[third person]
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"shut up! she's sleeping!"

"but lucas is out-"

"who gives a fuck about lucas? i ship her and shawn already-"

"no you can't say that-"

"shut up!" kayla yells at her friends, the groups of them standing around willows bed. "look, i know we all hate lucas right now but at the end of the day, he's her boyfriend, and it's her birthday. just let him see her and give her the gift or whatever."

"he can stay outside," willow mumbles, waking up from all the chaos. "i don't want to see him."

"happy birthday!" they all chorus, making her smile sheepishly, as they all attack her with hugs. "but wait, you don't want him to come inside?"

"i-i don't know," willow sighs, sitting up in her bed. "where is he?"

"lounge," ella answers, slightly wary. "don't radiate dumb bitch energy willow, i swear to fucking god-"

"shut up ella," yocelin groans, making willow sigh softly. "go if you really want to."

"wait in here, i'll be back in a sec," willow says quickly, getting up from her bed, and pulling a random hoodie over her torso, before walking out into the main corridor, shutting her bedroom door behind her. she strolls to her  bathroom, since she was the only one who didn't have a ensuite, quickly brushing her teeth, and walking straight out into the lounge.

"hey," she says confidently, seeing lucas standing with his back to her. he turns around quickly, holding a bunch of roses, and a small black gift bag in his hands.

"oh, hey," he replies. "happy birthday."

"thank you," she grins, slowly approaching him, and standing slightly further away from him than normal.

"i um, got you this," he begins, holding out the bag and roses. willow smiles nervously at him, taking the gifts, holding onto her roses.

"thank you," she mumbles. "you didn't have to get me anything."

"open it," he urges. willow nods, walking to the kitchen island, and putting the roses down, opening the bag carefully. she pulls out the red box, and sees the cartier logo embossed onto the front, making her gasp slightly.

"lucas- no," she starts, making him grin widely. "no."

"go on, open it," he urges again, making her sigh and lift the lid up, revealing a dainty necklace, a single gold circle in the middle.

"lucas..." willow mumbles, her eyes in awe, but guilt filling her completely. "i can't accept this."

"what? yes you can," he says to her, his grin turning into a small frown.

"no, lucas, i can't," she says, closing the box carefully, and putting it into the bag again. "take it back, return it please, and donate the money to charity."

"but will-"

"no, lucas." she says firmly. "i can't accept it."

"why?"

"because i know i'm gonna be giving it back to you," she says softly, her eyes filling with tears. "i-i'm sorry, i cant do this," she says, turning around and beginning to walk out of the kitchen.

"are you breaking up with me?" lucas asks, confusion written all over his face. "wills, you can't be serious, right? two years willow, two years," he says quickly, getting angry.

"please lucas," she mumbles. "just leave."

"willow, hey, hey," he says, approaching her and holding onto her hand. "baby look at me."

"i-i can't do this anymore!" she yells, snatching her hand away from him. "we're over, lucas, just leave."

"i- willow, what?" he chokes out, looking at her in shock, before shaking his head, seeing her look down sadly.

"i'm sorry," she mumbles. "i just can't be with someone who doesn't respect me, and my wishes," lucas looks at her guiltily, picking up the gifts he got her, and sighing softly, seeing her walk back to her room.

maybe he regretted cheating, but right now, he couldn't care for one reason only; willow will never find out about what happened.
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"are you sure you wanna go?" susie asks willow softly. "come on, you just broke up with lucas, do you really want to go to shawns party?"

"i need to get my mind off things," willow says softly, her heels clicking as they walk to the elevator. "i just want to get drunk and forget."

"i get you," susie replies gently. "if you want to leave, all of us will leave with you, okay?" willow nods, as her other friends pile into the elevator, taking up the short ride to shawns floor.

willow leads them up to his door, ringing the bell, and waiting for someone to answer.

"hey!" brian says loudly, seeing willow standing there. "happy birthday!"

"thanks," she chuckles, greeting him with a hug. "how are you?"

"i'm great, thanks, how are you?" he responds. "and who are these ladies?"

"we're not minors," ella says quickly under her breath, making noor and cate chuckle to themselves.

"these are my friends, girls this is brian," willow introduces the group to the boy. "anyway, where's shawn?"

"somewhere, honestly i have-"

"there's the birthday girl!" she hears, seeing shawn walking over, heading to willow and embracing her in a large hug. "happy birthday!"

"thank you," she giggles, hugging him back. "alright, i'm ready to get drunk. let's go do those shots," she confirms to shawn, grabbing him by the hand, and pulling him straight to where the drinks are, making shawn chuckle softly to himself.

"so, what's your strongest?"

"why strongest?" shawn questions, pulling two shot glasses out, and picking up a bottle of tequila, along with the plate of lime slices and salt.

"i need to get drunk, fast," she says to him, picking up a bottle of grey goose, and opening it up, drinking straight from the bottle.

