*fmv; kookie'sohmygod

#smut

I knew there was something happening when Jimin left like that earlier. He's making me worry again, thinking about where he is, what he's up to. Why does he always do this to me? I wanted to leave with him but Jungkook was gripping on me too tight. I saw him smile back then and since then, I couldn't take it off my mind. I don't want to think about it — what I fear about — but that smile meant something. 

I put a tank top on and climbed on bed in my underwear. Jungkook left after dinner. I don't know where he went but it seems like he's not going home tonight again. It's better for me. I needed rest from him. Jungkook never made me feel like a woman. He treats me like a whore, not as his wife. I was stupid to think he'd change after saying sorry countless times before. He humiliated me, degraded me, hurt me, calling me all kinds of names and when he's satisfied, he kisses me as if he truly loved me.

When he stays out, I know he's sleeping with other women. Women he pays for a good fuck when he doesn't want me, when he wants someone someone more compliant. I used to cry and pity myself during those nights. He married me but he slept with other women and he expected me to understand his needs. Well , now I understand his needs. I don't even care anymore if he sleeps around when I'm not looking. I just feel uneasy when I don't see him, when I don't know where he is or what he's doing because any minute he could find out about my secret affair with Jimin.

After worrying so much, I was finally able to find sleep. It was almost morning when I felt him slide under the sheets with me. He clung onto me, hugging me from behind while smelling like booze again but now it was mixed with his slut's perfume. I escaped his grasp and moved away from him, wanting to vomit all of a sudden. I shot up from bed and ran to the bathroom, not bothering to close the door behind me anymore because I could feel my vomit right at the entrance of my throat. Jungkook inched behind me as I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom, my arms around the toilet seat.

"Are you okay?" He spoke, sounding sober all of a sudden. He helped me get up, holding me by my arms.

"I'm okay. I just suddenly felt sick. Maybe I ate too much.." I said and opened the medicine cabinet, looking for antiemetics when he saw it. 

"You're not pregnant, are you?" Jungkook asked.

I wasn't prepared at all. Am I pregnant? I started to doubt myself and my mind became crowded with so many questions. I only started taking the pills a few days ago and being pregnant is highly possible. However, I don't know which one of them did it. I was actively engaged with both of them.

"I didn't know you were on birth control? You didn't tell me about that. Is it because you don't want me to know? How long has this been going on?"

I haven't gotten a chance to answer as I rinsed my mouth and took my medicine to stop me from vomiting. It angered Jungkook that I was not replying, his jaw clenched and then he shut the medicine cabinet close and tugged on my arm forcefully. He lifted my face up to make me look at him. "You didn't take them when we got married. Why now? Are you sleeping with someone else? Why are you taking these goddamn pills, Y/N!? Who are these for?"

"It's for me!! Not for you. For me, Jungkook! Not for anybody else." I pried his hands from my face and pushed him away when I finally had enough of him screaming at my face like I'm an emotionless doll who's not capable of feeling anything. "Can't I at least do this for myself? You act like nothing is happening between us, like you don't touch me every fucking night and leave your cum inside me to take care of by myself."

I was not done yet. Not until I emptied everything that's in my chest. "I'm not your sperm bank, Jungkook so don't you accuse me of sleeping around just because I changed my mind and I don't want to get pregnant." I was about to turn and leave for the guest room when he caught my wrist.

"I'm sorry." He mumbled softly and gently pulled me in to lay my head on his shoulders and my face against his neck. Jungkook smoothed his hand on my back to calm me down.

"I'm so sorry I got angry. I'm sorry, Y/N.." Jungkook repeatedly whispered in my ear. I hate him. So fucking much.

I pushed myself away when I finally took control over my body again. He wiped the remaining tears from my eyes as I looked up at his face, "Where have you been, Jungkook? Why are you only coming back now?"

"I met an important person and we got into a long talk." Jungkook said. He lied so fluently. It was his language. Mine too. We're both just lying to each other. He made me do it. "Come back to bed."

I nodded and let him lead me back to our bed where he affectionately kissed the top of my head, "I'm going to take a quick shower. You can go back to sleep."

Jungkook showered while I tossed and turned on the bed, unable to sleep. I watched the quietness outside the window, the crickets singing and harmonizing with the silence. It's going to be daybreak soon and I've only gotten a few hours of sleep. The truth is I was taking pills because I have been more intimate with Jimin lately and now it bothers me that I may have started too late. What if I am pregnant and it wasn't Jungkook's?

"You're still not asleep?" Jungkook had finished his shower and has stepped out of the bathroom naked as he dried his hair. He has too much confidence on himself. He has reasons to be confident. I watched him put a robe on himself and went to join me on the bed. "Can't sleep?"

