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Taehyung's pov.

To be honest in these past days I almost forgot how I was a cold and rude emotionless motherfucker. Because of her. I literally went on being just a simple man who is rude and cool. Until I got a call from my father.

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Past time yesterday :

I was just cool. And talking to. Layla until. My mobile ringed. She viciously was stunned. I was a bit confused at her flinching behavior as I've noticed it many times. I got the phone out of my pocket only to see that It was a call from my father. My expressions turned cold as anger took on me.

"I'll be back in a minute" I said and excused myself.

I went in the room to pick up the call. I attached the device to my ear and sat on a chair. Being irritated. Flashbacks started to come upon me I was going fine until he called.

"What do you want" I asked coldly internally having the urge to curse at him.

"Son why do you behave like that all the time" A slight deep and sweet mickering voice spoke..

His voice always sounds like this. Pain desperation and Helplessness.

"Just come to the point I don't wanna waste my time."

I spoke rolling my eyes. I've no interest in talking and listening to him.

"There is no specific reason I just called to check upon you little arrogant man" He blabbered in wanting to know how I'm doing.

'Little arrogant man' this is what he calls me from childhood as I was always arrogant but kind. I just had a little anger and nothing.

"After destroying the fuck out of me you think I'll be okay after all this time" I was really irritated by his question why can't he just leave me alone.

"Son I've gave you millions of explaintions I was never wrong. Son forget all of it that was decades ago you're my little child and I'm dying to have you by my side. Son if once the time goes away and it'll be too late for you to realize and live in guilt. Come to me child"

He spoke in awe and in a painful voice. After all that trauma he gave to mom I can't be normal. He always blaims mom and never himself. He is wrong and I have no guilt.

"Those were excuses and not explainations. I won't come to you. I can't believe you still have the shame to say this father"

Those words came out of my mouth without any thought. He has three sons. Two of them with his present wife and then me. With his ex-wife.

"Enough of it son. I am not letting you die in misery for that stupid promise from your manuplative mother. You have two months. Either find a woman to spend your rest of life or I'm marrying you to Hannelore in two months."    He says in one breath making me go in utter  shock.

"How dare you say a word about my mom from your filthy mouth and I am not marrying that german bitch. I do not obey your decision father"

I spit up in anger. I'm not marrying that bitch

"Hannelore Müller".     My father's dead friend's only daughter who has fucked with every other guy of korea. Her father was Australian and her mother was german. After her father died.she went to live in germany with her mother. Soon her mother had spent all of the wealth of her husband and came begging in Korea. I've heard they lived in Australia before. Now they have gained their wealth again and hannelore is the bitch of the bitchest girl I've ever seen. Fucking hitler species. Adolf hitler was the relative of her mother's  grandfather or something.

and how dare he say a word about mother.

"Shut up son. I reject your opinion. She is a nice girl. Find a girlfriend or marry her"

"But father-" I was about to say something but he cut up the call.

"What the actual fuck"

Flashback ended
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I was really pissed off his words and finally came back from the wonderland I was experiencing for past few days.

I fucking don't know that why the hell I shouted on layla to not to talk to jeon. It's not her shit but mine. I felt a fire ignited in me when I saw her with jeon. He can easily gain her attraction. It's all his little trap and that's why I hate him. I don't know but I don't want layla to talk to him. I want.

I want her to.....

Talk to me only.

No no no fucking taehyung you again. Why do I keep getting distracted due to that girl. That women is making me crazy. I need to ask for advice that how should I find a girlfriend and present it to father. Who would be my girl. I know he is not gonna agreee that early I need to take time and ask for help to jimin.

I was just laying on my bed getting bored. I can't sleep. I'm just empty. I just. I don't know I'm just tired maybe.

In no time I fell asleep.

...........................

"Mom I need you..." Slow mutters came from my mouth

"Don't go momm" I cried while I was unable to move.

