Walking into his shared apartment with Percy and Jason, he grumpily put his things down on he counter.

"Something wrong?" Percy asked, pausing his conversation with Jason.

"No," Nico sighed, and though for a second, "Do you guys- do you guys think you could, like, stay some where else on Will and I's anniversary in a few weeks?"

"Why?" Percy asked, and Jason elbowed him, giving him a look, causing Nico to blush.

"Ooooooh, yeah, we got you," Percy smirked.

Nico mumbled his thanks, and went to his room, flopping on his bed

———

When it was officially their 3rd year anniversary, Nico was anxious all through dinner. He just wanted to enjoy his time with Will, in a restaurant that took months to save money to get a table at, but he couldn't help but think back to his empty apartment and what would be happening tonight. .

"Are you sure you're okay, Nico? You seem really off."

"Yeah, there is just a lot of people here," he said, which wasn't necessarily a lie.

"Do we need to go?" Nico quickly shook his head, giving Will a small smile.

"No, we worked hard to save money for this place, I want to enjoy it with you." Will's lips were pursed, his eyebrows furrowed.

"I love you, but if your are really that anxious we should leave."

"I don't want to leave," he said seriously. Will sighed, nodded.

"Okay. How about after dinner we go and get ice cream?" Will smiled, "their desert option here is to fancy for me." Nico laughed.

"That works for me."

———

Nico was the last to finish his ice cream, but Will didn't seem to mind in the slightest. The ice cream parlor was much more empty that the restaurant they were at, which made Nico calm down a bit, but he was still on edge.

When Nico had finished off his ice cream, Will smiled and threw away their trash, than walked back and took Nico's hand in his.

"Should we call it a night?"

"No," Nico said quickly, gripping Will's hand, "uh, why don't we go back to my place and watch a movie or something?"

"Yeah, I'd like that," Will smiled softly, tugging Nico to his car.
In the car though, Nico couldn't help from bouncy his leg nervously as Will drove, and was thankful that Will didn't seem to notice.

Walking into the apartment, Nico dropped his keys in a small bowl by the door.

"How about we get in pajamas before we start the movie?" Nico suggested, to which Will nodded.

"I don't have any pajamas here," Will said. Nico looked at him.

"I have a few of your sweat shirts," he admitted sheepishly, "and, I don't know, you can just chill in your boxers I guess."

"Mm, I don't think I'm exactly comfortable with Percy and Jason seeing me in my underwear." Nico blushed, looked away.

"They aren't going to be here tonight." After a few seconds, Will spoke up.

"Why?" Nico shrugs.

"I asked them if they could go some where else for the night." Nico looks at Will, and sees a stupid smirk on his lips, "stop it!"

"What?" Will laughed, "I didn't do anything." Nico huffed.

"I'm going to change." He walked off to his room, and quickly change into his pajamas.

Walking into the living area, he saw Will scrolling through movies on Netflix.

"Anything good?" Nico asked, walking over and sitting next to him.

"Eh, why don't you look while I go change?" Nico nodded, and grabbed the remote from Will.

———

After the movie, Nico looked over at Will.

"That was terrible," Nico laughed, and Will let out a yawn. Frowning, Nico looked away.

Had he waited to long? Maybe he shouldn't have waited so long. What if he was too tired? Nico bit his lip.

"You okay?" Will asked, and Nico nodded.

"Yeah. Are you tired?" Will shrugged, looking at Nico.

"Are you?"

"I guess?" He replied.

"Why don't we go to bed?" Will asked, and Nico nodded, swallowing thickly.

They walked to Nico's room, laying down on Nico's bed. And as Will went to turn off the lamp on the bedside table, Nico reached out and put a hand on his chest, slightly pushing him so he was laying down.

Nico leaned over him, pecking Will's lips. He looked at Will for a second, before leaning back down and kissing him again, longer this time.

Nico sighed against Will's lips, trying to calm his nerves.

Crawling over his boyfriend, Nico burried his hands in Will's hair, Will putting his hands on Nico's hips.

The kiss quickly heated, moving to a French kiss. And soon enough, Will hands were moving past his waistband.

"This okay?" Will panted, and Nico nodded, "Do you have lube or anything." Again, Nico nodded.

