*3 weeks later*
I had recorded my album, had a photoshoot, rehearsed every day and in my free time I was with Bucky, he slept with me every night so we would both be nightmare free for the past few weeks. I was now packing my suitcases when Bucky walked in. "I can't believe you're gone for 3 months tomorrow." He said and I sighed deeply. "Me neither, I'll miss you." I said as I got up and walked over to him. "Do you want to take the next step?" He asked and looked nervously at me. "I mean I would love to but are you ready for it?" I asked and he looked down as he slowly shook his head. "Then we wait." I said and kissed his cheek before laying down on my back on my bed. "Are you sure?" He asked as he laid down next to me, leaning on his elbow and I nodded. "I don't want you to be uncomfortable, we move on your pace, remember?" I asked as I looked at him and he smiled at me. "How did I get so lucky with you?" He asked and kissed my forehead. I smiled at him and I shrugged. "I could ask the same thing about you." I said and sighed as I looked sad at him. "I better start packing further." I said and got up. I walked over to my closet and packed further as Bucky left. After I was done packing I quickly took a shower before laying down in bed. I scrolled through social media and saw that Shawn and I were trending.

I rolled my eyes and sighed as Bucky walked in in just his boxers and shirt. "Everything okay?" He asked and I nodded. "Just idiotic journalists trying to find anything to link Shawn and me romantically. Here look." I said and showed him the tweets. "You see appearantly we're not allowed to be just friends." I said and chuckled. He smiled as he handed me my phone back and pulled me into him. "Would you want to?" He asked and the smile disappeared. "Hold up." I said and sat in his lap. "Bucky, you think I would let go of you for what? A random famous guy that comes around?" I asked and he shrugged. "Why would you think that?" I asked and he looked towards the window with tears in his eyes. "Answer me Buck." I said softly as I grabbed his hands and he looked at me side eyed. "Because it is a normal life. He's not a killer and he isn't broken." He said and a tear rolled down in his cheek. I pulled his face towards me and wiped away the tear. "You really want to know what I think?" I asked and he nodded looking more hurt. "I think your mind is playing games on you. You may be broken... but a killer? Not even close, I know it is hard but you have to let go of your past. First of all you were being mind controlled, second of all I know you feel guilty for all of it and lastly I would rather die than be with anybody else but you. You're not ready yet and that is fine, we take it slow but that doesn't mean I go off to find someone else for the mean time. It's either you or no one." I said and pulled up his sleeve so I could see the scar where his vibranium arm meets his skin. "This shows how adaptable you are." I said as I softly brushed my finger across the scar tissue. "And I will be just as adaptable to you. So please stop listening to the negative voice in your head. I'm not going anywhere emotionally. Unfortunately physically I am but no matter what, I will come back to you." I said and he chuckled. "Good, please wear this as a promise that you'll come back." He said and put his tags around my neck. "I won't ever take them off." I said and he pulled me closer. "Thank you." He said as he hugged me with his head against my chest and I smiled. "No need to thank me." I said and went through his hair. "If you can't talk to me and need to hear my voice then listen to my songs." I said as he softly laid me down next to him. "Can you put it on here for me?" He asked as he handed me his phone and I nodded. I grabbed his phone and downloaded spotify, I made him an account and added my album to his library.

I handed him back his phone and snuggled up to him. He put his arm around me and softly brushed his fingers over my arm. "Good night Sergeant." I said and yawned. "Good night Princess." He said softly and pulled me closer before I fell asleep. A bit later I woke up because Bucky started talking to me, thinking I was asleep. "Hey beautiful, I know you can't hear me right now and that's okay. I just wanted to tell you that you're gorgeous, inside and out and that I don't deserve you. Thank you for sticking with me either way, I love you Princess." He whispered to me and I smiled as I fell back asleep.