"I lost myself trying to love someone who was never mine."

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"Did you cry?! Why?" The little girl asked, anxiously as she touched her reddened, puffy eyes with her small feathery hands.

"N-no I didn't." Y/N swiftly lied and the girl looked at her for a moment, as if something was going on in her little brain.

Sarang slowly tip-toed and held the woman's shoulders for support as she landed soft kisses on her eyes and cheeks, momentarily taking th woman aback by her adorable actions.

"Momma used to say that the kiss of love lessens the pain. I hope you feel better now." She remarked, remembering her mother's words as her eyes shined with glee, her lips automatically curving up into a delightful smile.

It was astounding for a girl so young to have such deep empathetical knowledge. In all honesty, she was far more emotionally intelligent than any other person in Y/N's life presently. Her small pouty smile made the woman's lips curve up into a smile, her lips trembling and eyes threatening to fall the tears anytime soon.

Y/N couldn't help but sob silently and the girl pulled her into a hug as she whispered soothing words. One might wonder how a five year old was capable of speaking such deep sentences, but this girl was truly an exception.

"You're not my momma but if she were alive, I'm sure she would've been like you and I can't see my momma cry. Please..."

"I- I won't cry. Promise!" Y/N spoke out, stuttering and instantly wiping her tears, smiling for the girl. She finally smiled, a genuine smile after a long time.

Jaehoon stood silently on a standstill as he looked at the moment unfolding, a small smile crept upon his face as he walked towards the duo. Momentarily, he requested Sarang to play on the swing so that he can talk with Y/N and she nodded, giving the two some privacy.

Both of them sat on a bench with a safe distance, as he broke the ice cold silence.

"How have you been?" He asked, being fully aware of her defiant state. She was looking downwards as she mindlessly played with her fingers.

"Anything but fine," She replied, blankly gazing at nowhere.

"Me and Jungkook will get separated soon but don't worry I'll keep Sarang safe with me. If something were to happen to me, my brother will officially take her custody." She continued, blurting out the information, turning towards his direction as his eyes widened in aghast.

'How can she speak something so miserable, this calmly?!' He wondered, his mouth opened to speak something but nothing came out for sometime.

Finally, gathering up all his courage he spoke out with a shaky breath.

"Y/N... I don't know what happened between you two but remember one thing, Jungkook loves you. He might be childish and crazy at times but he loves you more than anyone else." Jaehoon proclaimed as pinpricks hit his throat while speaking.

He had feelings for Y/N but he definitely can't see her unhappy.

Afterall, your tears matter more than anything to the people who care for you, right?

So was the case with Jaehoon. He has seen how elated she appeared with Jungkook and how much love he has in his eyes for this woman.

'How can they not be together?!' He muttered to himself but her reply left him speechless for a moment.

"You sure you have feelings for me? Afterall, this is the best time for you to claim your stance." She replied, laughing dryly but he shook his head in denial.

"I love you, Y/N and I'll keep loving you but that doesn't mean that I'm going to destroy your happiness. Your happiness... lies in Jungkook, you deserve him. At least have a talk with him rather than rushing for a divorce, you both... Don't deserve all this." He answered with all honesty. Even though his heart ached at her misery but he made up his mind to mend up their relationship.

'This is the least I can do to cleanse all my sins. For Y/N, for Shein and above all, Sarang.' He thought to himself, glancing at Sarang's little figure walking up towards them.

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(Meanwhile)

A swift knock on the door followed by more knocks made Han Seok swiftly get up from his position and open the door but the person in front made his blood boil.

"Why the fuck are you here?!" He dead-planned, cocking his brow, his palms turning into fists and his knuckles turned white whilst staring at the person.

Jungkook.

"Hyung-" He tried to speak something but was cut off by the elder's words.

"What more do you want? Was destroying Y/N not enough for you? Stop being a fucking arsehole and fuck off right this instant before I do something you'll regret!" He threatened, posionous words rolling out from his tongue but the other stood still.

In the flash of a second, he collapsed on his knees in front of Han Seok, tears flowing from his eyes and his eyes were filled with remorse. His action left the elder baffled because for a man as powerful as Jungkook, this gesture was out of question.

