Comfortably, sitting on my couch watching the Bachelor series on the television whilst snuggling up to keep myself warm using a woolly blanket to do the trick as well as a few snacks to help get through the show without having to worry about getting up to go straight back into the kitchen to get me some more snacks to eat when I heard someone ring my doorbell during me being halfway through the fourth episode hoping that my sister Lola would answer it but unfortunately, I remember that she must have gone out with her friends to see a movie as I saw a note earlier this afternoon on the notice board on our kitchen wall tell me to not wait up for her.

Heading right over there to answer the doorbell to see it was Penelope and Tilly standing at the other end of the doors along with other members of our friendship group, therefore, I grabbed my keys, put on my jacket and left my hair in a messy bun being not bothered to do anything about my hair before closing my front door including walking out of my house to take a bus to get to the shopping centre arriving at a great time to see it was not too crowded in here.

"What shops do you guys want to visit first or do you want to split up into smaller groups?" I asked them.

Today was going to be a wonderful day as I can see that some of the shops were doing a sale of a new selection of clothes for the falls season loving how much this gives me an excuse to spend my pocket money on new clothes even though I do often go on an online shopping website to order my clothes regardless, I think it would be nice to get to know some of the girls right now instead of waiting for University to start to learn more about them for example, what are their personalities, dislike or likes to find out if we all have maybe one or two hobbies in common with each other.

I think I would have to pause to see if the most majority of them were going to head over to the new apparels shop which has been my and Penny's favourite store to shop at since we were teenagers who saw a necklace that turned out to be a good luck charm for us in the end. To determine whether or not we are going to conquer the store together or split to meet the rest of them together and there is this really good bookstore that I want to go to.

"Let us divide and conquer the shopping centre together,"said Tilly.

We decided to discuss our arrangements for meeting up again back next to the bistro to have lunch there to grab a bite to eat before going home to do hopefully read an amazing book out of my books collection that I was counting on reading in this evening even though I have to sort out my new playlist to listen to on my way to university to help create a perfect distraction from having a panic attack. I would give everything not to have those feelings like my whole world is going to implode on me especially when my chest gets too tightly for me to breathe and I constantly feel like drowning in the shallow water, sometimes I don't experience that symptom but I do sit alone in my room to weeping to myself about it.

The word tragedy is exactly what someone else would use to have described my life after everything the went down in New Zealand however, I do try to push past it's most of the time I was almost certain that all my problems will have slowly gone away for the better even talking about it bum me out too,i breathe in and out to prepare myself with a fake smile on my face pretending to be alright would stop them from asking me questions that i never wanted to answers will help me to cope with my emotional pains along with the trauma as well.

"See you guys later, Tilly , Madison and Penelope let go of the new apparels" I said to them.  

Quickly, heading toward the store to pick up some new clothes before the queue get even more longer than it already is now also we are in the shop trying on clothes whilst talking amongst each other laughing until i spotted him buying a new pair of trainers as he was talking to his friend when he heard me talking to my friends he stop to turn around to look at me in the eyes for a while once penny spoke up to talk to her brother, we immediately snapped out of our gazes to resume to what we were doing by going back inside the changing room to try on black jumpsuit which i could not even reach the zipper behind me. I text my best friend for help thing that she will come eventually, when i see a tall shadow thinking it was her nonetheless i was wrong during standing in front of the mirror i notices him standing there right behind in the reflection of the mirrors in here appears him as i felt his breath on my neck because he was helping pulled up my zipper removing my scrunchie out of my hair causing it to fell down on my shoulder being in the middle of the changing room.

Not paying attention to all of our friends who are calling us being to focus on each other and he whispered "there you go, beautiful" he was standing dangerously close to me as i turn around to peered up him through my eyelashes trying to get my hair band back of him to put my hair up into a ponytails yet he never gave it back to me as i watched him walk away with it.

My friends tell me that it was time to wraps up in this shop in order to go to the other shops we should be visiting soon to collect more clothes, shoes, jumpers, jacket and stationery which we need to last us for the year hence why we were buying all of our items here preparing to leave as i zip down my dress getting ready to wear my original clothes to paid and leave this store alongside my friends who were waiting for me to catch up to them. Heading towards the new look to get more clothes then next we went to visit our last shop for today is a stationery shops for school equipments for example, pens , pencils, rulers, sharpers, notebooks  and markers continuously walking in and out of shops till four pm to make time for getting lunch is a last stops at jackie's diner.

