Luhan

Hansol is just looking at us while Luna is crying continously. Her mouth wide open, tears pouring like a waterfall. Ang panget nya talaga umiyak. "Eomma! Nanaginip ako! Huhu! Lunod daw.. ako sa sabaw!" she shared with a few hiccups. Nilapitan agad sya ni Sehun at binuhat. Well maybe, because she's crying, she absolutely didn't hear anything Sehun uttered but Hansol is the real deal. His silence is worrisome. Tae.

"Shh, tahan na." Sehun murmured.

Lalapitan ko sana si Hansol kaso bigla na syang umiyak. Napatigil tuloy sa paghikbi ang kapatid nya sa lakas ng iyak nya. "Oh! Wawa Hansol! Baka sakit ulo nya, Daddy baba! Tawag po tayo bulansya" Luna said, pointing her small finger to Hansol with her raven hair cascaded to her shoulder. Magulo ang buhok nya, akala mo pubic hair. Tinali ko naman yun kanina? Ang kulit kulit kasi.

"I swear, I did my best to tie her hair up, Luhan. I swear!" defensive na sabi naman ni Sehun nang mapansing sinusuri ko ang gulo gulong buhok ni Luna. Nagaalala ding napatingin sya kay Hansol. I won't deny it. But I could only see his sincerity in his eyes. How badly he wants to catch up with them, with our kids. "Luhan, I can wait. Alam ko hindi pa ito ang oras. Kung ayaw mo pang sabihin sa kanila, I'll respect that. I'll wait until you'll completely let me in.. in their world." Sehun said in a soft and calm voice.

At some point, Sehun is gradually changing. Calm, not authoritative for now. Well I don't know if he's just keeping this two faced just to get what he wants. But thank god, I don't need to deal with his possessive side. Yung punishment? Pakiramdam ko, nagaantay pa sya ng tamang panahon eh? Afterall forcing himself to me just like that, won't help him get want he wants. What do he expect from me? To spread my legs with open arms? Ha.

"Gutho ko na uwi! Appa! Appa ko! Appa! Thundo mo na ako!" Hansol cried out. He kept on pulling my shirt. "Appa Kharin ko! Appa! Appa! Ayoko na dito! Appa! Huhu! Eomma uwi mo na ako! Wawa appa dun bahay!" pagwawala nya. I guess, he knows it. He got it and rejected the thought of him being not a son of Kharin. "Tawag mo tya! Thundo nya ako! Eomma, tawag mo tya"

Nagkatinginan kami ni Sehun, "Kakausapin ko lang si Hansol. Ikaw na munang bahala kay Luna." sabi ko at tinanguan lang ako ni Sehun. Mahabang usapan pa to with Hansol.

"Bakit po? Anong chismis?" Luna asked. Binuhat sya ulit ni Sehun at inilabas agad mula sa kwarto. Chismis agad? Yung bata talaga na yun. Inilapag ko si Hansol dun sa kama. Wala ng luhang lumalabas sa pisngi nya at puro hikbi nalang. Kumuha ako ng tubig sa may bedside table at pinainom sya.

"Hansol," he cut me off.

"Appa! Si Kharin appa ko!" aniya.

He really got our conversation.

I brushed my finger through his hair. "But Hansol," Hinawakan ko ang kamay nya at napabuntong hininga, "I.. have something to tell you and I want you to listen to me carefully. Sehun is your real father and not Kharin. Masyado ka pang bata at di mo pa maiintindihan sa ngayon pero ito ang katotohanang gusto kong malaman mo. I know you're a smart kid, son. Take this how big boys should be." I told him in very calm way. Ayoko syang biglain at baka magtampo sya sa akin. Umokay na ang sinat nya pero mukha atang mabibinat pa sya eh.

"No!! No!! Appa Kharin lang!"

"Hansol, listen to me." I said.

"No!! Ayoko! Tinungaling ka!!" Tinangka nyang tumakbo pero nahabol ko sya. Ito na nga ba ang sinasabi ko eh. Inaalis nya yung kamay ko pero binuhat ko sya. Panay lang ang pagdyak nya at nagpupumilit bumaba. Hansol is quite stubborn. What do I expect from him? He likes Kharin so much, ito ang idolo nya but now this, sabi ko na nga ba at gulo lang dala ni Sehun sa buhay ko. Taena. Ang balak ko sana ibaon ang katotohanan.

"Hansol, get to know him. Maybe you'll like him too. Tatawagan natin si Appa Kharin okay..? Pero 'di nya tayo pwede sunduin. You know that.. it's dangerous for him to drive a car hindi ba? Besides, he won't stop being a father to you." he stopped crying and looked at me, "Hindi naman sa dugo nasusukat ang pagiging isang ama di ba?" Napayakap sya sa akin.

"Ibig po tabihin, uuwi pa tayo? Hindi po natin iiwan ti Appa Kharin?" mahinang tanong nya habang nakasiksik ang mukha nya sa leeg ko. I only hummed as an answer to his question. "Iyak ako kathi baka iwan natin ti Appa Kharin kathi nandyan po ti Baba. Rinig ko po tabi nya anak nyo, hindi ba po kami lang naman anak nyo?" aniya.

Pinunasan ko ang pisngi nya, "No, hindi natin iiwan si Appa Kharin. Tahan na." sabi ko at kinuha ang phone ko sa bulsa at tinawagan si Kharin. "Here, tell him that you miss him but we can't go home yet. Lolo is expecting to see us." Nakangiting tumango sya't kinuha nya agad ang phone.

"Appa, I miss you! I love you!"

