The next day.

I was in the good mood for everything because of last night conversation with Taeyeon.

I don't care if she cannot talk, it doesn't really matter to me. I will accept her whole, even her flaws.

Anyway, I went to Babeans again before going to school. I already ordered my coffee, it's obvious why I would go here.

Yep, because of coffee! It's a coffee shop right? 

Nah, fine! Aside from that reason, I wanted to see Taeyeon. She will definitely give me more positive energy this morning.

Then she came out of nowhere holding my cup of coffee, she put it down on the table and I saw a sticky note that was attached to the cup.

It said Good morning Tiffany, have a nice day. Always smile. :)

Both sides of my lips automatically curved up and I looked up at her "Thank you, you too Taeyeon. By the way, you're so pretty as always," I commended.

She lowered her head and her cheeks turned pink, she's so lovely with that. I always want her blush.

Taeyeon took her sticky notes at the back pocket of her jeans then she scrawled on it and gave it to me.

I need to go back to work, you're beautiful Tiffany. See you at school and enjoy your coffee. The note said.

I nodded "Thank you, see you later," I gave her my sweetest eye smile.

She also smiled to me before going back to the counter. I feel like flying and my heart was so happy, she's giving me too much energy and I like it. I feel so alive.

At school, first subject.

I was already in the classroom sitting at my respective seat, well this was my seat yesterday. I'm so excited about lunch time, I know I'm gonna see her again at the rooftop and I will ask her on a date.

I smiled instinctively just thinking about her.

Oh gosh, apparently, I am so hooked on her. I really like her. A lot. 

And there's a big possibility that I will fall in love with her. I am willing to because she makes me happy even with just her presence or just thinking about her. Even if she don't do anything, I like her but I don't know why and I think I don't need one.

I just like her the way she is.

Then a guy stopped at the side of my desk, I know that it's a guy because of his baggy pants. I looked up at him and it was Nick.

"Oh, hi Nick," I greeted him. He's Taeyeon's best friend, I should be nice to him.

"Hello gorgeous, how are you?" He asked.

"I'm fine thank you," I forced a smile.

Nick sat next to me "Um... c-can I-I ask you something?"

You already did.

"Sure, what is it?" I'm trying to be nice here y'know. I want to have good image with Taeyeon's close friends.

"D-do you h-have... do y-you have a boyfriend?" He nervously asked. Why he's acting like this?

"Oh. Boyfriend? I don't have a boyfriend," I answered.

He sighed in relief then smiled widely "Great! So can I ask you out on a date?" He asked, clearly, in spur of the moment.

My mood slightly fell down, I was sorry for him. I already like his best friend and I'm not into guys.

I looked at him apologetically "I'm sorry Nick but I already like someone else and for your information, I'm into girls," I genuinely said.

His eyes comically popped out when he heard what I said, he looked at me in incredulity.

"W-what??" He almost shrieked.

"You heard it, I'm into girls," I reiterated.

"Ohh... But we can try, you know, give me a chance?" He proposed.

I tried hard to calm myself, what did he mean by that? That he can change my preferences because he's a guy? 

I am who I am. This is me. If he can't accept that, it's his problem.

"Excuse me? Did you hear me say that I already like someone?" I asked keeping my temper cool.

"But at least give me a chance? You know, I really like you Tiffany," he's pushing, more on pleading but it won't work for me.

Tell me, I'm heartless or inconsiderate but I won't give him a chance. I don't want to give him false hope and there's no way that I would like him.

"Sorry but I can't because I like your best friend," I blurted out.

"W-what? T-Taeyeon? You like Taeyeon??" He asked frowning.

"Yes I like her so much, I'm sorry..."

"But she's not a lesbian, she will never like you Tiffany and I know it because I'm her best friend," he assured me. I felt a pang in my heart.

It's my turn to frown but I could feel it, Taeyeon also like me. I guess.

"Then I won't force her but I will give it a try, I will ask her on a date," I gulped.

