Hyunjin's POV

As I watched the film in front of me, all my favorite hero's on the screen, I realized.

I'll never be a hero, hero's aren't anything like me, what's it like being a hero ?, what's it like to save people ?, to fly high above the rest and be praised for saving lives.

What's it like to be something I'm not...

I sat there, still admiring them. In awe of what they've become and all they are, wanting to be like them was just a dream and feeling like I couldn't be like them made me feel like I was running.

Fleeing from my dreams.

I watched on as if I hadn't been thinking deeply, only looking at them as if they could block out the world I live in, even if they were apart of it.

I wanna be like them, I just can't...

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I jumped up frightened, disoriented from the dream I just had.

Well, it wasn't a dream. It was a memory, one that I hold onto but want and try to forget.

I let out a tired sigh, rubbing my hands down my face as I sat up against the headboard of my bed.

I let my hands fall to my sides, looking around at the beige walls of my room. They were plain and basic nothing special, no painting, pictures, drawings, shelves, just a simple clock.

A simple clock that ticked on...

I turned off my alarm as it was still blaring on rather loudly, shuffling to the side of my bed as I sat up correctly, my bare feet touching the cold floor.

"Did I really have to dream about that today ?"

I asked the question to nobody in particular, letting out yet another sigh as I let my head fall into my hands tiredly.

Younger me had a big dream, one that present me hadn't fulfilled, one that I didn't think I could achieve.

Being a hero... what was younger me thinking, a dream like that is big. If only I hadn't become the opposite, I wonder where I would stand in society.

Would I be praised and loved like the great hero that shined like the sun, or would I be a nobody ?

I could probably stand amongst humans as an equal and not be ashamed of who I've become, I've become someone that younger me would definitely feel saddened to see.

I can imagine his heart breaking, I can imagine the tears cascading down his face at rapid speeds, I could imagine him asking me, "Why'd you let me down ?"

I groaned out in frustration as I pulled my hands away from my face, slammed my hands down beside me as I let out a shout of anger.

"Why'd I do this to myself ?"

I whispered to myself, falling back onto my bed gracefully.

Why'd I let myself become the one person I didn't want to be ?

Tears spilled from my eyes and down onto my cheeks, slipping down my face as I tried to hold in the sobs, the ones I'd never let another person hear.

If a person heard me so broken they'd probably say I deserve to cry for all I've done.

You may be wondering what I've done, well...

I'm a villain, and villains never win...

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(A/N: So, a Hyunlix story I decided to make, I've had the idea for a while. For years in fact, even before I stanned Stray Kids, so decided to choose Stray Kids for this fic you can say the idea is pretty special to me.)

(Anyways, I hope that you can enjoy this story, it's gonna be angsty. Hyunjin might cry a lot but please don't be mad, it's for plot and au purposes only. Don't take it to heart, it gets better for him, promise.)

(Chapters will become longer and longer the more the plot goes on so I hope you don't mind the short chapter for right now, I'll literally be working on a second one right after I publish this one.)

(Please vote, comment and give me feedback if you like the chapter so far.)