"Motherr saveee me m-momm" My hands were trembling while me cheeks felt red my eyes felt heavy as I saw my mom drifting awayyy. I clenched my shirt tightly.

I can't fucking move.

My heart felt heavy. What should. I do.

I kept screaming unable to do anything.

"MOM.. MOMM M-mom M-mommy" I kept screaming and running behind her. She was, drifting far away from me. I was panting heavily.

Layla pov.

"Water.. Water" I was murmuring in my sleep and immediately woke up being hungry and thirsty. I sat on the bed. Looking for water here and there. I yawned lazily and rubbed my eyes. I checked the time. It was 2 am. Gosh I slowly stood up. I heard some noises coming from taehyung's room.

Some screams. I must have been dreaming. I wore my slippers and opened. The door. The screams got more clear. I was a bit confused why is he screaming? As I got more closer to his room. I heard him scream mom. I quickly opened the door and it was pitch black. The screams were trembling and more clear. I switched on the lights and saw him panting heavily.

Nightmare. It's a nightmare.

I quickly sat beside him. Started to shake him.

"Taehyung taehyung wake up taehyung" I held his hand

"No one is here wake up tae"

I called him out softly to wake him up and he opened his eyes.

He quickly lifted up his head and sat. He was breathing heavily.

"m-mom".  He slowly whispered.

" I was scared for a second. here drink water" I said

I really was scared I've never witnessed someone in a vulnerable state like this.

He stared in my direction and realised that it's me.

He took the. Glass of water and drank it all.

"Don't worry I'm...I'm here with you" I spoke worriedly as he closed his eyes and left my hand.

."...... " He whispered something and I couldn't hear it.

"Did you say something" I asked him slowly staring into his face. He was now calm. He can control himself.

"Get away from me women you are my death" He spoke staring onto my soul.

Did he actually say that I widened my eyes in shock. I felt an unhindering pain in my heart. I must have misunderstood.

"Did you not hear me I don't want to see you here go away women"

He said as anger built up in his eyes. I felt nervous at his stare.

"Taehyung but-" I wanted to say something but he cut me off

"Just fuck off women why do you care about me" He said gritting his teeth and I was pissed at him.

But I did not react he is not In a state to be right in his mind.

"I understand you are not stable right now"

I said calmly controlling my hate and rage toward this man.

"I don't fuck-" He was about to say something but I shushed him out.

I placed my index finger on his mouth and he was to stunned to speak. His eyes changed into a soft and warm tone. After some time I removed my finger and he did not say anything.

"Are you left handed" He asked staring at me. Why is he asking this question?

"Yeah" I simply replied. I really want to slap him right now.

"Do you... Do you get these nightmares everyday"  I asked being a little hesistated.

He slowly nodded moving his eyes away. He was in pain.

"Was it about your...Uh mother? "

I asked nervously not trying to get his personal information.

"Hmm" He replied In a soft mutter.

"Are you okay now" I asked looking at him and he glanced a little taking a deep breath.

"No" He slowly replied softening his eyes. He looked beautiful as hell. No I shouldn't be thinking this right now.

"I have nothing to do besides I can make you something to eat"

I asked him because I'm not his girlfriend who would lay beside him.

"I thought you were gonna say that you'd lay beside me" He spoke exactly what I was thinking.

"Neither I'm that good and nor your girlfriend" I chuckled standing up.

He laughed a little.

"What do you want to eat" Asked him standing beside his bed.

"Anything" He replied.

"Okay" I went out closing his door lightly. I'm still pissed at him. But I'm too hungry to be pissed so I'll continue being pissed later.

I think I should make hot chocolate.

I picked up the products and started to make it. While making it a thought escaped my mind that he has tattoos. He's been wearing long sleeves that's why I did not realise. The tattoos covered his right arm while his hand was all empty. The tattoos were nothing special but some random things. And some words I guess. It's a pleasure to see a man this beautiful all the time. He was even looking so beautiful while he just escaped from a horrible nightmare.

