I am lonely but not alone. I am not happy but not sad. I am not complicated but not easy.

I am weird. I am me.

And nobody understands me. Nobody knows what I am thinking. Nobody knows how I am feeling. Nobody knows me.

How would you describe me? Crazy? Friendly? Cool? Egoistic? Sleepy?
But how do you know what I am?

I'm not like anyone. I am totally different. In any way.
Some people would say this is cool. But it is not. Nobody understands you. You feel like a freak who doesn't fit in this world.

I've got friends. I've got so nice friends and I love them.

But I still feel lonely. Not that lonely that I need a boyfriend but lonely in the way that nobody understands me.

How should I describe it? I just can't. I am just weird. And that's it.

You said you would understand. You said you would help. But you did not. You just confused me even more.
But I don't care. I like you and I'm thankful that you try to help me. But maybe it is too late.
We are so different. But we get along with each other. Why?

Why do I like you? Why do you like me? And why does it feels good to talk and write with you?

I don't even know you much. But you don't mind. And I don't mind. I can tell you everything. But mostly you don't understand me.

I know you are right. But this won't change my feelings. I know that sometimes you don't have anything to say. But this hurts. I know that I'm dumb. But maybe I just want to make these mistakes.

And I don't even know why.

I don't even want to post it. I'm afraid that you would hate me after reading this.
But I want to post it. So that I can tell you how I feel.

If I do. Please don't hate me. You mean so much for me even though we don't know each other really.