Evening, I went home and without further ado, I surfed on the internet to study sign language.

I've learned that Taeyeon was using American Sign Language based on how I observed her gestures.

Different countries have different sign languages and have their own grammar.

So I chose ASL because Tae's using it.

I started with the basic like, (from the internet)

Hello. To greet someone with a hello, make the sign by extending your fingers and cross your thumb in front of your palm. Now take the hand, and start with your hand in front of your ear and extend it outward and away from your body. 

Goodbye. It's the same as the traditional gesture for the word. Open your palm, folding down your fingers, then open your palm again. 

Please. The sign for "please" is made by placing your flat right hand over the center of your chest. Move your hand in a clockwise motion (from the observer's point of view, use a circular motion towards your left, down, right, and back up) a few times. 

Thank you. The sign for "thank you" is made by starting with the fingers of your dominant hand near your lips. The hand should be flat then move your hand forward and a bit down in the direction of the person you are thanking. 

I'm sorry. The sign for "sorry" is made by forming an A or make your hand into fist using your right hand. Spin your hand on your chest using a couple of clockwise motions. This sign can be also be used to mean "apologize" or "regret."

Yes. The yes sign looks a head nodding yes. You take your hand and make it into a fist, holding it at about shoulder height and make your fist bob back and forth.

And No, is like that scolding teacher in high school that always says no to everything. The sign looks like a mouth saying no. Take your index finger together with your middle finger and tap them together with your thumb. 

And other basic sentences and greetings in our daily conversation.

At first, it was hard and confusing because some words have almost the same gestures. But I'm focus and determine to learn this for Taeyeon, I'm so eager to study this.

I will never stop until I'm confident with what I've learned and to show her. I can't  wait for the moment that I can fully understand her without sticky notes even though, I also like that because I'm collecting it.

I'm so excited for that time and it will happen soon.

Anyway I also enrolled myself in sign language class online. I will not tell Tae about this, yet... because I want to surprise her.

Tonight I will not sleep, I can't... my heart was burning to do this. Obviously I'm doing this because I'm head over heels to her and I know that every day, I'm falling for her deeply.

I will do this with all my heart!

And with just a quick snap... I woke up with light tap on my shoulder, I slowly opened my eyes and blinked few times to adjust my vision.

It's morning as the sun was shining through my window. I saw an apple with note. Geez, I didn't know that I fell asleep. 

Well, I read the note.

Eat it. It's more effective than coffee.

I quickly sat up straight, I was still in front of my study table and felt my head spinning a bit. Lack of sleeps.

I turned around and saw the most beautiful girl in the world, Taeyeon. I knew it was her, not because of the note but because I gave her my passcode. No one knows it, not even Yul, I changed again and put Tae's birthday as my passcode.

Taeyeon sweetly smiled at me and mouthed good morning. I raised my brows, I know she's not mute and she can speak before but this was the first time I saw her did that.

Her lips was enticing as I my eyes glued on it.

Taeyeon giggled and she started clicking on her phone then she looked at me.

My phone vibrated and it made me out of my day dreaming, I got a message from her.

Taeyeon: I tried to call you many times this morning but you didn't answer. I got worried so I'm here to check you. Satisfied to see you sleeping, I guess you slept while doing your project?

I slowly closed my laptop hoping that she didn't see it and I nodded.

"Oh... yeah. Project. Thank you for checking me, I really appreciate your concern," I gave her eye smile.

I'm happy because I got her worried, it means I'm important to her. If I were in her shoes, I'd do the same.

Taeyeon: I prepared breakfast and  packed lunch for us, now get up so you won't be late in school.

"Okay mom," I playfully said and her forehead creased.

I grinned "Fine I will get up if you will kiss me?" I bartered.

Taeyeon toothy smiled and shook her head. I frowned and made sad face, she stared at me.

Then she finally leaned down to me and pecked the tip of my nose, I smiled like a fool.

It feels like we're together now, as in, girlfriends. I know she didn't answer me and we're not yet official but with this, she's making me feel that she's my girlfriend and she's already mine.

I'm possessive type of person when it comes to relationship. I don't like sharing my girl and I also want to be the only one for her. That sucks, I know... but it's who I am.

And for Taeyeon, I want her mine. Just mine. Definitely no sharing. No look. No touch. 

Ugh. Fine! 

People can look at her but no touching!

