I was standing in the middle of the kitchen drinking a glass of water flipping through old photos on my phone whilst waiting for my red velvet cupcakes to be done in the oven by being busy when our song played on my phone now, everything was blurred to me as well as other side effects of having puzzles pieces of my memories return to in a blink of an eye causing me to have a headache, therefore, I accidentally dropped my glass cup on the floor not getting over the previous flashback come flooding in my head that made me crumble down on the floor.

Somehow I was able to gather up all of my strength to get through the aching part of the side of my head when my best friend, Penny come rushing straight into our share kitchen taking the cupcakes out of the oven also off the gas before she tended to my aid pulled me into a hug soon after that all the other girls help us clean up the mess on the floor because they were afraid of what could happen if I tidy up the mess myself even if I was looking presentable sitting down on the floor like this but for some reason, it oddly enough feels so calming too.

"You don't have to tell me about what caused you to have a mental breakdown but only if you want to, okay," said Penelope.

It wasn't a mental breakdown but it was?

Gradually, nodded my head to what Penny said to me, relieving some of my favourite memories of the past few years crying happily knowing that I remembered the first utterly beautiful moment of silence during recognizing how I feel about him even though we agreed to finally properly starts dating each other since I was excited to tell him about my recent discovery of me getting a part of my memory returning to back to me again.

Furthermore, Cynthia was trying to ring Aaron on her phone waiting patiently for him to pick up the phone a few minutes later, all of the boys come over to our kitchen barring gifts except for one particular boy who I was thinking about in the back of my mind pushing back on my disappointment of not seeing him here, I breathe in and out then, I was faking a smile for everyone else in the room to believe me when I say I was alright now.

"I find it hard to believe that some of my childhood memories have come back and with the aftermath of it was a headache which felt like something was drilling into my head" I explained to Penelope.

We celebrated the return of me getting my memory restored in my mind by drinking a few cups of hot chocolate and eating my homemade cupcakes next we have a plan to have a movie marathon later on today so it would give us time to buy snacks, gathered up our favourite collection of movies including coming back here on time moreover, I decided to take a look at getting a job in a bakery on Bakersfield when I was walking around for a while, but I stopped by McDonald to grab a bite to eat then I saw him standing around from the corner of my eye talking to someone else who I don't know in an intense conversation.

His eyes caught my eye in a walking distance from McDonald to the shop next to it, on the right side other than that he looks very stressed out there, rushing his hand through his hair not to mention his red bloodshot eyes are looking like he hasn't been getting any sleep in yet another reason why I was so worried about him being unkempt in his whole appearance was completely different from what he usually less dishevelled and more importantly handsome even if he still does look good enough to beat every single guy in our on-campus, regardless of whether he can pull it off or not. This situation felt very off to me anyway, I will wait for him to finish off his chat there.

He cleared his throat and asked, "Is someone sitting here on this table next to you, my angel?" almost scaring the living daylight out of me and causing me to jump up into the air in my seat as I placed my hands on my chest trying to calm down.

I wanted to tell him the best news of my life, however, the only question I was more concerned about asking him just popped up in my mind for a split second I forgot to tell him what happens when all I could do or to think of was shaking my head "nope, I was hoping for a tall dark haired and handsome man who knows to seat right next to me" I joked to him, popping the 'p' in nope.

Suddenly, he gently takes my hand in his hand to take me to a quieter table somewhere else in the fast-food restaurant for nobody else to see us so I give him the what gives looks as though I feel like acting very suspicious right in this instance, which seems to have worried me that something was going on with him, however, I was slightly more hoping for him to open up to me about his situation without pushing his buttons and I will wait until he was comfortable sharing what was going on in his mind to me.

A few minutes later, I heard him chuckle at my joke about waiting for a charming man to help sweeps me off my feet in a heartbeat making me fall in love with him additionally, I think my joke made him smile before he pulled me into a  single hug moment after kissing me that caught me off guard and then he was lightly braiding my hair taking in my fragrance of Magnolia and gardenia flower perfume.

"I know you have some questions to ask me about this mess of a situation that I have accidentally gotten involved in," he says, " but, I will do everything in my power to keep you safe even if it might not seem like it at first".

The fear of the unknown was making me feel nervous about everything else that he could disclose to me or go wrong in our going to transpire sooner or later these unshakable walls which have been keeping us safe for a long time now will eventually be shaken up by the unexpected havoc of a storm and I have been praying for days like these never to happen in a million years.

"What's wrong?" I asked him.

Tears start to travel from down his eyes.

The wind was blowing outside of the window then it started to rain as if the universe could understand what was going to come my way in the next couple of weeks.

I seriously took it as a warning that something major was going to occur in my life.

"I can't tell it or otherwise, you will be in danger too" he warned me.

Taking a deep breath when I said, "you could tell me about it, but I promise you I won't tell everyone else about it".

Shaking his head no additional refusing to tell me what was going on so I called my best friend, which is his sister Penelope to help me get to the bottom of all of this also, he begged me not to mention anything else to his sister because he didn't want to trouble her with his problems at all, claiming it was better this way if nobody knows what he was dealing with right now.

An exhale of tiredness from going back a forth between the two of us arguing forsakes that he will be ready to tell me also I ran outside to be standing in the middle of the rain to feel free, wild and crazy to shake off the bad feeling of my chest whereas others people will use alcohol as a coping mechanism to ease their pain or to forget about something.

"you are a firecracker , and it is so unsafe for the both of us to be seen together," he told me.

It is so unsafe for both of us to be seen together is what I heard him say to me that makes me think of a better way of being together if anyone else knows how close I was to him then they will come after me and he doesn't want it to happen at all, however, I was getting sick and tired of nothing happens in whatever relationship we are in at the moment because I want to have fun like lose control for once in a while. I wished I could break my wall or I'm just losing my mind jumping out of life and into his life so I want to make a pact with him to spend a whole week until this person who was out to get him hurt was probably announced on the news.

This pacts will help keep us updated soon as possible as we will get to have seven days off all to ourselves even if it means skipping university to be able to pulled it off also it was a days of anything could happens.

"I might be a firecracker but I do have an amazing idea where we can write down a list and then do anything on the lists for a week." I suggested it to him.

All I need was for my parents to never find out about me bunking off-campus, I think I should inform all of our friends who were going to attend a university that week could maybe help collect our assignments for our classes furthermore, we need some disguised as a couple or maybe even blending into the crowd was a great way to not get noticed by everyone else. Continuously we spent hours writing the list since I spent the first half trying to convince him to come up with activities to do within a week or two before I could put my plan into action.

Finally, we have written extensively on the list and the other stuff on the list was great until he suggested that helping me get over my fears of driving or being in a car was to teach me how to drive especially when I was a little rusty in the driving department of my life, I agree with him to get him on board for doing this.

Hopefully, I won't regret getting into a car again and getting over my fears too.