I trudge my way back into my house at around 1 a.m, my guitar scraping the ground behind me. It's been a pretty f*cking long night and I am just ready to pass the eff out.

Why is my language so colorful tonight?

"You're home pretty early" Logan says listlessly from the couch.

"And you're becoming fat from sitting on my couch and eating my food all the time"

"Not my fault you got some good eats in this joint"

"I'm going straight to bed," I drag my guitar behind me as I make my way up the stairs.

"Alright," he says dismissively, I breathe a silent sigh of relief, glad Logan didn't pick up on my mood. "Oh and by the way, while you're up their work on whatever is bothering you so it stops bothering you."

Well a girl can hope.

"You don't want to ask me what's wrong so we can conversate and then you'll find out what's bothering me and then try to help me feel better?" I ask from the top of the stairs.

"Nah" he says, "I don't really care, I'm sure it's probably just bullshit girl stuff"

"Well...at least you're honest" I reply and walk into my room with a loud door slam sounding behind me.

I toss the guitar to one side of the room, not really caring if it breaks or not, I could always just buy a new one.

Despite being dumped by the FF, I am alittle more financially secured. I may not be a stable and well rounded human being, but I am secured for the most part, that counts more right?

I throw myself on my bed, look up at my white ceiling, and just ponder the meaning of life and what the purpose of my life might me.

I think of my whole life in a huge bubble like circle, from start to present day. I was born into a small but extremely loving family, as the only child of Hunter and Juliet Howard. One was an Instructor at the local gym while the other was a part time interior decorator but full time housewife and mother. I lost my parents a little while after my 17th birthday and got relocated to a new-for lack of a better term-family whom basically rejected me 4 months after my 18th birthday.

Why am I unlucky with birthdays?

I acquired some pretty wonderful friends along the way, one of whom if he wasn't in my living room right now I wouldn't even be allowed to live alone in my own parents house. David and Sara are basically God sent to me, helping me through not losing one but two families in the span of two years.

Then Kevin pops in my head, my "boyfriend". The light of my life, my prince charming...why does referring to him like that make me want to hurl? It's one of those cases were you have a hot friend that you probably won't mind dating, it's not love or anything just...curiosity. And then you start dating and both of you know you're not meant for each other, it's not to say you can't be happy together...but they're just not the one.

Kevin and I figured that out like after two days, but the sad truth is...we just don't want to let go. Kevin grew up having severe trust issue with his brother and family, and with Wade's unstable mental state Kevin really just needs someone whom he can hold. And we all know my own shit and baggage so I'm in need of a good cuddle as well. But at the end of the day, everything is just physical between us. We are still friends, but I guess the technical term would be friends with benefits, except we are mutually exclusive to one another.

And that is just fucked up.

What has my life turned into?

I smack my face with my pillow to block my vision. Worst part being is I can't even see a future for myself anymore, I have no clue what to do with my life. What was once a bright and gleaming future is now more or less a bottomless shit hole that I've been thrown is with my limbs tie and no way of climbing out.

You might be wondering whatever happened to my degree in Graphical Engineering, once Reed stopped being my tutor the school that was harboring me dumped me. Turns out they only wanted Reeds precious name associated with them, and now that I am no longer with him they cut all ties from me. By the time Reed found out I'd already used what little I'd obtained and transferred to an online University were, through a stupendous miracle, I'd poured my heart and soul into and graduated within two month.

I told everyone I was smart but no one would believe me.

I pull the pillow from my eye and looked up at the white ceiling. The degree was okay and everything, it was in fact a big achievement. But I was in no rush to join the real world and become another corporate worker drown.

My mind began to drift and I became to engrossed in looking up at the ceiling because for a moment I assumed I was in the clouds...wait a minute...clouds aren't supposed to be yellow.

I blink my eyes, but I was still surrounded by yellow clouds. Clouds are only yellow at sunset, its past midnight, how am I seeing this? I blink and rub my eyes and I am once again on my bed.

What the heck?

I sit up and hold my head, what was that?

I'm breathing heavily and I try to calm my racing heart down, that place...that place was so familiar...I've been there before!

Suddenly my head starts banging fiercely, like I am supposed to remember something important but I can't. My vision becomes blurred and everything in my head starts swimming around violently.

Tony Stark!

"What about Tony?" I ask myself, I'm beginning to sweat. Why is Tony so important? What's he got to do with the yellow clouds? "Argh!" I scream, run into my bathroom and dunk my head into a bucket of cold water, I hold my head down there till everything starts subsiding slowly, and then it completely stops.

Before I could pull my head up I feel large hands yank me back. I gasp for air and start coughing, unaware of how long I had actually submerged my head.

"Are you mental?"

I shake my head, spraying water droplets everywhere.

"I never pegged you as someone who'd try and commit suicide" Logan says.

"Believe me, if I wanted to kill myself, I wouldn't do it in a way that someone could stop me" I get up from the floor. "I had a headache"

Logan looks at the bucket, "That's a new way of curing headaches now?" he says, pointing at it. "What ever happened to just overdosing on aspirin?"

"Excuse me, I gotta use the phone" I rush past him and head down to the kitchen. The house had been built a while back so it still had a landline.

I didn't want the burden of using my own smartphone to make this call for obvious personal reasons, so a landline seemed like the responsible and professional thing to do.

I dial the number...waited while it rang, I'm sure they're surprised they still have a landline to begin with, they probably forgot about it and are hunting for the phone. On the third, long, ring...it connects.

"Uhm...hello?" said the familiar feminine voice. "This is the Fantastic Four Residence, Susan Storm Richards speaking"

"Could you please put me on speaker Sue?" I asked. "I'd like to speak to everyone, but most importantly Reed"

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Author's Note

It's been too long!

It's been to effing long!

I missed you guys so much! I wish I could kiss every last one of you! I'm back and be-tt-er then ever! I have finally-FINALLY-graduated college. Yes you are now speaking to a graduate with a Bachelor's Degree in Software Engineering.

HOW COOL IS THAT!

Now that I have so much free time I have no excuse but to post on Wattpad to my heart's content! I have so many stories that have gone dead and been abandoned by thousands of readers. I haven't even gotten my keyboard fixed but I refuse to allow that be an excuse not to upload.

Very huge thanks to all of you who've suck around till this moment, I am so grateful for your loyalty! You guyz are the very best!

Please I hoped you enjoyed this chapter, the next once is gonna be a lot more emotional. Be sure to be on the lookout for any of my other stories. Also don't forget to check out my YouTube channel "The Virtual Celebrity" where I will also be posting a lot of videos there. But don't get it twisted, Wattpad will always come first to me.

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~Ya Gal Vicky!