I felt the hurt and tragic heart of Alec Benjamin when he sang 'Let me down Slowly'.

My bus stop was just two minutes away, which is why, with half heart I pulled my air-buds out and put them back in the case.

Why does it matter to you so much, El? You never liked him anyway, remember?

He is the one who keeps cheating on everyone. I remembered an old saying, 'Leopard can't change it's spots.'
He is just as he was before. This vicious cycle would never end.

Get a new girlfriend - have sex - cheat on her - get a new girlfriend.

How could he do that to me, though?

Why was he even trying to text, wanting me to wait outside? To make me watch how they both look together or how they what, fuck, cuddle or kiss?!

The thought disgusted me and with heavy chest I walked inside the college.

After greeting some who I knew and who knew me, I finally reached my class and thankfully could finally divert my all-over-the-place thoughts through maths.

It was our today's first class out of the two, taken by Mr. Wesley who tried his best to teach us Integration.

To be honest, where does a normal person use these kind of calculations, in their daily grocery shopping? To me, it was useless, unless you are a scientist, which I clearly had no intention to be.

I still tried my best because I had exams to clear.

Class came to an end and soon the thoughts that maths barriered, started flooding back in.

We had a very quick break of 15 minutes before our second class would start, so I decided to take a quick pee break.

I had just come out of the washroom and was getting inside my class, when I heard the most disturbing voice of the moment from behind.

Calen's.

"Wait" he had whispered his monosyllabic word, intended to stop me from getting inside the class.

That made me wonder, why couldn't it just be a normal wait and had to be a whispered wait?

Shut up my brain!

"What?" I said irritably, without looking his way, as I knew I was too weak for facing him.

But only if he knew, as in the next moment, he had caught my arm from opening the door and came to stand right in front of me.

My insides almost cried just looking at him.

He was as perfect as I had seen him this morning, the vision still intact in my brain - him having breakfast right by my side while his tongue kept licking those ultra pink lips of his gently.

Right now, when I looked his way closely, I found his eyes worried but I couldn't understand why?

"What do you want?"

He exhaled sharply and took me to a side. I saw a couple people who looked our way and some girls who gave me a deadly stare.

"Please take him if you want. He is available for everyone" I muttered under my breath to a girl who just passed by my side, her eyes glued on us all the while.

"Excuse me?" His voice sounded offended and when I looked at his face, it matched that tone. His head was slightly tilted with his brows furrowed.

Damn.

"I have my class, please just go" I said and moved to go back but he pulled me back firmly by my arm.

"You are hurting me Calen!"

"So are you!" He gritted and came closer. Because my blood was boiling with the Bella incident and also because of him, carelessly making a scene in front of my class, I said what came to my mind, just when his mouth opened to say something;

"Fuck you!" I blasted while managing to get away and ran back to hide inside my class.

"You'll regret it" I heard him announcing and I couldn't understand, how?

Class ended and I was terrified to walk out but was intensely hungry at the same time.

Because of Rel's practice and other guys' game lined up tomorrow, everyone were busy except Tim. So I texted, asking if he would join.

I reached the cafeteria and saw him already waiting for me.

"You came!" I said smilingly

He smiled back and gave me a swift hug, "Of course! I was starving!"

He laughed and I took a seat right beside him.

Since, he had already ordered my salad and a sandwich I just had to wait, while he filled me in with his day.

Because my face was at the door's side, I saw Calen's incoming before even the entire crowd could. With Bella by his side, he made an entrance and surprisingly there was no-one else from their evil gang today.
I saw Bella saying something to him and when I looked his way, found him already looking at me, capturing my entire body with his every step.

I could hear Tim in the background saying that he had checked with Liam and everyone else if they wanted to have something but they all denied.

He was excited for the match tomorrow and said that he would want to win at any cost.

Calen took a sit, at an exact diagonal one to ours and kept rubbing Bella's arm. He leaned into her that made her cheeks turn rosy and looked straight in her eyes before saying something softly, to which she, for a second looked taken aback but then reached up and looked at his lips.

My insides groaned and I feared that....

Right then, I saw her planting a kiss all over his lips.

My heart dropped and I felt like throwing up.

I clutched my hands tightly but couldn't look away, she kept kissing him deeper and Calen just stayed there keeping her close and occasionally moved her hair aside.

As the seconds passed, my throat choked.

Suddenly, Tim stood up to get our order and I just sat there, unable to move.

My body numbed and I saw them finally parting.

Calen's instant reaction was looking at me, his face was hard as steel and devoid of any hint of emotions.

Finally, when Tim came back his eyes looked worried on looking at me. "What happened?" He put the food on the table and moved to give his entire attention to me.

I managed a smile and said, I just missed him and with a heart full of hate for my best friend's big brother, I leaned into Tim and placed a firm kiss on his mouth.

It took him by surprise at first, but slowly as I started to slide my hands in his t-shirt, he leaned into me some more while moving his arm around to pull me into him. I felt his tongue getting inside in my slighted parted mouth and he kissed me fiercely.

A small tear slipped down my face without me even realising but I didn't let go. His hand moved around and landed below my hips to give it a tight squeeze.

My insides crumbled as this wasn't something I wanted so I slowed down and pulled away.

Our breaths were heavy when he looked down at me and tugged me in a hug.

Without wasting a second more, I looked at Calen and instantly my eyes found his. They appeared burnt, hurt and disgusted while his entire face turned red.

A small victory soon followed by a pain in my stomach and I couldn't eat.

"That was intense" Tim chuckled and I felt ill.

What the hell am I doing?

From the corner of my eyes, I saw him pushing his entire table forcefully. The sound it made was so loud that everyone turned to look at him. He then kicked the chair that was on his side so hard that it fell noisily on the ground, and finally without waiting for Bella, or looking at anyone, he stormed out of the cafe.

"Calen and his drama" Tim muttered on my side.