If you don't already then please listen to In This Moment because I fucking love them and atm they're touring with NYD and Halestorm and holy shit if NYD and ITM are still with Halestorm when I see them imma shit babies 😂😂 Maria Brink is my QUEEN.

"For the last goddamn time: give me the phone!" Geoff giggled at his the blue boy's glare and shook his head. "Nope, I'm ordering."

"Fuck you." Awsten huffed and folded his arms. Folding his legs underneath him, Awsten flopped onto the sofa letting the soft cushions envelop his body as Geoff quietly spoke on the phone.

The tv screen showed random hoes shouting random things at other random hoes. Awsten didn't know what they were saying but he wanted to know why plates were being thrown at walls. Random.

"Chinese is ordered." Geoff said. He threw the sofa next to Awsten and belly flopped onto the younger man. The screen switched from hoes and plate throwing to blood flooding a creepy hallway via elevators.

"Geoff I was watching that!" A voice exclaimed from somewhere underneath Geoff. "Oops." The brunette sat up revealing the remote and a flattened Awsten.

"Oof."

"You good Aws?" Geoff asked in concern. The reply was a forced smile - almost a grimace - and a thumbs up. Relieved he sank back down and lay in Awsten's lap.

Automatically the youngers fingers fell to Geoff's hair, threading through it and massaging his scalp in a loving and comforting way.

"I love you Awsten. Like, a lot. You mean so much to me."

"I love you too I guess." Awsten laughed.

"You guess? Jeez, thanks for caring." Awsten giggled and lightly smacked him. "Hey I do care!"

Geoff hummed in response and wiggled in Awsten's lap causing some discomfort and annoyance. "Stop moving." Awsten warned. Smirking, Geoff wiggled even more.

"Oh it's on motherfucker." The natural blue growled and skillfully grabbed a cushion from behind him, careful not to draw any attention to the fact. While Geoff was distracted by two incredibly creepy twins, Awsten raised the decorative cushion and brought it down on the man beneath him.

Profanities fell from startled downturned lips. Hands scrambled for more cushions and soon screams of delight and a cat flew through the air.

The sound of the doorbell paused the fight as both Awsten and Geoff scrambled towards the door, leaving feathers, cushions and a disgruntled Jet spread-eagled across the living room.

Shortly both men returned to the wreckage where they took up camp in the middle of the ruins to enjoy take-away and scare themselves shitless.

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"God why does it feel like today lasted forever?" Geoff groaned, stretching. Awsten shrugged and pulled off his shirt. "Maybe because it's the wedding in two days." He suggested.

The brunette mimicked Awsten and shrugged. "Maybe."

Awsten discarded his jeans and slid under the covers, tangling his legs in Geoff's until they were both a ball of limbs and love.

"In two days we're getting married, can you believe it?" Awsten sighed and snuggled into his fiancé; he placed a hand on Geoff's chest, gently being lulled to sleep by the soft beating of his heart. The cold metal hit Geoff's skin and he winced feeling the heaviness of the small, yet incredibly expensive, compressed rock upon Awsten's finger.

"Yeah...two days." Geoff bit his lip. Concerned by his tone Awsten propped himself up on his elbow. "Hey, what's up?"

Geoff exhaled and rubbed his face with his hands. "Yeah it's just...two days. We are taking one of the biggest steps ever."

"Yeah but we've been together for three years and friends for seven," Awsten said softly. "Do you not want to get married?" He said it light heartedly but with an air of despair. He didn't want to know.

"Honestly? No."

Not entirely surprised but still shocked, Awsten nodded and sat up. A few moments passed between them before Awsten spoke. "Can I ask why?"

Geoff nodded slowly. "Ok so you know how everyone gets cold feet? This isn't it. It's not me, it's you."

"What do you mean?"

"I can't handle you!" Geoff blurted out. "I can't deal with you anymore. It's so damn hard to be around you. I can never say anything or answer any questions because you fucking tell me what to say. You're always on and you're always in my face. You're clingy, you're paranoid and you always, somehow, manage to make my day shitty as Hell." By the end of his rant Geoff was listing reasons of his fingers.

Speechless, Awsten sat staring at the wall, a blank expression in his eyes. Each reason felt like a blunt knife positioned over his heart but unable to pierce the skin.

"So the wedding's off, huh?" Awsten said with a dry laugh.

"Yeah." Geoff replied. He threw the covers back and pulled out three suitcases from under the bed. Awsten frowned and looked over to where Geoff stood, unceremoniously throwing clothes into each bag.

"What are you doing?"

"The wedding's off." Geoff huffed.

"But why are you leaving?" The blue boy didn't understand. "Because I love you!" The brunette yelled.

"That doesn't make sense!" Awsten shouted back.

"I'm breaking up with you Aws, I can't do this." Geoff closed all the suitcases with a loud sigh and dragged them towards the door.

"You said you loved me." A small voice from behind him said.

"I do but you said it's only two days. You made me realise how big of a deal this is and I can't do it. In two days in going to have to deal with you for the rest of our lives. I can't do that." Geoff's voice was quiet.

"I'm sorry." Awsten sounded broken. "All I ever was, was sorry."

The door swung shut behind him and as his footsteps faded down the stairs, Awsten allowed warm tears to glide down his face. The front door slammed; Awsten had never felt more alone.

Selfhood begins with a walking away and love is proved in the letting go.

This is so bad oml I'm sorry. I haven't uploaded in what feels like forever and I'm sorry but I have like no motivation atm. Imma try and finish Letters to Awsten and Eternally Yours but then I won't post as much of ever. Idk, depends on how I'm feeling but y'all deserve at least that. My group chat and random ships will either be discontinued or deleted coz there's not a lot of chapters so yeah, sorry guys. Thank you to everyone who's stuck with me and read my shit I appreciate all of it and I'm kinda sad but I knew it would come to an end at some point and I think this is it. I will keep this unfinished if at some point I wanna write something again but yeah, this could be the last one-shot. Hope you all enjoyed them. Love you lots and hope you have a good day/afternoon/evening. Goodbye for now xox