Trigger Warning;
major angst and depressing thoughts ahead.

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I made in less than 5 mins up on dash. )
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Amber had sat there on the same couch listening to her mother drone on and on about what a failure Amber was. Sure she didn't openly call the girl a failure but her words,they implied that.

And those words cut Amber's broken heart into a million more shattered pieces. She felt hopeless and unwanted and all the girl wanted to do was bolt out of that suffocating house and atmosphere.

She never had anyone believing in her , she was never the better daughter even though she deserved the title. She was tossed aside like an odd piece in a puzzle.

Then her mother chattered on about how perfect her sister,Sarah is. Despite Sarah being worse than Amber.

The green eyed girl remembered how her mother would always favour Sarah over Amber.

Sarah was better according to their mother. Their mother also believed that Amber was jealous of Sarah.

Amber couldn't phantom why she would be jealous of someone who wasn't considerate of others.
It didn't fit and Amber wanted to yell out "I AM NOT JEALOUS OF HER" but she couldn't. She bit her lip to swallow the frustration burning inside of her.

She felt like screaming at the top of her lungs but Amber was so tired of trying to be perfect and trying to fit in.

She just wanted a little appreciation,a little adoration and a little love that she wished she didn't have to crave for.

She felt wrecked coz for her family meant the world but for her family Amber didn't mean much.

Amber slipped further down into the black pits of depression where her fears and insecurities manifested themselves into self hatred and darkness.

She was never talked about at parties or gatherings in a positive way.

And so Amber began to view herself in a negative way.

Just like they did...

She remembered when she had gotten her first panic attack and her parents didn't believe her sickness was real. Sarah thought she was faking it. They all thought she was overreacting.
That the pain Amber felt wasn't justified for her to feel so.

Amber lost friends,she lost her health,her little smiles but most of all she lost herself. The demons had won,they had tore the girl apart until there was nothing left of the previous Amber filled with hope.

When Amber met Brent she expected her life to change for the better. She had waited every night for her knight in shining armour but Brent just brought along more pain for her to drown in.

She tried so hard to live for herself and to be positive but they never allowed her to.

Whenever Amber tried to be her old self again they'd restrict her.

She felt trapped and trapped she was.

The pain so real and intense it made her wanna curl in on herself and disappear.

"Amber are you even listening to me?!" Her mother yelled jolting Amber away from the painful past.

"Yeah I'm sorry" she responded wiping away the fallen tear.

Her phone beeped and Amber excused herself.

Kai:
Hey cute stuff
I'm outside.

Kai:
i cant wait to see you.

Amber smiled and responded with a short reply

Amber:
Be right there ♡

"Mom I have to go pick up some dinner for Brent and I. I'll call you". She grabbed her jacket and went to the door.

"Take care of that boy" Her mother called out and Amber rolled her eyes for her mother couldn't see her "will do"

She swung open the door just as Sarah was about to knock.

Oh great...

Amber scowled at the sight of her sister but quickly contorted her expression into a fake small smile "Sarah"

"Oh my god, Amber! You look in desperate need of a haircut" Sarah greeted.

Amber stepped aside as her sister's 6 inch heels paved way for her to come through.

She was gonna leave but Sarah stopped her "Hey where are you off too? Aren't you gonna talk to me?"

No I don't want to.

She stood at the threshold of the door. Glancing at the sky wishing she could leave already. People walked on the sidewalks. Some texting on their phones. Her eyes spotted a familiar mop of immaculate brunette curls.
Katherine...?

"Amber are you deaf?!" Her sister yanked her arm and Amber lost focus of the brunette vampire. Maybe she was seeing things. She shook her head and glanced at her sister. "Sorry I err I would but I have to get dinner for Brent".

Sarah cackled "Brent is still with you?Oh my f*cking god!" she exclaimed in shock.

"Yeah..."

"Well you're lucky he even bothered to stay with you that long. He can actually tolerate you" Sarah laughed. "I'm kidding" she added.

Amber huffed "goodbye sarah" and with that she was out the door, slamming it shut behind her. And as she descended the few stairs from her mothers door step and hit the sidewalk she saw Kai standing there.

And Amber knew that he heard everything. Judging by his scrunched eyebrows and questioning gaze.

He saw Sarah and Amber talking by the edge of the door.

"Amber who was that?"

"What? No hello?" Amber played it off and playfully pouted.

"Amber..." Kai narrowed his eyes.

"Its no one important just my sister Sarah. Can we not worry about that?" Her green eyes pleaded. She just got away from them she didn't feel like discussing her family.

"Too late coz I'm already worrying about you" Kai placed his hands on either side of her cheeks. "You need to tell people to treat you better. To treat you the way you deserve".

Their eyes meeting ,blue-grey and green as Amber's breath hitched at his words. So simple but so sweet.

"It doesn't matter" she whispered pulling his hand away from her face and locking their arms together instead. "Let's talk about something else please?" Her green eyes vulnerable and Kai's heart went out to her and so he caved and dropped the subject.

"Fine only because you aren't ready to tell me yet"

Amber blushed at how considerate he was and Kai chuckled "so where to Mr.Parker?"

"To the stars,miss" Kai dreamily sighed.

Amber giggled "Did you just...?"

"Yeah I did" Kai shrugged knowing that quoting titanic would make her smile.

They shared a look before the two misfits laughed aloud as the sun slowly began to set behind them...

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Started off angsty and depressing
but I'm a sucker for fluff and it just flowed out.

Sorry for not updating
I had this in my drafts but wasnt happy anyway.
Here it is.
I'll be editing this book when I'm done with it.
As well as the layout