I nodded against his chest, the warmth from his shower radiating towards me and it felt nice. His arms went around me, wanting to keep me only for himself. It was his greed that broke what we had. I could've fallen for him if he just loved me and didn't turn into this obsessive man that I don't recognize anymore. We could've lasted longer but I can't do it anymore. I don't want to stay anymore. I want to break free from his hold on me.

"Y/N, do you love me?"

I gave him a nod then his hands came up to my face, cupping my cheeks as he lift my head up, "Do you mean it?"

I looked into his eyes, prepared to lie. "I do."

Jungkook smiled and pulled my face close as he leaned down to meet my lips. We kissed feverishly. I felt sick. He kissed his slut with this mouth. He moaned into her lips and placed his hands on her just as he did to me. I was going to pull away and put a stop to it because I couldn't do it anymore. It was revolting to me. Not that I was doing much of a difference. We are doing the same thing.

I pushed my hand on his chest but he wouldn't let me go. Jungkook grabbed the back of my neck and secured my lips on him again. He is much stronger than me with his other arm hooking my leg over his lower body. His robe came loose and my hands touched his bare chest. He left my swollen lips and hovered closely over me while gazing into my open eyes.

"I'm going to ask you again. Do you love me?" Jungkook asked. I could smell his body wash because of the proximity of our bodies. His robe was undone over his chest but it still covered his lower body.

I nodded again in response which made him doubtful. He wasn't satisfied. He needed more. What else could I give him? I've given him my body and my freedom, but not my heart. It belonged to Jimin. Only Jimin.

"If you love me, say it." Jungkook said as the sun began to rise and the first sunlight hit his face. "Prove it, Y/N."

Men are so easy to manipulate. Jungkook is no different. I touched the side of his face softly as I gave him a smile. My hands pushed him back on the mattress while I topped him and leaned forward for his lips. I started to feel his lips, kissing him like I meant it but never would as I say the things he wanted me to say, the lies I make up for him. "I love you so much, Jungkook. I love you."

I pulled away from his chest and took the rest of his robe off slowly. Jungkook is already semi erect. I touched him and he reacted quite pleasingly. He was getting harder very quickly while watching me work my hands on him. Jungkook's breathing would stop momentarily then continue again in deep sighs when my tongue brushed against his too sensitive tip. He lifted his head to watch me orally pleasure him and then falling back again on the mattress when I suck at him, muttering a few curses. He grabbed my head and steadied my face over his cock as he thrusted into my mouth. It was his favorite. He likes the sound of me choking on his cock, the sound of me gagging, the sight of me drooling and my eyes being filled with tears.

"Ahhh." Jungkook groaned loudly as he stilled to prevent himself from cumming. He threw his head back, his fingers loosened their grip on my hair, letting me cough and release him.

I wiped the drool from my lips and crawled on top of him, kissing him again, "That enough for you?"

"No. I want more." Jungkook lowered my hips down his aching need and rubbed me over him. I followed his lead, swiping my underwear aside to give him a better feel.

I couldn't stop my body from reacting. My body liked it. It liked feeling Jungkook's cock harshly  pressing on my clit. I moaned as the wetness grew between my legs. He watched from underneath, his fingers hooking under the hem of my panties and pulling them all the way down. I lifted legs up and removed them from my ankles before I situated my womanhood over him, my back facing him.

"Is it my birthday? Cause you're doing all the things I like." Jungkook had a smile on as I prepared to lower myself on him in reverse cowgirl position. He held my ass and slowly guided me down. I circled my hips when he was fully inside, eliciting a nice long moan from my husband, "Y/N fuck.."

I'm giving you a good show cause it'll be the last one. I smiled back at him. He was watching me so intently, his eyes fixed where our bodies connected while his hand kneaded my ass cheek, "fuck you're good"

He was so erect that his cock is as hard as a rock and it just stood there. I literally just had to move my hips and put my back onto it a little to bring him deep into me. He's sliding so smoothly. "Jungkook.. do you like this? Want me to go faster?"

"oh god faster." Jungkook held onto my hips and slammed me down against him, making me cry out. He took the words out of my mouth when he pushed himself to his knees and made my forearms hit the mattress. "Y/N, baby, you like being fucked like a bitch, don't you?"

Jungkook pulled me up by my arms, taking them behind my back as his chest met my body. The sunlight that passed through the curtains showered or bodies as he keeps me buckled to him. I say his name and he smiled against my neck, "You seem to like this a lot.. Is this how Jimin fucked you, babe?"

My eyes widened and I tried to get away from him immediately but he got me pinned down on the bed easily. "Jungkook stop! Get away from me!!"

"Surprised?" Jungkook chuckled above me. "I've known for awhile Y/N, that you're sleeping with him. I was mad at first but now I realized that I can't really blame others for wanting you." He caressed the side of my face ever so gently as if he would never hurt me, "You're so beautiful, Y/N."

"Unfortunately." He kept my arms over my head and smiled. "He is not a choice for you."