The next morning.

I went to school and yes I remember my conversation with my sister. I will go back to San Francisco and finish my last year of college there.

I don't know how but the entire campus knows that I'm already leaving.

After talking to the Dean, I got signed and took papers from his office. He said I needed those documents so I can go back to my previous school in San Francisco and continue my studies there.

So this was it, there was no turning back.

Well I'm going back home, the place where I belong. The place that will help me move on and forget all the pain here in my heart.

While walking in the hallway of the main building of the school, there's an unexpected person that will cross my way. All students were in their classes because it's already past 9 o'clock.

I don't know but I stopped walking and just stared at her, I feel hurt just seeing her.

Taeyeon was walking in my direction and I felt tense. She stopped in front me then I swallowed hard.

I thought she don't wanna see me anymore. I thought she wants me to avoid her. She said it, she don't want me in her life.

But as I looked at her face, she looked anxious. I glanced down to her hands and she's playing with her fingers.

"You're leaving?" She gestured.

I just gave her a bored look. So what if I'm leaving?

Taeyeon bit her lower lip as if she was trying to stop herself from crying. I rolled my eyes, not again.

"Please. Don't leave..." She looked at me, begging.

I laughed sarcastically, I don't know what possess me but it's just funny.

What? Am I a toy? Is she a bipolar?

Yesterday, she wants me to stay away from her then now she don't want me to leave. What the heck is wrong with her?

"This is what you want right? Stop playing with me Taeyeon. I'm so done with your shits. I had enough," I said with an attitude.

Taeyeon shook her head, she was frantic.

"Are you having fun huh? Is it really fun to hurt and control my feelings? I don't understand Taeyeon but all I know is you don't care about me. You always hurt me and you don't hesitate to do it. Enough is enough, let's move on," I'm not mad. As I said, I can't be mad at her. Maybe I just had enough this time.

But there's a small portion in my heart that I want to stay with her. That there's something wrong and she can't say it to me. And I just want to pretend that nothing happened and we're fine.

However, big portion of it don't want to listen anymore. It hurts and it wants to move on.

"I'm sorry please," Taeyeon was crying as she put her hands together to beg me.

I shook my head "Good bye Taeyeon."

I was about to leave and she held my arm. As usual, I felt so alive. She always give me energy but I shoved her and it caused her to stumble on the floor.

I wanted to help her but I stood my ground so I just stared at her.

Taeyeon looked hurt and my heart was crying for not helping her. I wanted to punch my face but still, I didn't help her. I guess, it's my pride. I need to respect myself too.

Besides, she's weak. She needs to help herself.

"T-T-Tiffa-n-ny..." Taeyeon mumbled.

Gosh, I heard her beautiful voice again and it hit me of what I've done.

I forced her. 

I made her talk in rude way, I feel so bad and guilty.

I don't deserve her. 

I quickly looked away from her, I can't face her. This is my fault, maybe she's scared of me now.

"I'm sorry Taeyeon..." After I said those words, I rushed and left her in the hallway.

I wanted to go back and apologize. I wanted to give it a chance but it all messed up. I just want to be with her but what happened? We're both hurt. 

The situation is not good for now.

Perhaps, we should wait. We both need time.

Anyway, I don't know if I can trust her again.

This is the right thing to do. We need time, I need time.

I went straight to the airport and met my sister and Yuri there. All my things were packed as Seolhyun took in charge of everything.

My subconscious prayed that Taeyeon will come here and stop me. I'm really hopeless. If she show herself here, I might not go. I'd stay.

It's bad that she has this strong effect to me, I might go crazy if this things happen again.

I'm afraid that it would happen again, that she would hurt and dump me. That's why a big part of myself don't want to give it a try. I'm afraid of being hurt. That's stupid I know.

"Hey biatch, you sure you wanna do this? It's just a girl, I can make her life miserable-"

"Shut it Yul, don't you dare touch her," I sternly said.

Yuri lifted her hands up in surrender "Fine, I'm just kidding. Chill."

I kept looking around, trying to find a petite girl. I wanted her to come and stop me. I prayed silently.

"What's wrong sis?" Seolhyun asked.

"Oh... um nothing."

"We better go now," she said and smiled.

I gave her a small smile and nodded "Okay..."

Yuri hugged me and cried "I'll miss you biatch, why it so sudden?"

I hugged her back "Don't be a cry baby,we will see each other again," I didn't know but there were tears that escaped from my eyes.

I quickly wiped it.

"I know, I'll just miss you. Take care of yourself and don't forget to video chat me every weekend," Yuri reminded.

I chuckled "Okie dokie biatch. You take care of yourself too," I said as I patted her back.

Yuri faced me "See you soon biatch," then she kissed my cheek.

"Ewww..." I joked.

"Every girl wants that from me, you're lucky I'm your best friend. I don't give my kiss for free," Yuri joked as she messed my hair.

"Be safe."

"You too."

"Seolhyun, please take care of this biatch and regards me to aunt and uncle." Yuri wiped her tears and smiled.

Seolhyun nodded "Of course, she's our baby girl."

I scowled "I'm a big girl now."

They laughed.

"Okay... Yeah... big girl, study well and let's see each other after a year," Yuri gave me a final hug.

"Okay, thanks Yul."

"Okay thank you Yuri, see you again," Seolhyun said and gave Yuri a side kiss.

In one last time, I looked back hoping that I will see her.

But as always, I just hope for nothing.

What do I expect? Of course, she didn't really mean what she said.

I'm just nothing to her.

Move on Tiffany, move on.

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