Love certainly makes us do things we never knew we could.

"H-hyung please! Please listen to my side of the story! I beg you!" He cried miserably like a broken soul and it's only now, Han Seok observed something on his arms and his eyes softened for a minute moment but he remained firm on his ground.

"Five minutes, speak!" He ordered, motioning him to get inside and sit on the couch.

Half an hour passed by and Han Seok listened to everything carefully, each and every word said by the younger striked through his brain as he was left astounded for sometime. He was caught up in his dilemma for some time before he finally came up to a conclusion.

"Do you wish to sort out things with her?" The elder questioned in a firm tone, looking dead straight into the other's soul.

"I just want to apologise. I know there's no future of us left anymore." He replied, shaking his head and the other nodded.

By now, Jungkook was aware of one thing straight- he didn't deserve Y/N.

'After all, being with me gave her pain, immense pain.'

"Children's Park.... She's there with Sarang." Jaehoon gave the information and the younger's ears perked up as he listened intently.

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Y/N was left baffled by Jaehoon's words, her hold on the metallic bench tightened as she wondered was it really her who was rushing all this time? Did she even deserve all this? Her mind flipping with thoughts here and there as Sarang's voice brought her back to reality.

"Uncle, I'm famished!" She exclaimed with a little squeal as her feet tapped on the ground.

"Eat well, sweetheart." Y/N chuckled and pinched her cheeks. Soon, she got hold of her belongings and bid a goodbye to the uncle-neice duo.

For half an hour she strolled mindlessly throughout the huge park to recollect her thoughts and have a clear mind. She stood on a bridge letting out a sigh and a tiny drop of cold water fell on her knuckles, soon followed by more drops.

The people started running back to their homes as it started pouring heavily in a minute, but Y/N walked aimlessly, her mind filled with thoughts to even bring herself to run away from here. She just wished to have some serenity and this rain along with her apparently, being the sole person standing here brought her that solace. She didn't care if she got a cold after that, all she wanted was to just walk carelessly for a while.

Just as she stood in the middle of the bridge, a black umbrella covered her figure, making her flinch. She peeked upon the hand of the person covered with tattoos and then at his brown orbs, his face covered with a black mask. In no time she recognised the man.

Jungkook.

He was here.

Her eyes jolted upwards and widened as she looked at him. They silently stared at each other for a while until needles started pricking in her throat and she started to cry, her trembling lips failing to maintain her composure. Droplets of water dripped down from her drenched hair and clothes and Jungkook observed, she was shivering in the cold.

"W-Why are you here?" She stuttered, nibbling her lips as she furiously threw the umbrella from his hands to the side, making both of them drenched in rain.

The male was left completely stunned by her action and he didn't speak a word anymore, just pulled her by her wrist towards his car. He was here to have a talk but her state made him weak in the knees. He walked with fast steps, fighting his own tears from falling.

"L-leave!" She screamed, trying to break free from his hold and he looked back straight into her soul, the water dripping from her hair and lashes and the beige bodycon dress sticking to her body like another skin.

He tried to control his rage a few moments ago, as his blood boiled when he saw a few men at a distance were gawking at Y/N with lustful glances. He controlled himself from landing a punch or two and at present, he closed his eyes for a moment to let out a deep breath.

"Han Seok hyung told me to pick you up." He uttered in a calm tone, leaving her perplexed and soon followed by her yelling.

"I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE WITH YOU BASTARD!" She screamed losing her patience and was about to turn around, until he once again pulled her with himself

He hastily made her walk along with him and cross the bridge, the rain soaking both of them. His black shirt constricted towards his torso as he forcefully made the stubborn woman sit inside the car.

She tried to unlock the door of the car but all her efforts turned out to be futile. Frustrated by his actions, she yelled out on him.

"Oh so now you've accustomed to such resorts? Kidnapping is a fucking crime Mr. Jeon!" She dead-planned, her words stabbing his soul.

"Put me behind the bars then." He counterattacked, trying to remain calm as his told on the steering tightened.

