Okay, I'll start off with this; I'm incredibly sorry for being gone for a long time, and I'm sorry I will be continuing to. I figured sense I'm being an asshole for leaving without announcing it, I should at least explain why.
As of recently, my depression started getting worse. I could usually get by with it, but I can't anymore. I was and still am struggling, school stress on top of it doesn't help. But as of the last week or so, I was ready to commit suicide twice. I had everything set up, but both times I chickened out, for reason I don't know why. I don't understand myself or my mental state. My parents continue to blame me for it, saying it's a byproduct of my poor sleeping habits, when I'm reality, it's my poor sleeping habits that are the byproduct. But my parents don't really care in the end, they can act like it all they want, but they don't. They've made that obvious plenty of times.
Anyways, I guess I wanted to say I'm not doing well, and I don't know if it will get better. But for now, I'm gonna be gone. Just continue going on through life like I wasn't there to begin with. I'm sorry everyone for disappearing. Thank you all for being amazing friends in my life who made my life actually worth living. I'm sorry I can't repay that to you all. But for now, I'll be gone. Please don't worry about me.
Thank you again, You all really change my life.
I hope you all have been doing good and all that. I'm sorry I've probably missed so much.
Sorry for my terrible literature skills and typos.
Stay amazing my friends,
As if you couldn't be amazing.

-J