"It's hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember."

- Sujish Kandampully

*****

4 months later

Time has gone by so quickly. The days dragged on, but the months flew so fast. Tiffany has gone for months and I have no idea what happened to her or where she was.

I remember when she accidentally shoved me in the hallway, I could see through her eyes how much she wanted to help me but she kept herself from doing it. I know that I hurt her a lot because I followed what her sister wanted. That's my biggest mistake and I'm still regretting it until now.

Time passes but not a day goes by that I don't think of her, she's always on my mind, in my heart. Since the day that she left me, I've realized that in sadness, my heart will never heal from the pain of losing my loved one.

That day, I tried to stop her. I came and followed her to the airport but Seolhyun was the one who saw me. I never got to see my love for the last time. She degraded me, said things that I didn't deserve then she asked the security to haul me outside the airport.

I still remember her vicious words, it's like a venom that stuck in my head and makes my heart suffer till then. Her disgust had poisoned me real bad.

"You're just a trash! Leave Tiffany alone! Don't influence her you sick!" Seolhyun pushed and slapped me in the face. That scene keeps rewinding in my head.

I'm not a trash and to clear things, I'm not sick. Why was she so mad at me? I just love her sister. Was it because of my status in life? Or because I couldn't talk that time?

Yes. I can talk now.

Tiffany made me talk again. Just thinking that she will leave me terrified me so I strove to have my voice back. Slowly, it came back but she never hear it clear because she's already gone.

I don't talk much as usual, I just talk when needed.

And I really miss Tiffany but I'm not that desperate. She didn't fight for me, she just left me without explaining things to her. I know it's my fault but there's nothing I can do. I was weak and coward before. And she's somewhere in America now.

I admit, I don't have enough money to go and find her. How pathetic right? Sometimes, I want to believe in her sister's words but I respect myself. I don't deserve to be treated like that. No one deserve to be treated like that.

Seolhyun words doesn't define me. She doesn't know me. She only judged me so why would I listen to her?

I was pondering when my boss Jessica approached me.

"Taeng, you're spacing out again," she said as she held my shoulder.

I was in front of the cash register, luckily, there's no customer in line.

"Oh I'm sorry Miss Jessica," I politely said.

"You know I really like to hear your voice Taeng but please drop the formality. Just call me by my name," she lightly squeezed my shoulder.

I smiled and nodded "Okay... Jessica."

Jessica smiled back as she let go of me "Your shift today has ended, you can go now."

"Okay boss, I mean Jessica."

She giggled and winked at me. I lowered my head and blushed. I'm not used to those kind of gestures. I'm totally innocent.

"Uhh... you're so cute Taeyeon," she pinched my cheek briefly.

I blushed even more.

"You can go now Taeng," Jessica pouted. "Yuri will be here soon."

Kwon Yuri, she's a suitor of Jessica. At first, I didn't like her because her personality before was high to reach. And she didn't like me either because of what happened with me and Tiffany.

Jessica gave her a challenge to work here at Babeans for 3 months and this is her last month here. If she accomplish it, they will start dating but not like girlfriends yet.

Jessica is really hard to get and she wants to be sure that Yuri is serious with her.

Yuri became my friend too but I never told her about the reason why I did what I did. She never asked anyway.

"Okay thank you, Jessi."

"Aweee... I like that," she kissed me on cheek. I don't know but sometimes I feel like she's hitting on me. 😅 in my dreams 😏

I took off the apron and handed it to Jessica as she gave a hand on it.

I walked around the counter and was about to leave then someone called me. It was familiar to me.

I turned to look who it was and my eyes widened. In split second, my eyebrows knitted together. I don't have any idea why she was here.

I didn't expect her, I was dumbfounded.

"I'm glad that you are here Taeyeon," she said.

I skeptically looked at her.

"We have to talk," she sternly said. Her personality is always stuck up. I hate it, she intimidates me but I won't let her insult me again.

I shook my head, there's nothing more to talk about. I will not allow her to degrade me this time and I don't even want to see her.

"I'm sorry Seolhyun but there's nothing to talk about anymore," I calmly said trying to be polite.

She was shocked to hear me talking. I tried to hide my smile, her expression was priceless.

"Y-you can t-talk now?" She asked stuttering.

I nodded "Yes. I'm not sick or anything. To be honest, I don't wanna talk to you or even see you anymore."

"But I need to tell you something-"

"Please, leave me alone," I interrupted her.

I bowed to her and was about to leave.

"It's about Tiffany, hear me out first," she sounded like she's begging me. That's funny.

"I'm moving on already, I'm sorry," I walked out of the cafe leaving her.

I ignored the urge to ask what it was.

Actually I will never move on but I have my pride. I respect myself as I said.

Tiffany has her own life now, we're just the same. What does it matter if Seolhyun say something about her? Nothing will change what has happened before.

Nothing.

We can do nothing to change it.

And I'm not that desperate.

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