"Do you happen to know whose initials are LG?"I asked both Tilly and Penelope, in confusement.

They both looked at each other before looking back to me nodding their head at me with a smile on their faces like they know something that i currently don't know as we were walking to meet up with the other girls in the diner was talking amongst themselves  as if it was oblivious that they already knew who it was according to me feeling left out of the loop due to a huge chunks of my  memories being gone was a mystery to who it was. A sudden silence fell over the diner while these groups of boys were walking into the diner causing all the girls except for Penny and me to prepped ourselves in case they might decided to walk over to our booth as i was heading to the counter to order us a couple of milkshake and churros too, i managed to accident collided him not noticing because i was way too deep in my thought to figure those specific initials of the person who was messaging me in the last couple of day.

As soon as i looked to see him standing in front of me, chuckling at my startled expression on my face checking to ensure that i will be alright when all of our friends was watching our interaction especially his fangirls were glaring dagger behind with their jealousy icy eyes due to the fact that i was talking to one of the infamous football player in our school also he smirked at me not even paying attention to the crowd around us moreover, the person who was working here today as a barista called out my name making me snapped out of it. I went in front of the queue to get my friend's food and handed it over to them. After that I picked my food walking toward our booth but I felt his hand grazed past mine.

"Is it fate that has brought you back to all those years?" he asked me.

His hand lift up my chin for my eyes to meet his strong gazes feeling the intense of his eyes giving me all his attention not caring if a couple of people were watching us during standing right in the middle of the diner having other customers wondering what is the hold up when his hand caressing my face for a moment pulling me in his embrace making his sister cough out loud at us to stop with the gushiness of our public display of hugging each other. I shrugged my shoulder not exactly having any other clues about what he meant by it at all being in the complete obliovous at his comment which he recently said to me.

I spoke up to him and said "the funny thing is about fate that makes people jump over obstacles in order to be together, however  i stop believing in fate for a long time"i looked him in the eyes as sighs then walked off to meet my friends sitting in the booth. He handed me a napkin with these words written on it: whenever you feel like giving up just close your eyes and breathe to only remember that life is what you make it out to be. 

"Look like you were having a nice conversation with LG himself,"Hanna pointed out to me.

It all started to click inside my head as if the engine in my brain was spinning on their wheels now to soon figure it turned out to be him giving me these missing clues for instance, in one of his texts message that he wrote to me  in regarding of taking me to visit all of my childhood places in a time span of one years also knowing my house address by sending me flowers especially when i was he must have escape from the club making an excuse to see me when i was sick  with a fever wheezing and sneezing very grossly too. The more sense it make to me how he said he will always look out for me furthermore, he was wearing the same plaster that i places on his bloody cut bruise knuckles or the time he gotten sick after a day of taking care of me in my bedroom nursing me back to health saying that he does not get sick easily to me.

In additionally to this, i know that we wasn't stranger nor was a random number messaging me making me laughs at their funny jokes before he typed goodnight to me in our chats like some part of me was hoping it would be him to prevent it from sounding weird to my friends telling them  about a random number was constanly texting me everyday since i had came back to my childhood home filled of memories as i was trying to fill in the gap between them to make it make sense inside my head learning more about my life every time i was looking through those photograph books that my mum keeps to take a picture of every stage of my siblings and i life.

"Wait ! As LG himself stated his initial stand for Layton Greer !" I exclaimed shocked to Hanna and the girls.

My phone beeps from a text message from him.

I guess now you know who I was but it is a sad bummer that you don't know what we meant to each other- Layton.

I was shocked to say the least because the clues were kindao oblivious to me - me.

Aww, don't beat yourself up about your past though because it could be too damaging to your mental health -Layton

I didn't want to stress you out and I got your new number off my sister Penelope. -Layton

Thank you for your kind note you wrote on a piece of napkins for me.-me.

I smiled down at my phone when Penelope had glanced over my shoulder to see who I was messaging by noticing a smile on my face, pulling me into a hug for a couple of seconds knowing that I will be okay maybe if she leaves to go to the toilet while she gets up off her seat telling the girls that they will love me and to keep an eye on me to ensure I will enjoy myself here, thereafter she arrives back at our booths tells us about how the cute barista guy gave her his phone as we were going somewhere outside of the cafe to take snapshots of our time here for memories sakes, seven photos later we are ready to be heading into the bus stop waiting for our bus and thus far as I know it was the amber colour in his chocolate brown eyes which I could never forget about it on my way home from the cafe.