"In the drawer," he said, and Will grabbed for it. He coated his fingers, his hand going back into Nico's pants and into his boxers.

Nico held his breath, putting his head into Will's shoulder as Will touched him.

"Are you good?" Will asked, and Nico nodded, putting kisses on Will's neck in an attempt to convince him, and maybe himself, that he wanted to do this.

Will seemed to not notice anything off, and slowly, one of his fingers slipped inside of Nico, and he hissed, because it burned, it hurt so bad but he didn't want to upset Will.

Biting his tounge, he kept his head in Will's neck as Will's finger went deeper, a second one prodding at him. His breathing spead up, he didn't want to keep Will from doing anything, but it hurt. His hands gripped at Will sweat shirt as the second finger went in, tears welling in his eyes.

"You okay, Nico?"

"Y-Yeah, just stop for a second, please," he insisted, and he felt Will nod, his fingers staying still.

Nico's breath didn't even out and the burning didn't go away, but Will wanted to do this, he wanted to go all the way with Nico, they had gone 3 years without so much as seeing each other naked for fucks sake, couldn't Nico just make Will happy like Will made him happy? Will had made so many sacrifices for him, it was only fair he do something for him, right?

"Okay," he murmured, and Will continued with his movements, his second finger going deeper. He started moving his fingers, and Nico felt that if he didnt get Will to stop, he would burst into tears.

Will's other hand moves to his rear, and he squeezes it slightly, and Nico groans because- no. He was not comfortable with this. He didn't like the way Will was touching him, he didn't like the way his fingers were slowly scissoring inside him, how they were stinging him, and how a third finger was slowly seeping in as well.

He loved Will, he really did, but he couldn't do this.

He shakily reaches out, grabbing onto Will's arm.

"P-Please stop," he mumbled, tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Does it hurt?" Will asked.

"Please stop," he repeated, a sob mixed in with his voice. Will was quick to withdraw his hands, pushing on Nico's shoulders to look at his face, to see the tears and the pain there.

"Nico?"

"I- I can't do this, Will, I'm sorry," Nico cried, moving to sit down beside him, Will moving to sit up as well.

"Nico, no don't be sorry, I- I should have made sure you were really comfortable with this- I didn't mean to push you into anything-"

"It's my fault though," Nico all but shouted, wiping at his eyes, "we've been dating years and I'm still not comfortable with you seeing me or touching me? How does that make sense?"

"Nico-"

"I'm sorry," Nico cried, "it just- it hurt so much and it didn't feel good or anything, I'm sorry."

"Can I hug you?" Will asked quietly, Nico glanced at him.

"I- I think I just want to be alone right now?" He sniffled, and Will nodded. Moving to get up, and walking out to the main part of the apartment, closing the door behind him.

Nico brought his knees up to his chest, unable to stop crying.

After a while, Nico walked out of his room to see Will sitting at the breakfast bar, chewing on his nails nervously. When he saw Nico, though, he put his hands down and look at him with concern.

"Are you okay?" Nico nodded mutely.

"I think I'm going to take a shower," he mumbled, and Will nodded.

"Do you need me to go home?" Will asked, looking on the verge of tears himself.

"No, I don't want you to leave." Will nodded, and Nico walked off to the bathroom, showering quickly.

When he walked back out, Will was watching something random, but looked at Nico with worry, his eyes red and puffy.

Nico walked over to him, sitting down and leaning against him, and Will hesitantly wrapped an arm around Nico.

"I'm sorry," Will mumbled, and Nico shook his head, "Can I ask why you let me, you know, if you weren't comfortable with it?" Nico shifted, playing with a string on his pants.

"I heard you and Cecil talking," he mumbled, "you said you were kinda bothered we hadn't done anything, and I don't want to loose you." Will sighed, pfifting his head on top of Nico's.

"I'm not going to leave you," he replied, his voice a whisper, "And I'm certainly not going to leave but we aren't having sex. Sex doesn't make a relationship, I don't want you to feel like you have to do anything with me because you have to. I want you to want to, and if you don't I don't, Okay?" Nico nodded, tears in his eyes because he wasn't totally convinced, but either way snuggled a bit closer to Will.

"I love you," Will mumbled.

"I love you, too."

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Yee, this is Unedited.
School is starting up again, so updates won't be as frequent <3

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