"Love is amazing ah~
You are my starlight, shine on my heart
When I'm with you, it feels like I'm dreaming all day
You are my starlight, I get so happy
Your love is like a gift..." ♪♫♪

That song kept echoing in my head, it feels like I'm contented with my life now that she's here. No words can explain how she makes me feel like this. 

Love? It's really amazing.

Taeyeon waved her hand in front of my face to get my attention, I was zoning out again. Aish. I'm always thinking about her.

"Okay... I will get up now love," I jumped off from bed and stole a kiss from her then I ran outside the room. What a kid, I know.

But actually, it made me blushed. I just can't help it, she's so irresistible. 

Since that night, I became busy as ever just to learn sign language. I attended classes secretly and every night, I used skype to meet this teacher to improve my gestures.

I want to surprise Taeyeon and for the record, this is for her.

A week passed by and once in for all, I was kinda used to it. This is how your determination works and it really work fast. If you really like to do it, immediately, you can do it. No excuses.

But of course, with what I did, I don't have much time for Taeyeon. We just bond in school then after class I always disappear. 

Saturday morning came as I opened my eyes, I saw Taeyeon watching me sleep. No she's glaring at me. She's sitting on a chair next to my bed.

I panicked and sat up quickly. Why she's like that? She's like a detestable person? A creep. Well, a cute one. 

She's scaring me with her glares, I feel like melting and I shuddered.

"Ohh... Tae, go-good morning!" I stammered.

Taeyeon ripped a sticky note then put it on my forehead, I took and read it.

"What's wrong with you? You're ignoring me! You don't text me back and you're always disappearing after class! Are you avoiding me?!"

I looked at her in disbelief and saw her that she's about to cry, I feel guilty.

"I'm sorry... and yeah, I'm kinda... a-avoiding you," I scratched the nape of my neck.

Taeyeon stood up and was about to leave but I quickly stood up and held her arm "Please... don't leave, I will explain."

Taeyeon lightly pushed my hand away and gestured "Why? You're avoiding me because I'm a freak?"

Gosh, can you believe that?? 

Oh yes! Oh my gosh!

I understand what she gestured! 

This was the result of all my hardships! Worth it! I smiled widely then she gave me a confused look.

"Do I look like funny to you?" She's kinda irritated.

I continued to smile and shook my head "No, of course not," I answered.

"Then why are you smiling?"

"Because you're so beautiful, Taeyeon," I said.

Her eyes widened "You understand me?"

Then I used sign language too "Yes, I do. I studied ASL for you."

Taeyeon covered her mouth with her hand, with her reaction, she's shocked and surprised. 

It's priceless. I love it.

"I'm falling for you, I did this to show you how much I care for you," I gestured again.

Taeyeon sprinted to me and hugged me tightly. This was one of the best feelings... I hugged her back and she buried her face on my chest. I want to make her feel safe and secured. Giving her warm and making her feel wanted. I just don't wanna let her go.

Taeyeon slowly pulled back to face me, she's crying as I gently wiped her tears on her face.

"Why are you crying?" I asked.

"I'm so happy... you just show me how much you care for me. This means a lot to me. Thank you."

"Don't thank me, I did this because I wanted to," I said. "Sorry if I'm avoiding you because this past few days, I was studying sign language," I elaborated. "No words can explain how much you mean to me Tae, I'm really thankful that I met you," I kissed her forehead and gave her eye smile that's only for her.

Then Taeyeon grabbed the back of my head and kissed me on lips! Her soft lips that shut my mind down but my heart was so alive as it beats to its maximum limit.

I will never get use to it and I want more. I was about to move my lips but Taeyeon immediately broke it when my phone rang. Damn it!

I thought it was alarm but no, someone's calling me. I took my phone and answered the call.

The person who's speaking was very demanding and stern. I just kept listening then I said "Okay, see you," then the line ended.

"Who is it?" Taeyeon asked.

I grinned "It's my sister, she's here in Korea and you'll meet her later."

Time to introduce Taeyeon to my family.

"What?" Taeyeon became tensed. She's  nervous, I could see it in her eyes.

"Don't be nervous, it's just my sister. She's kind and sweet, don't worry. Everything will be fine, just be yourself," I assured her.

Taeyeon smiled at me and nodded.

I'm really excited about it. I will see my sister, I miss her anyway and she will meet the love of my life.

Sounds so good to me.

*****

Sorry for the very late update. 

Still, this story will be slow in updates T_T