"You need to be punished," Tiffany repeated once again.

"I will accept it Fany, I will do everything you want," I genuinely said looking into her eyes.

Tiffany bended down and leaned her head on my chest "Your punishment will be for a long time and you are not allow to oppose."

I nodded "Tell me, I'll do it."

"Your punishment is... to stay with me forever," Tiffany stated as her voice quivered.

I smiled with that and kissed her crown lovingly. I would love to.

"You have to stay with me forever Kim Taeyeon and that's your punishment. You can't object or complain with it," she sternly said. "You're just mine."

Mine. That sounds so good.

"I'm happy to comply with that punishment Fany-ah. I love you and I want to spend my whole life with you. I'm sorry if I was afraid before, I was afraid that I'm not worthy for you, that I don't deserve you. But now, I made up my mind. I will do my best to be a better person so that, I can be good enough for you. I promise that I will never leave you again. I'm here for you Fany, and please help yourself too," I said while petting her hair.

I could feel Tiffany nodded "I love you so much Tae. You don't need to be a better person, being just you right now is perfect for me. But if you want to grow, I will support you. Don't think that you don't deserve me because you're more than what I want."

Cheesy but I love it especially when it comes from her. She makes me feel excited, nervous, happy, safe and everything. She gives so much emotions to me but I like it and I'm used to it already.

I didn't expect this.

I didn't expect that I will fall in love with a girl. Never in my thought that I would be into girls. Girl. Just a girl to be clear. I'm not attracted to any other girl or guy anymore.

I only want a girl. It just happened and it happened to be Tiffany Hwang.

I'm contented knowing that she only want me too.

"Thank you Tiffany Hwang for loving me. I couldn't ask for more than anything else. You are enough. I'm so lucky to have you," she looked up at me meeting my gaze then I held her cheek and stroked it gently.

"You don't know how much I'm happy right now TaeTae, no words could explain it," Tiffany stared into my soul with her beautiful teary eyes.

"I can feel it Fany," she gave me her sweetest eye smile. "I missed that eye smile."

Her smile never fail to make my heart jump into happiness.

"Thank you for coming here," Tiffany buried her face into the crook of my neck.

"I promise, I will help myself Tae."

That's all I need to hear from her and it relieved me. Coming here was a right choice.

=

After we cuddled her nurses prepared her bath and also, they gave her medicine. While Tiffany was taking her bath, I went down to the living room and saw Seolhyun drinking some coffee.

I sat next to her on the couch.

"Where are your parents?" I asked.

"They went to the office, they grabbed this opportunity that you're here to go there. They've been absent since Tiffany got a problem," Seolhyun explained and I nodded. "Do you want something?" She asked then she sipped her coffee.

I shook my head "No I'm fine thanks."

"Anyway, I will buy you clothes and everything you need. Thank you because you're here for my sister," Seolhyun sincerely said as she put her cup of coffee on the table in front of us.

"I love Tiffany and I'll do everything to help her. Thank you for taking me here Seolhyun, I'm happy because I'm with her," I smiled to her. I'm really happy that finally, we're okay.

I'm getting comfortable with Seolhyun too, she's not that really bad person. I could feel that she's just protective over Tiffany.

"You're kind Taeyeon, I'm so stupid that I judged you before and I regret it a lot right now," she pursed her lips and lowered her head ashamed with what she had done.

"Don't mention it, it's in the past now. What matter is now. We're all fine. We will help Tiffany to recover fast, we will support her," I said with my cheery voice though I thought it sounded awkward. I'm not an upbeat person.

Seolhyun smiled and looked back at me "You're so cute," she complimented.

I blushed slightly, I just noticed that she's beautiful but Tiffany is beautifuler. Lol. That's not even a word. What I mean was Tiffany is the most beautiful girl for me.

"Thanks for explaining things to her and now she's considering to forgive me, it means a lot to me Taeyeon," her tears escaped from her eyes but she wiped it quickly. "I care a lot for her and I love my sister so much. I just thought it's the best for her," Seolhyun's voice was trembling.

My eyes softened looking at her so I hugged her "I understand you, I know Tiffany will do too."

Unexpectedly, she hugged me back.

"Thank you Taeyeon," she was crying and I didn't like it. It's not her fault and she doesn't deserve this.

What she did was wrong but her reason was acceptable. She just care for her sister and she just wanted the best for her.

Seolhyun faced me and I didn't know what possessed me but I wiped her tears using the cuff of my sleeve.

"Everything will be alright," I said.

"What's the meaning of this?!" An angry voice was heard.

Seolhyun stood up and we saw fuming Tiffany.

"You're flirting with my girlfriend??" Tiffany accused her sister.

"No it's not what you think it is Tiff-" Seolhyun was trying to explain but she was interrupted by her sister.

"Shut up! You bitch! Now you're trying to take her attention from me! You're unbelievable! I just wish that you're not my sister!" Tiffany shouted, her hands were rounded into fists.

Seolhyun panicked "No I'm not flirting with her, she's just comforting me! Please don't be mad Tiffany," she pleaded.

Tiffany shook her head "I hate you! You're selfish! I thought you love me but you're just taking everything from me! I wish you're not my sis-"

"Enough Tiffany!" I cut her off. That's too much for Seolhyun to handle.

Tiffany skeptically looked at me.

