Life is what we cherish. Some people had a different way to take care of it. But some others are taking it for granted. There are lots of definitions and meanings of how we choose between life and dream.

In my journey, I am a fan of TV creations like a TV dramas. Since I was a kid, whenever my favorite telenovela or series is up, I give all my attention to it. Then, as I grew up, my fondness for any film creations become severe, lol. 

in my high school days, I started to write stories and I wasn't aware that I had that creativity in me. Since then, I never stopped writing because it will become my first love. Then, my dream was created. But it was stopped because I made it a priority for my college entrance.

I took the course that they want for me which is I don't have any interest in it. It was the second time from my high school days that I failed in my subject, my major to be exact. It gives me loneliness and disappointment in myself. From accountancy, I shifted to being an English major. I encourage myself and told myself that maybe, this course will help me to become a writer.

Guess what happen. I still failed because of my minor subject which I don't like. Then, I transferred to Dev. Comm. which is a sister of Comm. Arts. I become hopeful again and later I failed again. 

It was a long agony and I develop anxiety and depression. Because I disappoint myself and my family, I am on a verge of killing myself because I am such a failure. Then, my family decided to transfer me to our hometown so that I can study there. I took Education which I successfully fulfilled with the help of my classmate.

In my current state, I become a call center agent and it was my first job. I know it's far from the program that I've graduated but my goal is to have a job for me to have some money. I grew up in a lower middle class and even though my mom is an OFW, it does not mean that we're gonna live a comfortable life.

I can say that I always live my life as a coward. I never share with others what my dream is. Maybe because I doubt their reaction. They might say that it's a nonsense dream to become a writer because it is not stable and we can't possibly know what will happen shortly. My family has this kind of thought that they want their children to be successful in the field that they wanted.

Yeah, it is a good dream but that is not the dream that I wanted. I become frustrated sometimes because of the pressure. Where do I choose? Is it the life that they wanted me to be or the dream that I always wanted?

The thing is, I just follow them because of my fear that they will be disappointed in me if I did that bravely. I know for myself that I will not face them because my pride is too high.

I just conclude that whether they manipulate a little over my life but it is always on me at the end of the road. It's on me which I should choose. The life they've always wanted, I can do that but at the same time, I also try to do what I love. 

People do intend to blame others for their failures but never look unto their own mistakes because we intend to protect ourselves from shame. I'm saying that we should always be aware of our own mistakes but we should try to accept and do something about them. We should let them see that we can do better in our own decision. That we can be successful even though we didn't give the things they want for us.

As for me, no matter what I choose, I always end up not giving up both life and my dream. Even though I'm not that famous writer, I just continue writing because this is my first love and as for the life that they want me to be, as a teacher, I will try my best to be a role model to my future students. That I can give the better learning that they need for their future.