I don't want to see you doing this "
" so no matter how much I try no matter how much I love you, I won't ever get you to look at me the way you look at taehyung? "
" of course not "
" I can see it in your eyes "
" I'm sorry "
" let me kiss you once more y/n "

I closed my eyes leaning my forehead on his while he slowly leaned in our lips were so close until he stopped. I opened my eyes looking at him.

" I can't do this y/n I can't do this to you "
" do what? "
" I can't and won't force you to love me "

I stayed quiet not wanting to answer him because I felt my heart break even more.

" I know you love him and I know even if I try with every will I have I won't ever get you to love me the way you love him "
" jimin, please don't think I'm a bad person I really ju- "

He quickly cut me off mid way into my sentence to say something to me.

" stop, don't say anymore I understand you completely and I don't think your a bad person at all "
" thank you "

I hugged him through his damp clothes

" I should really leave huh "
" no it's okay you can stay here for the night, I have some of your clothes here "
" why do you have some of my clothes here? "
" from times when you slept over and forgot to take your clothes home "

He went to the bathroom to take a shower while I went to lay in my bed. He came back out drying his hair with his towel.

" I'll sleep on the couch "
" it's fine you can sleep next to me "
" are you sure? "
" yeah "

He walked over to the other side before laying down next to me.

" I'm sorry for coming over "
" it's okay I understand "
" thanks "

We both ended up falling asleep from the sound of the rain and the quietness. The next morning I woke up and jimin was already gone. I went to the kitchen seeing breakfast already made on the table with a note.

" I want to apologize again but anyways thank you for understanding me "

I smiled and ate the breakfast he made for me and surprisingly it was good, saying how he's always saying he's a bad cook. I decided to just go out and get some alone time by myself because I needed to clean my mind right now. I was walking around when I saw Vanessa also walking around. She saw me and walked towards me.

" y/n can I please have a word with you? "
" we have nothing to talk about "
" yes we do, please "
" fine "

We sat down on the bench and I listened to her talk.

" so what do you need to talk about? "

She started crying and I didn't exactly know why.

" I don't know how I should say this without feeling embarrassed "
" what? "
" this baby isn't taehyung baby "

My eyes widen and I was a bit shocked

" what do you mean it's not his "
" I made a stupid mistake and I thought if maybe I told taehyung that this is his child he'll come back to me but he found out "
" so this isn't his child "
" no and I wanted to say I'm sorry for everything I've done to you both "

I smiled and hugged her knowing that she was being sincere right now.

" it's okay "
" anyways you two deserve to be together so you two should be together "
" thank you "

I had to go find taehyung but then I remember last night situation. That's what he probably wanted to tell me last night but I blew it. I heard my phone ringing and quickly picked up.

PHONE CALL
" hello? "
" y/n "
" who's this? "
" it's Annie "
" ohh hey what's up "
" someone from our work place got into a car accident and we don't know who but taehyung didn't come into work today and I wanted to call and ask if he's with you? "
" WHAT! No he's not with me "

[ CLIFF HANGER ]

Can't forget my PICTURES!! 😘😘😍😍