What if my intuition is wrong? What if Taeyeon doesn't really like me? My heart beats faster and thinking that she would reject me made me feel anxious.

"You're just wasting your time," he chuckled as if he knew everything and what about to happen.

I know that they are best friends but he's so cocky about it. I hate it.

"You can't change my mind Nick, I like Taeyeon and it will never change even if she reject me," I firmly said though I'm really worried sick inside but I tried to stay collected outside.

"Whatever," he hissed. He stood up and left the room.

I just shut my eyes trying to calm myself down.

I have a bad feeling and he made me feel bad about this.

Lunch break.

I quickly went to the rooftop knowing that I will see Taeyeon there.

I opened the door and went outside but I didn't see her, she's not here.

My mood fell down, I'm so disappointed not to see her here.

I remember what Nick said that Taeyeon's not a lesbian. So, he thinks I'm a lesbian? Am I a lesbian? I don't care if what people call it, I'm just following my heart.

Then I heard the door was closed, I turned around and saw the most beautiful girl in the world.

I smiled showing my teeth, just seeing her boosted my mood up. She gave a small smile, I think she's the one not in the mood. Apparently, her aura was different from the coffee shop this morning.

"Hi," I greeted her.

Taeyeon just nodded and walked to the side looking down at the small figures of people walking. I stepped closer to her and did the same. We stared at the ground of the campus, it looked very small from here.

I glanced at Taeyeon, she's just staring down like I'm not here with her. 

What's wrong with her? PMSing?

I fake coughed "H-how's your work?"

She just nodded again, I guess she don't want to write. Maybe she's tired or something?

But this was my chance, I need to ask her on a date. Go Tiffany, don't waste your time. It's now or never.

"Um... Taeyeon?"

She looked at me and my heart began to pound wildly.

"C-can I ask you on a d-date?" The moment I said that, I saw her saddened but immediately turned to blank.

"Um.. just to know each other, you know that I like you right? So maybe we can go eat out or whatever you want," I quickly said it in just a second. I don't know how, I just did and I hope she understand it.

Taeyeon finally took her sticky notes out of her bag and wrote. After that she handed it to me.

I read it in mind "I'm sorry Tiffany but I can't. I'm not a lesbian. Sorry if I made you think that I like you too."

I was stupefied after reading it. Did she just reject me? I was staring at the note, it was real.

I looked at Taeyeon and she looked very sorry for me. Something in my stomach was missing, no, I felt there's nothing left inside. It all dropped down to nowhere.

I felt my heart was stabbing over and over, I felt cold inside as I was trembling.

The pain was slowly taking over me but I tried to hold my tears back.

Lesbian? Is that what she think of me? Just a lesbian?

The kiss and she also opened up to me. What about that? It just mean nothing?

Taeyeon scribbled on her note and gave it to me "We just met Tiffany, you'll get over it. You're doing it so fast."

"Lesbian? You just think of me like that because I like girls? I just follow what my heart says," I justified.

She wrote again and gave it to me "Sometimes, our hearts deceive us. Don't always follow it, it will lead you down. It's a traitor, don't be a jerk."

I smiled then laughed out loud with that. She thinks I'm stupid to follow my heart?

"If you don't like me, it's okay. But saying I'm a jerk to follow my heart?" I paused for a moment then resumed. "Fine! I'm a jerk to follow it and like you! I thought you see me as me, not just labeled me as lesbian. I thought you're different from others! You're just like them!"

After that, I left her alone. I ran downstairs and this time, I didn't restrain myself from crying.

Taeyeon don't like me.

She thinks I'm just a stupid lesbian following my heart.

Fvcking shit! I'm so hurt.

This is why I don't like to try dating, they're all stereotypes.

I'm glad to know that she's just like the other before I fall for her.

But I'm so hurt right now.

It's new to me. This pain was overwhelming, how can I handle it?

I thought, she's the one for me.

*****

Kinda busy, sorry. T_T

Tell me if I'm being fast or if it's getting worse. Thank you.