"What the hell do you want now? Was destroying me not enough for you, what else do you wish to have now? Would you finally be at peace when I die? That'll be wonderful!" She yelled losing her last nerves and this time Jungkook glared at her, his patience hitting it's limit.

Death always scares him.

After all who can understand the pain of loss better than him?

Losing the woman he loves would shatter him into uncountable pieces, he couldn't even think about it.

"Not a word anymore, Jeon Y/N." He halted the car for a moment and shushed her by placing his forefinger on her lips. The tiny action awakened her inner beast, as she blurted out without a thought.

"What'll you fucking do? Force yourself upon me, again? Hit me? Crumble me? Tell me what-" The thread of his patience broke out at her uncontrollable words.

"STOP SPEAKING AND SIT QUIETLY!" He raised his voice and her nose flared in rage.

"SHUT IT YOU FUCKER!" Y/N scoffed and yelled back, pulling him by the collar, a few inches gap left between the two of them as she breathed out nervously. Her hands trembled and her whole body ached in pain and Jungkook couldn't bear to see her like this.

He never wished for her to be this way. He would've kept her on a bed of roses... How can he ever see her cry?

But just to make her stop from speaking, he blurted out words which he didn't mean.

Words that shook her soul.

"One more word and I'll make sure you'll never be able to meet Sarang."

She stilled, her hold on his collar loosening. Momentarily, she turned her face towards the window and whispered, her voice evidently sounding tired.

"You've changed. You're... Not the guy I loved."

His lips trembled as he listened to those words, a lone tear falling from his eyes as he drove silently. The whole ride went on with dead silence, the silence that kills.

He cried silently as his vision blurred whilst driving. She gaped out of the window for some time, until sleep consumed her due to all the stressful happenings of today and Jungkook steadily covered her up with his blazer and increased the temperature of the heater.

As he pulled the brakes and parked his car in the parking, he called Han Seok to inform about Y/N.

"She's at my house, hyung." He informed.

"Take care of her. A single scratch on her and I'm snatching her away from you, forever." The elder threatened with a stern voice.

"That won't happen, hyung." Jungkook reassured and cut the call.

He looked at the sleeping figure of his wife for a moment, she appeared peaceful like this. Her soft breaths could be heard in that dead silence and his gaze finally landed on her figure.

"Are you not eating well?" He questioned to her sleeping figure.

"Don't hurt yourself because of me, please." He sobbed silently as he caressed her hair and stayed in the same position for sometime, until he observed her scuffling uncomfortably in that position.

In no time, he carefully pulled her out of the vehicle and carried her in his arms towards their once shared bedroom. Memories of those times flashing in head like a whirlwind as he slowly made her settle on the bed.

He sat on the bedside and stared at her for a moment, caught up in his thoughts as something clicked in his head. He moved towards their walk in closet and brought up a comfortable t-shirt and a pair of shorts for her to wear because her dress was drenched, no way he wanted her to catch a cold.

Jungkook tried to wake her up to have change of clothes because he respected her boundaries but she wasn't waking up and slept like there's no tomorrow.

With no option in hand, he carefully changed her clothes with shivering hands, making sure to not disturb her sleep and laid her back on the bed. He checked her body temperature and sighed in relief as it was normal.

"I'm sorry for shouting at you, I'm sorry for everything you've to go through because of me. Will you ever forgive me, wife?" He apologized, caressing her hair and took her cold hand in his as he rubbed soothing circles on her knuckles.

He placed soft kisses on her closed eyes and cheeks before tucking her to bed, pulling up the warm comforter and then walked away to sleep on the couch.

He couldn't bring himself to sleep beside her after everything.

He already forcefully dragged her along with him, now he won't cross any boundaries.

'Tomorrow will be the end of your misery, Jeon Y/N.' He vowed to himself.

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POTATO'S NOTE:
Happy ending or Sad ending? 👀

I love angst, honestly but even for me it was relatively tough to write these chapters. The next chapter is gonna be a blast! (oops! Spoiler 😉)

And guess which album's songs was I listening while writing these heartbreak chapters? It's "Aashiqui 2" songs (Indians would definitely know 🙂)
My inner heartbroken girl was like: *Ok lets drown in my own tears*