The one thing that I can never deny is that he is unimaginably and terribly and horribly beautiful. I think I should stop drooling over him. And focus on the hot chocolate.

I put the chocolate mixer in two big cups and dipped a marshmallow in mine. I kept one at the side I don't know if he would like to eat a Marshmallow in his hot chocolate. With that  I went towards his room. NOT knocking on his door. Yes bitch I'm disrespectful. I don't care whatever he's doing.

I opened the door. And saw him sitting on the floor with his head on the support of the bed he was staring at something. He was staring at a wall. An empty wall. He did not realize that I came.

"I'm sorry" He said in soft voice. Even his soft voice seems the deepest to me. His voice is magical.

I know the reason of his apology.

I placed the tray on the side corner of the bed and sat on the floor in front of him. Dim lights were crinkling in the corners of the room. Enough for me to recognize the attractive human.

"Here drink it" Ignoring his apology. I gave him the cup with marshmallow in it.

"You did not listen to me" He said not trying to stare at the cup but at me. His void eyes now spoke nothing. But sadness. With a hint of pain and a touch of worry. I do not have an idea when did I started to read someone's eyes this good.

Maybe it's because of his magical spell that he has casted on me. To stare at him forever. He doesn't even stops me for staring at him this long. My madness towards his beauty yet his cruel heart grows every day. He lets me dissolve into his eyes. I slowly feel that one day I would discover and dissolve in his soul that I haven't noticed till now.

It think I should stop staring now. I just want to drown deep into his ocean eyes. His emotions are so evident and easy to alter for me.

"I don't want to listen" I spoke again offering him to take the cup.

"I do not want this I want your words layla. Words"

I placed the cup back on the tray.

He said coming closer to me. His gaze made his presence dark and amusing. My heart starts to have a war that should It explode. His tired eyes try to unravel what's going on in my mind.

"So you are not gonna forgive me" He asked clearly deepening his voice while his eyes showed more deepness. Without saying a word. Our eye contact went for minutes.

5 minutes........

8 minutes........

13 minutes....

19 minutes....

20 minutes....

Almost half an hour passed the clock Ticking with every passing second where it was a another world for me. I just never want to escape from his eyes. They feel like home. I just want to dive deep into them. Is this what feels like eternal peace or something. Was this actually possible. I've only witnessed these things in movies and all. But this is the real definition of calm and peace. His eyes were speaking thousands of words. But now they are quiet and calm.

Taehyung's pov.

I don't know what happens to me whenever she Stares in my eyes. It's seems like my eyes are her favorite subject that she wants to study all day. And I'm too miserable to stop her. I just wanted her to go away. I did not wanted anyone to discover my fears. Even though I can't let her be closer to me and get hurt at the end. But she was too calm to listen to my fucked up behavior. I felt really guilty. I expected her to throw a tantrum and go away. She stayed. I apologized and I knew she wasn't gonna forgive me. It was evident on her face.

She was just staring at me studying my eyes the fuck out. And I found it as a excuse to look at her closely and slowly for the first time.

Her long silky hairs that cascaded down her back. The were soo silky that even in a dim light they were shining more than her.
Her light brownish eyes. Which felt like a child discovering things. It's not her eyes which are beautiful. It's the aura and charm In her eyes that keeps her energetic. She did not had a single inch of hurt. Pain in her eyes. Her eyes were full of glory. Someone who wants to discover the littlest details and is a big extrovert. She's the most opposite version of mine to exist. While I'm a deep drought misery. She is full of life and elegance. Her little face screams of elegance. I lately realized that I've never noticed any women so much that I've been admiring her and she comes to be the most beautiful person I've ever seen. It's not her face but her soul. I can directly see her pure soul peeking out and screaming happiness. How I am getting jealous of her chaotic and beautiful life. I wish I could have been the same. Full of life. Full of glory. She is the hope of the Miserable. She does not deserve Someone like me. She's the death of me. I can't even think of ruining the most beautiful piece of flower that she is. She's the only happiest soul. So simple yet so rare. No taehyung. She does not deserve a motherfucker like u. She deserves someone thousand times  better than me.

