Sayoni Aich P.O.V
4th November

The golden rays hit the earth and reach me through the window promising a ray of hope that keeps  you going every day. When words are left unspoken thoughts speak aloud. Mostly when you abandon the world and your soul is your companion. One such thought suffocated my heart.

Shadows of the smile

Just a smile etched on the face
From ear to ear
what lies beneath the smile?
Is it the shadows of happiness or the grief hidden encased in the heart?
No one ever wonders, because it's just a smile
but why?

Just the smile Aachita smiled from the past month, why? Why did she hide it? What is happening? I believed her and I still do but why didn't she trust me? Why did she choose to go all through this alone? The moment courage encouraged and questions arose, voices  became mute.

She had done everything the way she wanted and knew the consequences of it........ I guess even her death.....

From the day she entered my life till the day she is no more, she left behind her soul and took a part of my soul with her. I know I'm selfish. That's the reason I'm broken and yet to start again but I can't cause everything around me shattered silently leaving me blank and empty. This time tears didn't fall out but memories did.

Every moment that no longer can be relieved became an unhealthy fantasy obsession. I wouldn't say I'm alone nor together but abandoned by myself. I still can't accept the truth. Funny isn't it, the way we cheat ourselves though we know the gospel truth of life and death. I wouldn't say this to be a bad nightmare and end soon. All I ask for is the courage to accept your absence. Maybe as they say time heals but I know it cannot replace your absence.

You know I never understood why someone's things became valuable but your absence taught me the value of your presence and your things became little treasures that always connect us.

I know you won't give up easily so do me..... In the battle of two classes, search for truth victory doesn't matter but the integrity of my soul tells me to fight for not only what I believe but for the change and trust to dig out the morals of the masked society.