Chapter 4

 Teddy's POV

   Owen just stormed out of the room leaving me to bare my sorrow alone. I'm so tempted to run to Tom like I normally do when I'm in distress but I have to accept what he asked of me. He asked me to give him some space until I figure what I want, more specifically WHO I want. I care about both of these men so much, I love them both with all of my heart. My heart has never been torn in two like this before, NEVER. The tears continue to stream down my face and several more ugly sobs slip out. Thankfully no one else is around nor does anyone walk in on me having this emotional episode. 

      I need to leave this room soon to go back to caring for patients but I'm a mess. I wish that I could call off early and go home to be with myself, but I can't. I sigh, wipe my stray tears away, blot my face a bit with a wet paper towel, and put on a brave face. I take some last deep breaths before leaving the room finally. I don't run into Owen or Tom for the rest of my shift which is just as well honestly. As I go to clock out though, Tom is in the break room eating a very late dinner. He nearly drops his burger as we make eye contact. I fidget as I nearly shove my time card into the machine to clock out for the night. I open my mouth to simply say "hi" but nothing comes out. Tom just gives me a sad smile and says it for the both of us. Nothing over than the one word is said but yet so much is said. You know?

        As I put my coat on and grab my purse, Tom's voice cracking stops me. "T-Teddy, I miss you." My heart breaks. A small whimper slips out as I tell him "I miss you too Tom" without looking at him. I don't look at him because I know that if I do, I won't be able to leave this side. I drive home as fast as I can (all while obeying the speed limit of course because I don't want to be ticketed by a police officer). When I'm in my driveway, it's then that I break down big time for the second time today. I need make a decision and soon. I love both Owen and Tom with all of my heart, but the question, who do I love more? I've wanted to be with Owen for so long and my wish came true after so many years. I would feel awful letting that opportunity slip through the cracks but I also never expected Tom. Once I was with Owen, I thought I was certain about having been with the love of my life. 

         I also have a child with Owen. If we were to split up and I chose Tom, it would cause a lot more tension with Owen and with the co-parenting process in general. There's a saying though that always stayed with me. I'm probably repeating myself but I don't care, it relates so well to what I'm going through with this love triangle. If I loved the first person as much as I thought I did, I wouldn't have fallen for the second person too. Oh Owen Hunt and Tom Koracick, you two are going to be the death of me. Seriously...

I hope that you guys liked this chapter! :) -Mary