I think the problem with me, is that I often wonder what life was going to be like five years or so ago, fully understand how easy it is to get anything dono in life and I was running away from all of my fears at the same time as only intensifying their ability to affect me in some sort of route to block me from facing them head-on even though I know, someday that it might end up killing me to the point where it makes me feel stronger than ever before because there is no way of turning back to the little shell of a girl who was in my darkest nights of staring straight up at the sky hoping one-day shooting stars will sawing across the skyline.

A grand black sleek piano stood in the corner of the living room looking lonely as I got closer to it was slightly dusty on the top of the musical instrument and I think to myself why not just sit on the bench which felt cold either I have decided to ignore it then I lay my fingers on the piano letting the rhythm of the melody flow through me being so long in time for a while, but I soon snapped out of it when I heard someone was clapping their hands during my last verses causing me to see it was him, one and only Layton Greer.

"Were you spying on me and what do you want?" I asked in confusion as to why he was still standing there near the living room door.

Clearing his throat and he said, "I just come here to pick you up for your sleep with my sister" he walked into the room choosing to sit next to me out of all the seats or chairs in here.

Slowly picked up my phone to check what was the time on it to see that it was still five and a half hours before the start of my sleeping over at Penny and his house left until I was going to be heading out over there myself whilst in the meantime, I think would probably be playing more piano in the time which I do have some sort have a connection to this piano especially when I was a kid who adored my parents singing songs every single Christmas Eve near the piano though they decided to put it to an end since I grow up now.

Unfortunately, I was too busy being caught up in my thoughts thinking about the old days back when I was a child not even noticing him having a try on this grand piano also I decided to listen to him play incredible ballads on it for just us to enjoy the silver of silence whilst we sat down there doing nothing but I joined in playing the sweetest melody as our fingers touched for a nanosecond then we jumped apart from each other an upon hearing my parents were about to be entered this room.

"Layton was wondering if you would like to stay for lunch to eat with us?" asked my mum with a small smile on her face.

My puppy comes running up to me for the fifth time this week in a row in the excitement of having new visitors to come over our house sinice who I named Rain because, in the worst of days my dog still managed to make me smile all day long including when it comes to mind about the raging storm in my life, I see the light of day after I had gotten enough of this world toxicity of ex-boyfriend who always seems to be raining on my parade of happiness ever since he betrayed me by cheating on me with his rookie one nightstand.

Sometimes, I think it would be better off with being able to forget about the betrayal than losing most of my perfect childhood memories going into seven years of secondary school was all cleared out of my head after the accident occurred to me that has been putting me in a terrible place of my life, I don't think I could easily have been able to get them back as I recall correctly what I picked for University or my passion in life was like, to be honest with you, it was like I was a completely different person compared to who I once used to be.

"Of course, I would love to join you guys for lunch if that was okay with you? Lana" he asked me to be considerate of my feelings about having him over for lunch.

Causally, shrugging my shoulder not minding if he was just joining us for lunch because anything else was better than being sitting down on a seat as both of my parents were being engaged in a conversation with me about a new year a new fresh start to my life which can replace the old one whilst I mainly try to stay positive forcing a few smiles and laughed here, however, when I got into my room after each meal for the last past week or so. I do have this sudden tendency to weep a lot of tears until I do end up falling asleep where all of my energy has been drained out of my body. It tends to be one of those best sleeps that I ever had in years.

My answer suddenly started to become more apparent when I look up from towards the table and into the depth of his precise brown eyes with a little bit of amber colour twinge in them was so unique in its way, during which our few minutes of contact was short-lived when younger sister Lola pulled out a chair nearby me on my left-hand side of the table helping me snapped out of it.

"The more the merrier to help me get this straight through this awkward conservation is exactly what I wanted in the first place," I said, the last couple of words muttering under my breath to him.

We are heading into the dining room setting our plates on the table prepared by my mum who has been ordering my favourite childhood restaurant takeout meals for the last few weeks to get me to feel more comfortable in this house to make up for all the time I was stuck in the hospital for a couple of months ago, I understand that they want me to be happy go lucky version of me back because at least she was normal without having anyone constantly worrying about her and look over her own shoulders in case to stay safe.

My parents were talking amongst themselves along with my sister and I occasionally had to chip into their discussion about a new prosecution in my dad's law firm until I got a text message from LG again saying that I would never have to worry about feeling lonely because he will always be by my side.

LG:You are like the Lone Star who keeps on searching for a key purpose in your life to solely be living your life to the fullest extent of it and you often wonder what it would be like if you could drown out all of your sorrows by drinking alcohol.

LG:But, always remember that I will never leave you alone and I promise to dry up all of your tears too.

"Hey, are you doing okay?" he asked me concerningly as his eyes were assessing me.

A small fake smile and taking a deep breath before the pause "yeah" my eyes did not want to look up to meet his eyes because I did not want to bury him too deep into my darkness so I just kept on silently going back to playing with my food. "Are you sure that you are feeling alright there?" he asked another question again just to make sure that everything was fine with me.

Continuously staring down at my plate of food suddenly not feeling very hungry anymore, but it would be a waste of money if I did not finish it also I need to get out of here in this very instant to allow myself to breathe some air to make me feel better rather than just felt like I was suffocating in this room when he gets up from the table bringing me along with him taking my plate in one hand, and my hand in his other hand walking to the kitchen waiting for us to fully inside of another room to get it right off his chest what he was going to say to me.

"Look, I might not be an expert when it comes to physiology, the study of the human mind, however, I can tell you that you have been acting a little bit off this afternoon," he said worryingly to me when his eyebrows furrowed with concern for me.

