I saw Bella following him the moment he left the cafeteria. Honestly, I felt bad, as Bella was really a sweet girl, who doesn't deserve this.

I felt disgusted, disgusted at myself.

How can I use Tim like that? Am I just like Calen or worse?

Tim asked me some questions about how I was doing and if I needed his help in organising to which I managed to speak up. The appetite I had when I left the class was gone, instead I had a nauseating feeling of remorse and hatred.

Calen's words echoed in my head-

'You'll regret it'

Is this how he wanted to make me regret? Regret sleeping with him? Falling for him? Thinking of him?

What the hell does he want from me?

He was the one who called me a slut. He was the one who didn't take a second to go back to Bella after spending some beautiful moments in the night and in the morning with me.

Does he want me to keep cheating with my boyfriend because he thinks it's okay?

*
I stormed inside the sports room, after quickly saying goodbye to Tim and got to get tomorrow's things sorted. However, even after my immense self-control, a strong void spread across my heart.

I was fuming with jealousy, anger and above all regret.

Forcing every thought away I continued the work I was allocated.

I browsed through the list I had at hand, carrying each player's name on it. There is a compulsory check-up that needs to happen in the players' practice room today.

I just wish Bella has already gotten done with Calen and his team's check-up. I do not ever want to be with him, see him, talk to him!

What was he trying to show by shoving and throwing the furniture away?

Why did he do that? As far as I am sure he doesn't give two shits about who is dating whom and who kisses who. Right?

I was still in my head when I heard the room's door open at my back.

I did not look up neither could hear a thing but my heart sped anyway.

Run.

The door closed, followed by silence that filled the space.

My immediate reaction was to pack my things and be ready to leave.

"Where do you think you are going?" His voice filled the room.

"Anywhere you don't exist"

His strong breath in response didn't miss to stir my insides.

"I need to talk" Calen said and came so close that my body immediately recognised his presence, igniting a
shiver to run in my insides. I tried to move away but he pulled me in too forcibly, his clasp stronger on my arms that even when I tried to jerk, it didn't budge.

"I don't, so please"

He tugged and when I looked at a dark cupboard placed right across to us, I could see our faint reflection right there. Entangled and bothered.

"What are you trying to do!" I hissed

"The heck are you trying to do?!" he growled

"Get the fuck off Calen, and stop wasting my time!"

"Your time? Do you have any idea how important tomorrow's match is to me?!"

He continued when I did not respond, "and you are here being difficult as usual"

Infuriated, I pushed him away with all my might and got the first chance to look at him ever since he came in. The beat of my heart was so high and with the way he was breathing I was sure, it matched mine.

"Stop making me have to force you for a two-worded conversation!" His words were a mix of anger, irritation and plea.

"There's nothing we need to discuss."

"You think!" He hissed

"Why did you text that today?" He asked, careless of what I was saying.

"Don't know and don't care what you're talking about!"

I pushed my luck and walked past him only for him to get a good clasp of my wrist. I tried wriggling out but his hold was just too tight.

I obviously knew what he was talking about, and to make my life a lot harder he shoved his phone in front of my face displaying our texts.

"Tell me why did you send this?" He said

'Wait for me outside' that was the text I got from him.

And below which, I could see my response, 'Maybe you got the wrong number'

I know it was so irrational of me to get  pissed at the sight of Bella at our door today while I also have a boyfriend who doesn't have the slightest idea about Calen and I.

With those texts, I also saw what we had sent each other before that.

Larissa - 'Do you want breakfast?'

Him - 'Yes, please. :)'

My chest constricted. How could anyone have such a turmoiled relation?

We don't have any relation.

Suit yourself.

"I don't know" I answered him truthfully

"How could you not know why you texted what you texted"

Feeling his grip loosened, I pulled my hand in. He sure as hell looked confused, agitated and so in love.

Fuck.

"Leave me alone, Calen" I said, tired of this confusion, our situation and others who were involved in our mess. I started picking up my bag.

"You can leave but NOT before answering me"

"Or what? You would force me for that!" My blood boiled exponentially, seeing what he thinks he can do.

His expressions looked he regretted saying that but it soon replaced with frustration.

"Larissa.. tell me what was the meaning of that text"

"I don't fucking know!"

Clenching his teeth, he drew a sharp breath but continued, in a slow low voice.

"Did it bother you? Seeing Bella?"

I felt my eyes narrow at his question. "Why would she bother me?"

I asked, my confidence and arrogance too touchy at this point.

He looked at me, his eyes soft but his expressions hard like stone. "That's the answer I am looking for"

"Then keep trying"

I picked my bag from the floor and stood up to leave.

"I can't stand you kissing him in front of me"

My legs, too shaky at this point couldn't continue to stand further. I had to find something before I could embarrass myself further before him. Maybe he knew or saw my struggle because in the next instance he was with me, holding me straight. He walked me slowly to the nearest chair, helped me sit and dropped to his knees in front of me. Honestly, there was no escaping after that. He looked like a hot-mess I had never seen before.

He looked so confused, frustrated, and angry but so willing to talk.

"Did you hear what I just said? I can't have you kissing that Pig."

"You kissed your girlfriend first"

His tongue clicked and a small, weak smile replaced his earlier expressions, "Glad you noticed, but I never kissed her back." He stopped but added, "Unlike you"

His eyes looked so glum that I almost forgot to breathe in the moment.

"But you did ask her to kiss you"

"I am not denying that." he answered

"Well, not sure what you want me to say then" I started getting up but he kept me tucked.

"Do you really want to be with him?"

"Why are you asking me that? Do you not want to be with your girlfriend?"

His jaw clenched dangerously and the adam of his throat pushed in and out.

"What, Calen? You don't want me talking about your relationships? Do you think that the people around you are stupid, that they are incapable of comprehending what's going on around them?"

"It's not that"

I could feel the pain in my chest when I said, "Everybody knows that you just want to fuck girls. A different girl every week. You are not carved to be a committed guy."

No. That did not just come out?

"And you are carved to be one?" He snapped and stood up taking me by surprise.

I stood back up too, without meeting his eyes I walked to get my bag.

He didn't stop me this time. When I had my bag around my shoulders, and I had walked to the door, I simply said one last thing, truthfully. "If you want me to stop kissing him, then first you stop fucking around and kissing random girls"

"Does that include you?" His response was so quick that I hadn't even managed to open that door I was standing close to.

"All the best for your game tomorrow."

"I'll repeat what I had said, I don't want you going around, kissing that pig."

He came towards me, opened the door, and without saying another word, left.