Trans Willlllll I love yoooou *sticks tongue out* ahhh

PANIC! AT THE DISCO IS SLOWLY KILLING ME WITH THE NEW SONGS THANKS.

I swear, I always lose chapters. . Does anyone remember a chapter I did with Nico getting his period and he goes to the infirmary and, like, gets stuff and Will's talking and he's holding the stuff and Nico's like dude shut up and give me my tampons and goes to the infirmary bathroom because I swear I wrote a chapter like that but if I didn't I want to write it because I like that idea uwu

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Will was staying at Nico's apartment tonight, which meant Nico would see him without his binder.

They had been dating for three years now, and Will only told Nico that he was trans after their first year of being together, and although Nico had been totally accepting, Will hadn't let Nico see him without his binder. Of course he would be wearing a shirt and a sports bra, he wasn't that comfortable with it yet, but letting Nico see him without it was kind of scary.

Which was why now, standing in Nico's bathroom, trying to work up the courage to take it off, he wondered if Nico would be upset if he just went home instead. He sighed, because he knew Nico would be understanding, but he would be mad at himself if he did that.

Making up his mind, he squeezed his eyes shut and quickly yanked off his binder before replacing it with his bra. He packed one of his baggy-ier shirts for tonight, and he took a deep breath as he rummaged around his bag for it.

He slipped it over his head when he found it and looked at himself in the mirror. He mentally told himself that it was okay, that Nico isn't going to judge him, and all he had to do was make it through the night with out having a full blown panic attack.

The lost thought didn't help him.

He took another deep breath before forcing himself to open the door, walking out. He put his bag back onto Nico's desk chair, then walked out to the main room. He hesitantly walked over to the couch, where Nico was sitting.

Nico looked up at him with a smile, patting the spot next to him. Will bit the inside of his cheek as he awkwardly sat down, glancing over a Nico nervously.

"Are you okay?" Nico asked quietly, to which Will nodded, the motion jerky. Nico didn't comment. Instead, he grabbed Will's hand and gave him a reassuring smile, kissing him on the cheek before settling into his side and asking what movie he wanted to watch.

Will tried to force himself to relax as he answered, putting his arm around Nico's shoulder like he's done a million times before.

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Will woke up first the next morning, and smiled down at Nico's sleeping face. Nico's face was mushed into his pillow, and Will had to let out a small laugh at the soft snores. He gently tucked a lock of hair behind Nico's ear so he could get a better view of his face.

Seeing the trail of drool on Nico's mouth, he scrunched his nose, though he was smiling.

There legs were tangled together, and Will did wake with a mouthful of Nico's hair, but he really couldn't ask for more.

He frowned when he felt a dull ache start in his lower back, or maybe it was already there? He couldn't tell. He shifted, careful to not wake Nico, and closed his eyes, hoping it would go away. The new position help for about five seconds, but it was quick to come back.

Will decided to ignore it, turning his head to look back at Nico. He moved so he was on his side, his arm was resting on Nico's stomach, his face pressed into his shoulder. Nico hummed, not opening his eyes as he put his face in the crook of Will's neck. Will smiled, his fingers gently going in a circle on Nico's side.

Nico sighed, and the air on his neck made him shiver. Will smiled and kissed Nico's shoulder.

"I hope you aren't getting drool on me," he muttered. Nico brought his hand up and awkwardly managed to wipe at his mouth.

"Sorry," he mumbled, voice groggy. Will chuckled, placing another kiss to his shoulder. It was quiet for a few minutes, and Will's pretty sure Nico's fallen back to sleep, so he closes his eyes.

He sucks in a hard breath after a couple of minutes though, his eyes opening wide as he feels a cramp go through his abdomen. Nico peaks an eye open, lifting his head to look at Will.

"You okay?" He asks, his brows furrowing. Will's quick to nod, ignoring the pain. Nico doesn't seem to believe him, and he only lays his head back down when Will gives him a smile.

Will's eternally panicking though. He didn't get his period, did he? He couldn't have, it was to early. 

Mother nature had a way to ruin everything for him though. .

He lays there, because he doesn't know what he's supposed to do. Though when he hears the soft snores coming from Nico, he carefully shifts, lifting the blankets.

He sees red staining the sheets, and he swears, the amount of blood there could match a crime scene. He feels himself panic, of course it would only make scene to have a heavy period that's roughly two weeks early. He groans in his head, and when he's looking back up, he sees red all over Nico's legs. His eyes widen, and he glances up at Nico.

He lets the sheets drop and places his hands over his face. He hasn't ever been faced with a situation like this, and he isn't sure what he was supposed to do.

He quickly and carefully got up from Nico's bed, going to the bathroom connected to Nico's room after grabbing his bag.

He looks around, trying to decide what to do. He looks at the shower, then looks around for a towel he could use. He groans when he can't find any, where the heck did Nico keep his towels?

He bits his lip and tries to find an alternative. He spots a roll of paper towels under the sink and grabs those, taking some off and soaking them with water. He then tries to wipe his legs off, though it doesn't work very well. Instead, it seems to just smear the dried blood around. He huffs, continuing to rub his legs with the paper towel.