Only he could tell the exact way of howI felt like when sitting in the dining room at the dinner table was as clear as day to him that he had described it in perfect accuracy of knowing what I was like those many years ago, and I guess I felt like my depressions were weighing down on me all the time ever since I had gotten out of the hospital for a long time now, even though it hurts more every time I try to breathe sensing a tight pain in my chest too.

Spotting the cupboard where some of the containers are put safely up on a small shelf to keep once they are washed up to be cleaned for the next use, and then I realised that I could not quite reach the shelf because of my short height afterwards that I felt his tall frames from behind me, changing the subject of the matter I decided to continue with packing my takeout in the container as well as putting it inside the fridge added my name on the label stick to the lid on it including pretending to not to notice his tall staggering six feet seven height standing right behind of me.

I closed the fridge door and turned back to him and I said "thank you for your concerns about me but I'm pretty sure that I am feeling perfectly fine today" putting the rest on the subject of my mental health for one night.

For a moment I closed my eyes to breathe trying not to break down in front of him as he stood in front of me to see what heavyweight of emotions were hiding behind my eyes, even more, I do not want to think about anything else other than the books that I was going to read later on tonight or how was I going to fit into my new university, you know like normal students girl stuff.

Maybe being a normal twenty years old girl should be the least of my worries too?

There is a difference between being an average Young Adult or feeling lost in the world not knowing my place for sure, but if there is one thing that I know that I was not as brave enough as other people who think I was because I felt like I was a hollow shell at one point I was waiting to creak open for an opportunity to feel whole again.

"Fairs enough, which is why I am going to tell you to take you to all the places where you want to go back to and including the places that we went together" he offered to take me to visit places.

In life sometimes I just have to let go of the pedal stall to be free to grab life with two open hands whilst screaming in excitement as well as shouting screw it at the top of my lungs to be opened minded about the journey of wherever life takes me to be able to wash away my misery for weeks of summer before university starts up again after the holidays I will be commuting from work to home. A whole week of making reckless decisions or partying with my friends to enjoy hanging out together to make wild memories.

Taking some time to think about his offers "mmhmm, it does sound great and a plausible deal to me" I mulled overthinking it until I decided to take him up on his offers on it, "I will go with you but only on one condition if I am allowed to bring Penny along with me" I said to him.

After four minutes of mulling over my side of the bargain, he finally agreed on letting his sister aka my fabulous best friend Penny tagged along with us today as he quickly washed up both of our plates and he unexpectedly take my hand in his as we left a note on the fridge henceforth, he took me out of my house soon heading into his car as his honks on the car horn twice then he texts messages his sister telling her to step outside their home.

Penny emerged out of her house carrying a pouch on her shoulder with her phone in her right hand quickly hurrying on her way to us by walking past her front lawn heading towards her brother car when she gets there, she was gets in the back seat though immediately asking if she could drive us to our next destination to him during our first trip of the day since she did not want seat in the back alone by herself claiming that his driving was not even as good as her.

"Let's get this party started and my brother will be our designated driver for today," said Penelope, in the excitement of our road trip to all places where we had been too.

Quietly tuning out their arguments of who gets choose what song or radio station to put on his car radio so I put my earphones into my ears play the life of the party by Ella Issacson whilst I singing along to the song silently with a few tears falling out of my eyes not noticing that both of the siblings are starting me in amazement because I was feeling these lyrics too much moreover, I saw them looking shocked by my singing vocalists remaining them speechless at the end of the last verse.

Nervously stop singing since I feel a bit conscious of them staring at me, I feel like I was I want the whole ground to swallow me up as the car came to a halt caused by him parking his car in the car park in front of the park as well as opening the door for me to get out of his car to show me some of the places where we first met in non-chronological order too.

"Wow, your singing voice is incredible!" exclaimed Penelope, stunned by my voice.

They were shocked by hearing my singing voice as they keep on complimenting me about it, but I have been using singing as part of my therapy plan to be able to heal the defects inside of my fractured heart instead of going to actual therapy telling a professional adult who is a stranger to me, my emotional problems where I think they are going to be judging for all of my mistakes at least I chose to deal with it myself for now on.

He cleared his throat, and he said "you have a voice of an angel" help me get out of the car along with his sister and we headed straight towards those set of swings as I asked him, "you probably a sad and broken angel, right" I wander off walking to the slides on the climbing frame.

Racing each other towards the slides having a fun time playing together and claiming that the last one to get up on the monkey bars gets to buy the winners as well as the running up whatever they want to see in the cinema or get in the shops and restaurants. It was a great way to start the afternoon leading to the next destination of our trips to many places before we went to a house party at their friend's house. Layton was responsible for taking care of us too.

Partying the night away only drinking water that he had given me because everything in here could perhaps be spiked with drugs or unknown substances in the plastic solos cups so I am pretty much sticking closer to him for my safety not knowing where my best friend went off to. I text her phone twice asking if she was already and she replied with a yes.

Are you alright? - me.

Text in big capital letters with the word no or in small caps with the word yes. -me.

Yes, I am alright, but why don't you come over to meet my friends - Penny

I am on my way toward the centre of the living room to be with my blond-haired best friend when I catch a glimpse of her brother talking to another girl so I figured I would have a conversation with my friends and then dance around the room accidentally bump into a single cute stranger that just happened to be a good looking boy who I was getting to know until I felt the need to go toilet not knowing that he will be waiting outside of it as I opened the door to him, but he was stopping me in my tracks from leaving the room.

Half an hour later we went drive home in a car after he throws me over his shoulder taking me and his sister home in his car, as I was sitting down being frustrated by his caveman-like ish tendency for stopping me from enjoying a dance with another boy and Penelope was even more bitter towards him for cutting our party time too short especially when she was talking to a good looking guy too. Anyway, we were almost on our way home from the party, as we arrived home I sauntered out of his car then opened my house door to walk into my house.