It was lunchtime after having all of my friends asked me twenty questions about how the unexpected news of the most eligible bachelor of the university was now dating a second-year transfer who happens to be his sister and his long-lost childhood best friend who has come back from one awful year of going to New Zealand because one horrible liar, cheating scumbag of an ex-boyfriend of mine decides to sleep with someone else behind my back blaming it all on me for not being very affectionate towards him, however, I am not the problem in the situation he would always be one by not being accountable for his actions at least I have taken it upon myself to owned to my actions.

I was just sitting down minding my own business when he comes up to the study rooms I was peaceful listening to music to help me to be able to concentrate on balancing my daily basis tasks then he decided to sit next to me at my table as every song has a story behind it pretty much just like my new tattoos which I probably forget to book in with the tattoo artist today seeing as how I can get to check out the tattoo parlour next week because this week was all about hitting the fresher party association pretending to be a first-year student was my idea to see where all the excitement was going on.

"Oi, what do you think that you are doing here?" I asked him.

As I was going to get up from my seat then I realised that we have to put on a show for everyone else regularly scheduled to pretend to be all lively, but lovey-dovey at the same time to ensure that people who are in the room with us will notice the fact that this was all an excellent act of acting like we are a couple showing public display of affection towards each other. I was planning to take full advantage of this by using his laps as a stall to rest my legs on him, which he didn't seem to mind in comparison to him playing with a strand of my hair continuing to be a smiley face happy mask.

Furthermore, he let me lay my head on his shoulder placing his taking off his hoodie noticing that I was slightly shivering from the cold draft of the wind outside blowing on through merely opening window as his handed over his hoodie to me, whilst everyone else was studying we were decided to make us dating look like the real thing as I placed my hand on the table gently tapping it on the surface on my desk and then he placed his hand on tops of mine entwining our fingers together brings it up to his lips lightly kissed it.

"I'm making our act become very convincing to the rest of the student population in our university,"he explained to me.

His friends had called his phone number to remind him about their practice was going to start in two minutes and since he was there captain of the team he knew he was supposed to be set a example for his team by constantly turning up on time for his football practises despite him not wanting to leave me alone sitting here on my own waiting for my friends to join me in this room soon to be asking me a truckloads of questions to discuss my new relationship with the stars and the heart breaker of the school.

My friends walked back into the room noticing our linked hands together not knowing whether to question me on it now or later on when he was not in the earshot anymore because they wanted to get the whole truth out of me rather than hearing it from someone else as we were just watching the boys during their practice taking off their sweaty shirts running around the football field moreover, he winked at me smirking at me speculating a bunch of other girls thinking it was meant for them, even though I already know that it was for me. Shaking my head at him knowing that he was doing it to get a rise out of every girl who was watching the boys play their sports and I was all for it too.

"Girls, he took me to an empty classroom and then took me by surprise when he asked me out," I told my friends.

All of them were super excited for me to date one of the University eligible bachelors even though he was one year older than me, but it does not mean that he didn't have any time for me especially when he was a year or two ahead of me. I do sometimes envy him for having a carefree attitude towards life. Neither do I think it was time for me to learn a thing or two from him for me to understand the importance of taking one step at a time to learn the art of getting by in life.

Our next lecture starts in twenty-five minutes yet here we are watching the boy's practises whilst we were having fun until we spotted Melissa coming up to us from the corner of our eyes during cheering on the boys in their practised of sports also I wasn't sure how this was going to end up being like when she fakes her fall on the bleachers to purposely ruined the hoodie that he gave me.

"Why am I not surprised that only you will fake a fall and purposely ruin the hoodie that my brother gave her to gain the boy's attention?" asked Penelope, simply not surprised by Melissa's stunts.

An exhale of breath, slightly rolling my eyes at this Melissa person who did this deliberately on purpose just to mess with me, even though two can play at this girl game as I was taking off his now stained hoodie and wrapping it around my waist completely ignoring her existence because I decided to be the most mature one out of us. Nonetheless, he chose to jog up to me to see if I was already, which seems to make Melissa more than angry at the fact that he has chosen to ignore her by checking up on me.

In addition I knew that she had done it on purpose to try to make me feel or look bad in front of him as it only seems to be backfiring at her in more than one way since nobody has ever believed her and they saw the truth about what literally happens in the court field.

"I am so sorry about your hoodie being stained with orange juice and -"

He cleared his throat and said "don't worry about it, love and rule number one never ever apologise for a thing that just so happens to be out of your control" he pulled me into a hug when he said " I actually more of an apple juice kind of guy than an orange juice one".

We have more than one thing in common with each other which I have thought about l additionally I felt like adding extra stuff in our agreement just to ensure that she knows that he will never be her and besides I have had enough of her irritating voice for one day that could actually cause someone to have a headache. I'm seriously thinking about running up to hug him as he returned to the football pitch joining his teammates as my friends and I kept on cheering him when a cute waterboy came up to talk to Tilly along with the other boys talking to us girls.

Acting disinterested in what the cute boys were saying even though I think that I should see if it might cause a rise out of him by laughing out loud as I was touching another guy shoulder moreover, he came back in a flash like lightning speed taking me over to the side to have a chat with me not liking someone else making me laugh or smile even when I laugh at their funny jokes too.

"Why do you exclude us from all of our friends back there?" I asked him confusedly.

Quietly waiting patiently for me to listen to him after I have finished ranting about how I felt when he pulled me to the sidelines to try to talk to me about something related to why he spotted me talking to another boy even though we are supposed to be an item however, I think the waters boys and I are just friends watching a great game of football which that was all to it.

"You are trying to make me jealous on purpose just admit it, love" he implies to me.

Here I was simply just being a too friendly and helpful person who I was talking to people when he thought I was trying to make him jealous or maybe it was just his jealousy that has gotten the better part of him you know the difference between having a platonic relationship with someone or making more friends nonetheless, I doubt that this other boy is interested in me.

"No, yeah okay I actually just want to say that everything is going fine really" this is what I really wanted to say to him but instead I felt like I was suffocating and I could pretend to be perfectly from one great big sail ship that was about to hit the iceberg. "So what if I was?" I asked him whispered softly into his ear before walking off to go back inside to Penelope dorm room.

Sometimes I feel like I'm tired of being okay all-time when In reality life hurts me so badly that I can't even drive myself in a car to university because I'm going to get flashbacks or panic attacks unlike everyone else who seems to be doing better than me. I keep saying to myself that mixing alcohol with sleeping pills won't be able to solve my problem forever as I was using it to drown out my anxiety of being back to square one although I feel like I was floating away in the middle of the ocean without a doubt that my safety jacket was functioning to keep me from drowning.

The rest of the day before I went back to my house I spent today helping out Penny to choose an outfit for her to wear on her date night later this week when she kept on asking me to join her on her date and bring her brother my apparent boyfriend along with me, either way, I guess I should probably put on a fake smile and do the actual thing which I am good at since it has been doing it for a while now, also I reluctantly agree to go on the date thing.