"woah, willow," shawn chuckles, pouring out the two shots. "slow down."

"don't tell me what to do," she teases, taking the shot of tequila from shawn, and spilling that down her throat, before sucking the salt and lime, following that up with another swig of the grey goose.

"you're crazy," shawn says, his eyes widening in shock slightly.

"i know," she grins back, handing the grey goose bottle back to shawn, who eagerly takes a sip, cringing at the strong vodka.

"hey, aren't you lucas webb's girl?" a random guy asks willow, spotting her at the drinks table with shawn, her composure that of slightly tipsy.

"uh, kinda," she lies quickly, pulling the bottle away from her lips. "you know him?"

"yeah, wait, i thought you would've ended things with him," the guy with short blonde hair asks her, making willow furrow her brow in confusion.

"what? why?"

"well didn't he sleep with another girl?" the boy asks her. "he's been going round all the boys at ryerson saying that he's told you and ended things."

"w-what?" willow stutters, as shawns smile slowly turns into a frown, concerned about the girl next to him. "what do you mean?"

"i'm not lying, ask anyone in ryerson," the blonde tells her. "sorry," he shrugs, making willow nod, and push out a weak smile.

"um, excuse me," she says softly to shawn and the other boy, pushing through the crowd of people at the condo, wandering around the space, before she finds herself in a bedroom. she looks around, and sees photos of shawn and a younger girl, along with an older woman and man, probably his family, she thinks. 

there was a white sheeted bed resting against the main wall, and to the left of the bed, a large window revealing the scenery of toronto city.

"wills?" shawn walks into the room, knocking on the door softly. "hey."

"o-oh i'm sorry," she mumbles, feeling the tears rushing up to her eyes. "i-i just needed to get some space."

"what happened?" shawn asks her softly, walking forward, and standing in front of her, completely concerned. she sighs gently, as he gently pulls her to the bed, letting her sit down and explain herself.

"i-i broke up with lucas this morning, a-and i did it because he wasn't respecting me as a person a-and-" she stutters, letting a tear roll down her cheek. "do you think that guy was telling the truth?"

"james?" shawn asks, making willow nod. "probably, he never lies," he says, sitting down next to her. "what do you mean? not respecting you?"

"i have a lot of history," she begins, pushing out a small sigh. "i-i didn't want to have sex with him, and obviously he got angry. i-i just didn't realise he would actually- i- cheat-" she sniffles, wiping her cheeks.

"you broke up with him this morning?" shawn asks her softly, not particularly knowing what to say. willow nods, looking down at her lap. "why did you come here?"

"i wanted to forget," she whispers, looking up at shawn. "god, i was so ignorant," she mumbles, shaking her head sarcastically, more tears spilling down her cheeks.

"wait, are you, like, a virgin?" shawn asks her, as her cheeks flush slightly, before she nods, looking away from shawn. "hey, don't be embarrassed."

"why are you so concerned about me?" willow asks him softly, wiping away her tears.

"i- honestly?" shawn stutters out, willow nodding in response. "i'm attracted to you, i mean, who wouldn't be? i knew you were with lucas, but god, you're beautiful," he chuckles, making willow smile sheepishly. "but he's a dick, and i just want to make sure you're okay."

"well, i appreciate that, but right now, i-i'm in shock," she tells him. "i don't know what to think, and i can't comprehend what just happened."

"understandable," shawn replies. "can i propose something though?"

"propose what?"

"well, obviously he cheated on you," shawn states, making willow sigh softly. "and that must make you really angry, so," he says, shifting himself so he's turned to face her. "hook up with me."

"what?"

"hook up with me."

willow paused herself quickly, taking a moment to think about his offer. obviously it wasn't the first time shawn asked her, he asked her back in la too, but at the time, didn't realise how serious her and lucas were.

"i'm about to make a mistake and i don't know if it's a good mistake or the worst one i'll make," willow mumbles to herself, looking down at her lap briefly, before turning her head to look up at shawn. "screw it, let's do it."

shawn grins massively, and leans forward, cupping the girls cheeks in his large hands. "you sure you want to?"

willow nods, shuffling closer towards him, pushing one of her legs over his waist, straddling his lap. "go easy on me."

"promise," he whispers, his eyes trailing down to her lips, as she pushes her hands over his shoulders. "wait- lock the door."

"oh, right," she says quickly, getting up and walking to the door, clicking the lock shut, before walking back to shawn, placing her hands on his shoulders, and pushing him down softly, making his back hit the sheets with a gentle thud.

it was going to be a long night.

and willow had no idea if she was making the right decision, but she didn't care at all. her heart was numb, but crowded with lust.

if lucas could do it, why couldn't she?
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okay, i know, it's gone crazy lol but please keep an open mind because this book is based 100% over situations which aren't exactly easy to explain hehe x