The little bangs that come out when her hair are messy. And the clingy thing that creates between her eyes when she is confused. Her bee eyes. Bigger than her. Were the proof of her innocence.

Her lips, the most simple and perfect lips. When a child draws a pair of lips that are perfectly symmetrical. So simple yet rare. The little red colour in deep her lips that glows and pinkish shade with a touch of a little hyperpigmention. She is just a normal girl like others but definitely alot rare and precious. If I try to hold her. I'm scared that she may break. I can't let her charm down. I can't.

I was swirlling in my thoughts and heard a ringing sound. It was my mobile. As I saw her face she viciously flinched and held the support by placing her hand on the ground. Why does she reacts to voices like that.?

I quickly picked up my mobile. Who the fuck died and now desperate to call me. I checked my mobile and it was a spam.

Fuckers they had to ruin me like that. I declined the call and threw the mobile on the bed not caring if it falls.

"Hey are you okay" I cautiously asked her.

"What would happen to me?" She replied as if nothing happened. I can witness the worry in her eyes.

"Why do you flinch" I asked without wasting my time.

"What do you mean" She replies unbothered. Moving her hands.

"Why do you flinch to sounds? Don't lie." I asked her staring deep into her eyes. Demanding for truth.

"I don't" She replies with hesitation as she wiggles her eyebrows.

"Tell me. And I'll tell that why do I live here" A sudden thought came in my mind. I promised to tell her about this. She'll definitely agree.

"I said so it's nothing. It's just  night and I was deep in my thoughts and was really silent and---"

"Shut up you have a trauma don't you"

I figured out the truth through her eyes they were a direct path to her mind and delicate soul.

"I said it's nothing what's with you" She vigorously replies rolling her eyes.

"Dear lady I know when you lie so don't even try"  I said sweetly with a hinge of sarcasm for her to deliver the truth.

"Why do you even care" She spoke in a loud voice that echoes through the corridors.

My eyes glanced at the hot chocolate.

"Eww who the fuck put Marshmellows in them" I was disgusted by the sight.

I horribly hate marshmallows. It was jin hyung who placed that packet there. Fucking bullshit.

"Me" She replies as she picks up the hot chocolate

"Your one doesn't have marshmallow drink it"
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She says both of the sentences waiting for me to drink it.

"Why dont you taste it first" I asked her raising my eyebrow.

"Why would I drink poison" She rolls her eyes again.

Sick.

"I'd love to" Saying the sentence I took a big sip of it. And it was not tasty. What the fuck is this. I feel like puking.

I was about to spit some bad
reviews but seeing her little face desperate of a remark and her innocent eyes. I stop myself. She accidentally added salt instead of sugar. This woman is actually my death.

"How's it? It's tasty isn't it let me take a sip too" She says as she proceeds to drink it. I immediately hold her cup and snatch it. I rapidly shove her drink and mine and take a heavy breath.

"Oh my god it was amazing you can make something else for yourself" I said to her as I kept those cups at the corner. At least she'd be proud that it was tasty. Right now I want to just cut off my throat. Im just waiting for her to go away so I puke. When did you started to be like that taehyung.

"Taehyung you ugly mob. You you grandpaa. You you bastard how dare you I was really hungry taehyung you are the worst person ever" She starts to wince and yell. Now I feel bad.

Oh wait.

"There's a red velvet cake in the fridge go eat that. Your welcome im not hungry. Thank you and really sorry for today woman"

I said a lot of that in one sentence for her to just go away she immediately left my room and i barged to the bathroom.

Puking the fuck out. I cleaned the place. Drank a little water and proceeded to sleep.

Oh fuck I forgot to ask her about her flinches. Well we'll handle that tomorrow. This woman has made me crazy.

Damn crazy.

A/n

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