"You're too much and who is flirting with who?" I asked calmly.

"That girl is a bitch!" Tiffany harshly said.

"She's your sister!" I retorted.

"I don't have a sister like her! She's selfish! You get lost!" After Tiffany said that to her sister, she went upstairs to her room leaving us frustrated.

I massaged my temple, she's too much.

"Let's talk to her?" I suggested.

"No..." Seolhyun heavily sighed "You talk to her. I'll give her time, she's mad at me again."

"But Seolhyun-"

"I understand her, I just need to go somewhere to clear my mind. Please take care of her," Seolhyun said then she rushed out of the house.

Then, I followed Tiffany to her room. I was disappointed with her. She hurt and accused her sister, that's ridiculous to think that Seolhyun was flirting with me.

In her room, I saw Tiffany was pacing back and forth. She was frantic.

"Tiffany what was that?" I asked demanding a reasonable reason but for me, there's no reasonable or rational explanation for being like that.

"Fany!" Tiffany corrected me. "She obviously likes you and you can't see it! She's flirting with you Tae!"

I shook my head "It's not flirting! I'm comforting her!" I insisted.

"No, she will take you away from me!"

"I'm just comforting her," I reiterated.

"That bitch is not my sister! She should know where to place herself," Tiffany continued to pace, she was panicking.

"Enough! Don't call her like that! She's not like that!" I defended Seolhyun. "She just care about you Tiffany, don't be a childish!"

"I said you call me Fany! And I'm not childish, I'm just territorial! What mine is Mine! You are mine! I'm protecting what's mine!" Tiffany stopped pacing and looked at me.

"Don't put your guard up against your sister, she's not a threat. Please don't be mad at her, she loves you," I tried to convince her.

Tiffany shook her head "Now your siding her!"

"I'm not siding her, I'm just explaining it to you. Please open your mind!"

Her jaw clenched "You're a pathetic whore!"

"What?" I'm not a whore. That's offensive.

"Now you're blinded by her pity act. I don't need you! You're just a sick girl, go back to Korea! You're worthless bitch like her! Just go!"

Tiffany's words were perfectly shot to my heart. It hurts so badly, I couldn't breathe.

"Do you think I need you? Do you think I need a beggar like you?" She laughed evilly. "You really think you could help me? You're so full of yourself then." Her glares were daggers, it kept stabbing my poor heart.

"Go away mute! I don't fucking need you!" Tiffany yelled as she walked to me and pushed me hard.

"Get out of here! What? Are you deaf too? Go away and be with that bitch! Leave me alone! I don't need you!" Tiffany pushed me again.

And I had enough "Fine! If that's what you want!" My voice was broken.

I rushed out of her room, out of their house.

She's too much! She let her emotions took over her head. That's absurd.

Tears were streaming down my face so I wiped it harshly, there's no sense of crying.

"What happened?" Someone asked.

I looked at my side and saw nurse Lee smoking. She threw the cigarette bud and stepped on it.

"Tiffany. She changed a lot," I answered bitterly. I'm still mad at her.

"Of course, she changed. A lot. That's normal," she nonchalantly said.

I looked at her in disbelief.

Nurse Lee stared back at me blankly "She's depressed. Her mood swing change fast like a bipolar. If she's angry, she's furious. If she's sad, she's mourning. Her emotion gets double. If she's hurt, it's double. And if she say something, it doesn't mean that she mean it. She just can't control her emotions right now."

I woke up from my stupidity. I almost forgot that she's depressed. I shouldn't be mad, I should've understood her like what Seolhyun said. We have to adjust.

I feel so dumb.

"Taeyeon right?" I nodded. "When you came here, I can say Tiffany is starting to change for better. She takes her medicine and she even takes a bath every day without a protest. She's helping herself for you. You don't know but you're already helping her just with your presence. You must be really important to her or should I say, she loves you so much that's why she wants to recover fast."

Nurse Lee walked closer to me "Please don't give up on her, she needs you Taeyeon. Be patient."

"Thank you nurse Lee," I realized that I was wrong. I need to be understanding about Tiffany's condition. I should be open minded.

I'm the childish one, not Tiffany. I let my negative feelings judged her. I shouldn't be disappointed, I shouldn't have done that.

"Call me Sunny," then she winked at me.

"Taeyeon! Taeyeon! Taeyeon!" I heard the other nurse called me from the inside.

"Oh it's Summer," Sunny informed me.

"What is it Sum?" Sunny asked.

Summer was panting "Tiffany is crying in her room and she's looking for you Taeyeon. She's out of control, she's breaking every thing she sees. She's very emotional, hysterical," she explained rapidly.

"Go girl, your sweetheart is looking for you," Sunny teasingly said.

I blushed "O-okay, thank you," then I quickly dismissed myself.

Tiffany needs help.

She needs attention.

She needs understanding.

She needs care and love.

And she needs me.

I'm so dumb to be affected by her mood swing. I know, she didn't mean what she said. She's a very sweet and considerate girl.

She's my Fany, I should be strong for her no matter what.

I love her and it's enough reason to stay, I will never leave her.

I will never break my promise to her.

*****

"Most of all, this is beautiful
My circus
How much more riskier will each night be for us?
Exceptionally shining, my heart." 

- Circus by Taeyeon (English Translation) SonexStella