He stops when he hears a knock on the door, his lips turning into a pout.

"Will?" Nico asks quietly through the door. Will squeezes his eyes shut for a second. He looks around, Nico didn't have a trash can in his bathroom, so he just threw the wad of paper towels into the toilet and flushed it.  He then walked over, opening the door, but hiding his legs behind it.

"Hi," he says awkwardly, glancing down at Nico's legs. Has he not noticed?

"I know I asked this, like, a billion times already, but are you okay?" Will frowns at him. Then, he sighs, going back behind the door and letting his head rest on it.

"No," he mumbles. Nico frowns, taking a cautious step forward.

"What's wrong?" He asks. Will takes a deep breath, and opens the door all the way. Nico's eyes widen when he sees Will's legs, and gets closer to Will.

"What happened?!" Nico asks, putting a hand on the side of Will's leg, "Are you hurt?" Will groans, because Nico was so oblivious and he still hasn't noticed the blood on his own legs and he was sure he was going to have to tell Nico that he got his period juices all over his legs.

"Will?" Nico asks, his voice filled with urgency and worry. Will looks at him, his heart clenching at the amount of fear in his boyfriend's eyes.

"I'm okay," he starts.

"Will, there is blood all over you!" Nico exclaims, and Will groans again, putting his face in his hands.

"I know, but it's okay," he feels his face heat up, and he keeps his head in his hands, "I got my period early, okay? It got all over your sheets, Nico, I'm so sorry, and it also got on you, which is really gross, and I'm also really sorry about that." He looks up in time to see Nico look down at his legs, but he's quickly looking back up at Will.

Will was pouting, his face completely red. Nico feels himself relax, glad that Will isn't hurt, and he puts his arms around Will. Will returns the hug after a second, his face going into Nico's hair.

"Are you mad at me?" Will asks. Nico scoffs.

"Why would I be mad? If anything I'm relieved because I honestly thought you were dying for a second there."

"I bled on you."

"You could vomit on me for all I care, as long as you're okay," Nico says. Will smiles softly at him.

"I'm sorry about your sheets." Nico shrugs as best he can while hugging Will.

"I needed knew ones anyway." That doesn't exactly make Will feel any better.

"I can buy you new ones."

"You don't need to, Will," Nico says, leaning back to look up at Will.

"But I'm going to," Will declares. Nico laughs, leaning up and kissing Will softly.

"You should take a shower," he says after a second, pulling back completely.  Will frowns.

"Do you want to take a shower first?" Will asks. Nico shakes his head, "Nico, my blood is literally on your legs and that's kind of gross, I think you should go first."

"Will, I'm honestly not that concerned about the blood. I just want you to be comfortable and I'm willing to bet standing in soiled shorts isn't comfortable," Nico says, and Will purses his lips before letting out a sigh.

"Okay," he mumbles, and Nico beams at him.

"Oh," Nico says, looking around, "I actually got a box of tampons in case something like this happened," Will's eyebrows go up in surprise, and he feels his heart flutter, strangely.

"Really?" he asks, and Nico nods, walking towards his bedside table and opening the drawer.

"I don't know if they're the right ones, though," he says he pulls out the box and hands them it to Will.  Will looks over the box, seeing that they were only regulars. He usually got supers or super pluses, but-

"These should work for now," He looks up and gives Nico a smile, "thank you." Nico smiles.

"I'll go get you a towel," he says, and Will nods. He puts the box on the bathroom counter. Nico is quick to come back, and Will thanks him when he takes the towel.

"Do you think you could put a trash can in here when you get the chance?" Will asks quietly, not looking Nico in the eyes. But Nico simply nods, turning and grabbing the can from his room and setting it besides the toilet, "thanks," Will says around a laugh. Nico smiles, leaning forward and kissing him.

"I can wash your cloths, if you want," Nico offers. Will sighs as he looks down at them. He really liked these shorts.

"I don't think there's any chance at saving them, but you can try," Will says, then shifts, "Um, I'm not sure I'm comfortable with you seeing me naked though," he murmurs quietly, facing turning a light shade of pink.

"Oh, no, I can get them when you're in the shower," Nico says. Will nods, looking at the black shower curtain.

"Yeah, okay," he looks back at Nico, "thank you, again." Nico gives him another smile and kisses his cheek before turning to leave, closing the door behind him.

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Will feels better after the shower, and putting his binder on is also slightly relieving. When he walked out of the bathroom, the sheets on Nico's bed were gone, and he figured Nico was washing them, but Will knew he was more then likely going to have to buy Nico a new set.

He sighs, putting his bag down before leaving the room. Nico was cooking when he walked out, and it looked like he was able to get most of the blood off of his legs. Nico gives him a smile when he sees him.

"Do you think you can finish cooking this while I go take a shower?" He asked. Will nods, walking over and grabbing the spatula. He laughs when he sees the heart shaped pancake inside. Nico laughs as well, and Will swears Nico is the sweetest thing to exist in this word and he wonders what he's done to deserve him.

Nico presses a quick kiss to his shoulder before going to take a shower, and Will's content cooking the heart shaped pancakes.

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I kind of hate that ending, but oh well.

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