monday, high green

Liz's POV

my phone starts to ring, it must be Lana telling me how it went with Alex, i pick it up and it is Matt

"hi" i say

"you've got to come to the hospital" Matt says with a crying voice

"what? what happened?" i am worried now

"it is A-A-Alex, Lana found him, he-he is, he was not waking up" he starts to cry and hangs up, damn it, why isn't he waking up? fuck it Alex i am mad at you and crying for you now, what happened? is he okay now? has he waken up? will he? i go change to go to the hospital, i am looking for my coat, my hands are shaking, ahh fuck it i will go like this, i get out and run my way to the hospital

"where is him?" i ask Matt as soon as i find him

"inside there" he says pointing to the door, i just run inside and see him sleeping i hope, god he looks horrible, he seems pale, he seems sick, please Alex you have to overcome this

"Al wake up" no answer "please Al it is me" motionless "damn it Alex wake up" still with his eyes closed, i just cry my eyes out and sit by his side, i grab his hand and squeeze it, i put my head on the side of the bed "please" i say between tears "Alex just wake up, you can't do this to me, to Matt, Lana, i don't allow you to" i am stopped by my tears "i can't let you got not now, please don't do this too me i love you so much , please" i feel my hand being squeezed, i look up and see Alex with one eye open looking at me 

"you love me then?" he says ironically 

"fuck you Alex, you can't do this, you listen to me, if you do this again i swear i will kill you" i say crying and i get up and hold him

"i love you too"