It is 8 o'clock, today is March 20, 2017 (Friday). I write a diary ... Why? For five years I have been struggling with depression. Every 2 years I try to kill myself, but it worked out. Why did the doctors save me and save me ?! WHY?! That's why I used to take sketches or sleeping pills or drop from the bridge to kill! I really have a life without sense! And I'm starting to think why I was born and I have life without sense ?! Why do I have Life without sense
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 S-E-N-S-E ?! I take a razor blade (I wanted a knife but it would not help) and I wanted to kill myself but someone stops me.
- Alice! Do not try to kill! Because I will also kill myself! Is it reaching you ?! Alice! - says my boyfriend Jacob.
 - But Jacob! You will not understand anything !! Wh*re, I do not get that I'm really depressed and I want to end my life, to a bright one !? I have life without sense, Wh*re! - I cry and shout to Jacob.
- God, dear! I do not want you to end up with your life, wh*re! I love you very much, I do not reach You ?! About wh*re! I LOVE YOU!!! ALICE !!! ALICE, LOVING MY MY ; -; I LOVE YOU VERY AND YOU DO NOT GET
: _: IF YOU WILL DONATE YOURSELF, THEN I WILL KILL UP ; _____; WITHOUT YOU, I DO NOT NEED TO LIVE !!! ALICE! DONT FOR ME ?! PLEASE WH*RE!
- Yes, do you really love me? I love you too much. I know that you are ready for anything to stay longer. BUT UNDERSTAND, TREK. THAT MY LIFE WH*RE IS WITHOUT SENSE !!
- Not true!? Alice! You stupid talk about wh*re, oh my God, I do not believe what you're talking about !!! Do not you understand that I can not live without you, wh*re ?! Look back!
 - Unfortunately ...; -; but ... That's right, Jacob. I know I should live longer for you but I can not.
- Why ?!
- Because I have enough of my life f*cked up!
- You do not have this life wh*re! Such lives have idiots, psychopaths, but not you !! What are you talking to a bright choker ?! Wh*re, I can not stand it !! Do not do it !!
- Really ?! Is not that so ?!
- No!! I love you wh*re !!
- I love you too :-*.
- Finally you've reached <3
I love you very much :-*.
- I know, it reached me that because of you I want to live :-* <3. I too :-* <3