I Fake That Smile!

Adventure #21 / Romance #62

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Chapter 10

Damon stayed the whole day by my side, I tried telling him that I was all right and that he needed to go home and get some sleep, but he wouldn't have it. I had never been alone with a boy before, but with Damon by my side, it did not scare me. I thought It would have even felt weird, but it didn't, it felt good. He made me feel so complete. I kept thinking of how he could make me feel so different, but as hard as I tried, I could only come up with one thing and that was he cared for me. How could he care for someone like me, I am a nobody, I am nothing, I thought to myself.

I felt Damon placing his soft hand against my cheek; he began to stroke his thumb across my face. "Don't cry Sheena, please," he almost pleaded. He looked so hurt and defeated; it made me feel so bad, as I knew I was the one causing him to hurt. "Damon, please can you go and get some rest, I need a little time alone," I asked. However, every part of me wanted him to stay with me, but seeing him looking so pained and hurt was only making me feel worse.

He raised his head up until our eyes met. "Sheena please don't push me away, I don't need any sleep, all I need right now is to be here with you." Seeing how he meant every single word made it harder for me to push him away. As right now, I just wanted him to hold me close and kiss me and keep telling me everything was going to be alright , but that would be selfish, and I couldn't do that ,especially to him. I placed a kiss on his cheek while looking deep into his eyes. "Damon, as much as I love having you here please just give me an hour so I can straighten things out in my head "I pleaded with him. The look on his face was killing me so much, I felt like I just wanted to cry. For the first time I felt weak, I felt horrible for pushing him away like this, but I knew it would be for the best, even if it were for only a little while.

He hesitated for a while be nodding his head, he gave me one quick hug and kissed me on the cheek, before leaving. His soft lips left my cheek with a warm pleasurable tingling. Placing my hand over where he had kissed me sent my heart pounding in my chest. A knock at the door brought me out of my thoughts," come in," I shouted out, I was expecting it to be Cherelle, but it was not it was two police officers. As I looked at them, I began to cry, I was so scared what they were going to do to me and where they would take me, my body started to shake violently as I began panic. I pressed the buzzer as I started to scream for Cherelle. I just kept my eyes on the door screaming, waiting for Cherelle to come running in. I seen Damon by the door, I didn't care that he was one of them right then ,I just needed him "DAMON" I screamed out to him as he came running into the room and wrapped me in his arms. "Shush baby, it will be alright," he kept repeating. Being wrapped in his arms, I didn't care what would happen to me now because I felt safe, and I knew deep down he wouldn't let anything bad happen to me. Through my sobs and Damon's soothing words, I could hear screaming and shouting behind him. Looking over his shoulder, I could see Cherelle pushing and shouting abuse at the police officers, a little giggle escaped me, as I watched her. Damon looked up to where I was looking and could see he was even trying to hold in his laughter. As soon as the door closed, I burst out laughing, with Damon joining me. Cherelle gave us both a confused and puzzled look, which made us laugh even harder. The tears where streaming down my face as I was laughing so much, I held onto my side as I started to get a stitch." What?" Cherelle asked, as I could see, she was starting to get mad now. I slowly managed to stop laughing "Oh Cherelle, you looked so funny", ha, ha, "you just marched them police officers out of here," I said in between laughing. Damon was now crouched over the bed, as he could not stop laughing. It felt good to laugh, as right now I could not remember the last time I had laughed like that.

About an hour or so later the doctor walked into the room, "Sheena I think we should talk now" he said as he looked between Damon Cherelle and me. "It's ok I want them here with me if they don't mind" I asked, as I held on to Damon's hand for dear life, and looked over to Cherelle. They both agreed and the doctor took a seat. "Sheena how much can you remember?" he asked. Looking down I started to play with Damon's and my hands as I told him up to where I remembered. Feeling all their eyes on me, I did not want to look up, as I knew they were probably looking at me disgusted. "Ok, I will tell you what I have found out when we examined you, are you ready?" I nodded my head at the doctor, feeling too chocked up to speak. "Well I guess we can say that the broken ankles were caused by them pulling you out roughly from under the dumpster, how ever there were more than just your broken ankles."He took a in a deep breath while looking at me." Sheena, I am happy to say they did not rape you however, they did do other sexual things to you." Tears I had desperately tried to hold in now overflowed." We cannot say how many or who had done what, but I can say one thing, and that is you are one of the lucky ones." Hearing him say that made me angry. As my anger started to boil over, I began to shout at the doctor. "Lucky? You think I am lucky?" I could not believe it! "I didn't mean it like that," he quickly cut in. "Then tell me how you did mean it, because the way I see it ,I have been sexually assaulted beaten and left for dead now you explain to me how I am lucky." I said, crying hysterically.

Damon got in the bed beside me, and held me close to him. "Sheena please forgive me, what I did mean to say, was something must have scared them off otherwise they would have defiantly raped you, as who ever did this to you knew exactly what they wanted to do to you." I couldn't hear anymore, I didn't want to hear anymore. I just wanted to curl up and cry alone. "Please leave," I said between my cries. He did not reply me or if he did I didn't hear him, but hearing the door open and close I knew that he had left. That was when I completely broke down.

It has been two weeks now since I was admitted, and I was getting so bored of this place now. Cherelle had to go back to work on her usual ward and Lee and Damon had gone back to work too. However, every day they would all come to visit me, which was what I looked forward too the most every day. I have been doing a lot of thinking while I was alone, and I have decided that as soon as I am on my feet again I was going to leave.

Every day Damon and Cherelle left money on the side for me to get whatever I needed, and everyday I would put it into my drawer, As I had caused so much trouble for them and although I loved them all dearly, I knew it would be best for them if I were to get out of their lives. Over the last two weeks I had fallen hard for Damon I try telling myself I do not like him, but deep down I, no I already love him. Although I no deep down he could do so much better than me, it still hurts.

The doctor could not believe how quick my ankles were healing, and had even changed my casts, so I could walk on them, well with crutches as well. I was now walking down the corridor with Vicky she was one of the nice nurse's she was old but really caring and easy to talk too. I had trusted her so much that I had even told her about my plan on leaving. Even though she didn't agree with me, she did not push me. She was telling me how the doctors where saying, that within the next two weeks I should be able to go home. It felt so good knowing I would be able to leave here soon, nevertheless, I knew now I would have to make sure I have everything worked out, so when they discharge me I will be able to leave without causing Cherelle Lee and Damon any worry. As we walked back into my room, I was shocked to see a giant teddy and a big bouquet of flowers placed on my bed. I rushed over to my bed as quick as I could and picked the little card up.

To my beautiful Sheena,

I hope you like your new teddy

As I thought when you are lonely

You could give him a cuddle :)

I have also given him a name

However, you will have to wait until

Later to find out! Ha

Miss you

Love you

Damon xxx

I kept reading it over and over again, as this was not what I needed to hear right now. As I loved him and wanted him so bad, but knowing I would never be good enough for him killed me. I began to cry knowing that the man I loved with all my heart also loved me too. Nevertheless, I was going to be running away soon, how I am going to run now, knowing he loves me too, I thought to myself. I picked the giant white teddy up and cuddled it while I continued to cry out all my frustrations.

Mel xx