Prem pov

" What are you thinking Arthit? Have you gone completely insane? Why are you playing with fire ??"

" I just went on a date p Prem .  You are overthinking here ."

" Arthit you cannot drag Kong into this. You are going to hurt him. You are never this selfish . What happened to you ?"

" P Prem chill dude. It's Kong we are talking about. He gets over his love when he gets up in the morning..!! He is the most cool guy in love.  You know how he is .. everybody knows how he is. "

" Arthit what if he really falls for you.. he said he loves you ."

" P Prem he says that to everybody. Just a week Back he said that to Maprang and then broken up with her when I became his new obsession. I am fascinating to him now since I am different than his other conquests I guess.. nothing else p Prem..."

" What about you .. you really love him. What about your heart and feelings.. Arthit "

" My heart .. it waited for three years p Prem to taste this.. I am listening to it now.. let it rain p Prem for sometime pls. However long it lasts . "

His eyes pleadingly looked at me. He is my little  brother , I know he will get his heart broken ... but I cannot stop him.

But what I fear most is what if two hearts get broken. Kong should not get serious about Arthit. I need to make sure of that. Arthit may be a genious but he has no experience when it comes to love. He never had anyone caring for him except me and my family. That don't count as romantic at all.

He thinks himself ugly and wears those baggy clothes and hideous glasses to hide his real self . But he has no self preservation now and he is practically glowing in love. He is showing his true self to his lover.  Will he be able to walk away when the time comes. Kong , if he has seen the real Arthit and fell for him  will he be able to let go?? Arthit doesn't himself know what a beautiful soul he is inside out.

I cannot concentrate on my studies anymore . Arthit went to his class after our morning talk. That person has come back so night he is staying with me. I pressed his shirt made sure he had his breakfast , his medicines and send him off to his class. I have seen the hickeys as he changed . His bruises don't fade so easily. I know he had stayed back at Kong s place the night before. Arthit  surely had not gone back home when the grand old man is back to his abode..

I am worried about Arthit he looked more pale and I even saw the red spots started appearing on his palms. He should visit the doctor soon. The fool always refuses to go. He says he will get the money soon in his account of the last project he helped . After that he will go. He will never take any favour from anyone not even me .

I don't want my baby brother to suffer more than he is already doing. The more he is with Kong he will be more emotionally invested . I know how much he worships that boy.

He has been talking non-stop about him to me through these three years. How much he gets broken hearted whenever Kong had a new boyfriend or girl friend. His nonchalant expression is all a facade. His stoic demeanor is all a farce. He will be broken hearted  and will suffer severe consequences if that man comes to know about his affair and it turns serious for both of them.

Kong I know belongs to a very influential family but even he cannot help Arthit. It will create more mess if Kong gets involved. On one hand  I really wish my brother gets his forever but on the other  I wish no one gets dragged into this mess.  My mind is swirling with what if s and what to do now..

suddenly....

There is a knock on the door.

"Wad and knot !! What are you both doing here. Don't you have classes?"

" Swadee kha p Prem you know us?"

" Yes..I listen to your songs and attended all your gigs ..  I know your other band members too .. all of them . "

" Even Arthit??" Wad asked quietly

" Are you here to talk about him? What you want to know? First come in .. even I needed to know something. "

They settled themselves on the only couch available. I saw knot glancing at Arthit s things. His books are all scattered on the bed with my business books. His engineering dark red work shirt is lying on the chair. It's very clear that he lives with me. They look at me sceptically.

" He is my cousin "

" Ohh.. ? Then you must be knowing why he fell sick that day after performance P. I saw his hands turn red and bleeding spots appear on them p. He was burning up P. That's not normal. " knot states worriedly.

" Why do you need to know nong?"

" P ,  he has been our classmate for three years but truthfully we never really knew him. He spoke to none of us. But last month changed a lot of things. His joining the band , his helping me with my projects. We have really started to understand that this nerd boy is not what he shows in front... I have started caring for him as a friend and I think he does too. We want to help him P but we don't know how. " Knot speaks sincerely.

" What about you Wad." ?

" P he is dating my best friend and for the first time I am seeing Kong smitten . Knot version of that day is scaring me. Arthit,  I feel keep too many secrets . I am afraid Kong will suffer for the same. "

" You are right Wad .. Arthit has too many secrets and those are not mine to reveal or tell. But are you sure Kong is serious about him? Arthit told me he is just another fling to Kong .  A passing affair like his numerous others.  That's what he believes..and that's the  only reason he let himself get close. He feels Kong will get bored about him and will break up with him soon and will never get hurt. "

Wad turns pale." No , p , Arthit is wrong. He is different for Kong . He has really fallen for him. I have never seen Kong like this with his any other relationship s. He wants Arthit to be his forever. He even plans to take Arthit for family dinner during the holidays."  

This is bad.. very very bad. Damage has already been done.

" Arthit has a rare genetic disease specifically involving his  platelet count . He bleeds easily. He has to sometimes undergo platelet transfusion if condition worsens.  He is severely  anaemic due to his condition. Thus, Any exertion leads him  to being breathless and he suffers from high fever then.  Any Deep cut ,. his bleeding will not stop. He has to be hospitalized immediately or he will bleed to death. "

  They both looked shocked and soon after exchanging our numbers they take their leave. There is not much to say anymore.
Wad and knot need to decide themselves what to tell their friend now.

There is another aspect of him  which I keep as a secret and never speak about to anyone. Arthit suffers from  depression and is under medication. He has persistent nightmares of his past and present. When his past invades his present his only solace is his books. He has always clung to them for not spiralling down.

.  ..Arthit  loves Kong immensely but he can never be his forever..."

I need to speak to Arthit fast . This needs to stop. Reality is darker than the dreams. 

A/N""" Arthit is not dying. Don't worry. But he still has secrets . I hope the chapter is not feeling scattered and making sense. Prem doesn't hate Kong he just  knows Arthit s limitations.

Hope you are liking the story .. I will finish it by a few more chapters and may write an epilogue .::: Pls do comment vote and share I love to read all of your comments and try to answer you all :: will be going back home today .. so will finish the story by this weekend. I have already finished the draft ..enjoy the ride :::