Kahit papaano, nalulungkot ako para kay Sehun. I bet, doble pa ang pagsusungit ni Hansol sa kanya nito. He still have a long way to go to win Hansol's heart. Iniwan ko muna sya para puntahan si Luna at Sehun. Natanaw ko si Sehun sa may kusina na puro mixture ang mukha habang si Luna naman ay malapit sa sala at pinapanuod ang isang ice skating competition. Nakikiindak din si bungi. Sumandal ako sa paarkong entrance ng kusina at habang pinanuod ko si Sehun.

"How's Hansol?" tanong nya.

"Kausap nya si Kharin."

"Kharin knows how to calm him down. I guess, he'll avoid me even more." sabi pa nya sa tonong may bahid ng lungkot. Agad din nyang pinunasan yung kamay nya saka lumapit sa akin. "And, Luna seems to like dancing. I bet she'll be a good dancer like me." sabi nya at pinunasan ang mukha nya na marahil si Luna ang nagpahid sa kanya. I glanced at Luna. "If she wants to be an ice skater, I'll support her. Ieenrol ko sya sa isang music class if she wants too. Kung gusto nyang magasawa agad--" Binatukan ko sya. Gago, magasawa agad? Ang bata pa.

"Gago, magasawa agad?!!! Kung asawa lang naman, sisiguraduhin ko ng hindi katulad mo." Nakacross arm na sabi ko.

"Ano bang tulad ko? Gwapo?" Lumapit sya nang lumapit sa akin at paatras lang din ako ng paatras, "Hot? Irresistible?" Inilapit nya ang mukha nya sa akin at agad kong iniwas ang mukha ko. "Oozing with sex appeal?"

Tinapal ko ang palad ko sa mukha nya. Ang kapal kasi ng apog ng gago. "Isa nalang ang hindi mo nababanggit, mahaba yang baba mo! Lul. Wag mong ilapit yang mukha mo at matusok ako ng baba mo!" sigaw ko pa.

Napangisi sya, "Oo naman. Mahaba talaga to at nanunusok. Ingat ka, baka mabuntis ka ulit. Jumackpot pa ng triplets." Nanlaki ang mata ko dahil sa sinabi nya at sinuntok agad sya sa mukha. GAGO! Yung isang baba ata nya tinutukoy nya. "Ang sakit nun ah?" bulalas nya at hinilot ang panga nya, "How about Luna? She still doesn't know about me being her father. Do you think she'll accept me? She'll still choose, Kharin..?"

"I will tell her some other time, tama na munang si Hansol for now." I answered.

"DADDY BABA!" tawag ni Luna at pinakita yung picture frame, "ANG GWAPO MO PO DITO OH!" she added and kissed the frame. Nanlalaki ang matang napatingin kami ni Sehun sa isa't-isa dahil dun. What the fuck?

"You know what, Sehun. I changed my mind. I'll tell her now!!" sabi ko naman. Baka sa susunod... Sasabihin nyang gusto nyang pakasalan si Sehun! Incest yun ah!

"You better do it now, Luhan, before my baby Luna tells me she have a crush on me!" He almost shouted. Tatakbo na sana ako kaso napahinto ako. "What? Am I not allowed to call her baby? She is my girl! My only baby girl." Nakakapanibago lang kasi. Para bang ang sweet pakinggan kapag tinawag nya si Luna nun. Huminga nalang ako ng malalim bago ko nilapitan si Luna.

"Eomma! Look, pogi daddy baba."

Anong kinapogi ng triangle na yan?

"Luna, come here." I told her. Tumakbo agad sya at lumapit sa akin. Umupo ako sa couch at kinandong sya. "May kailangan akong sabihin sayo. Hindi ba gusto mo sya?" Tinuro ko si Sehun at tumango agad sya sa tanong ko saka matamis na ngumiti. "Bakit gustong gusto mo si Daddy baba?"

"Ehem ehem, what's that again? You called me daddy..?" Sehun smiled in a teasing way. I ignored him and acted as if he's not with us in that sala. Bakit ba kasi tinawag ko syang Daddy baba? Lechugas.

"Pogi kasi sya eh. Hehe!"

"DADDY MO SYA!" naisigaw ko tuloy.

"Daddy baba ko nga po sya."

"As in daddy mo sya! Tatay mo!"

"OMG! Weh?" Naibagsak ko ang balikat ko dahil sa naging reaksyon nya. Ay malayong malayo talaga silang magkambal. As in ang layo ng personality nila! "Daddy ko sya at daddy ko appa Kharin? Dami ko daddy!! Yehey! Can a chicken be my daddy too?"

Natawa ng malakas si Sehun, "Apparently, no sweety." Binuhat nya si Luna na ngiting ngiti sa kanya, "Will you accept dad? Will you forgive dad for showing up just now? For not taking care of your mom?" Sehun took a glimpse of me but, I bowed my head.

"Why do I have two dada?"

"It's a long story, sweety."

Nahihiyang nagtago si Luna sa leeg ni Sehun. Hindi ako ganung nagaalala kay Luna about this, she's not that hard to reach unlike her twin brother, Hansol. Na mas maselan pa sa naglilihing buntis. "I love looong storiees! Luna likes Daddy baba dami dami." sagot nya pa at tinusok tusok ang pisngi ni Sehun. "dami ako dada, dami ako gift birthday." she added and squealed like a teenager who just spotted her crush. "Saya saya ko, dami dami! Kilig kilig po utong ko!" Naisigaw ko agad ang pangalan nya. Tsanggala. Ito talaga.

"Kanino mo natutunan yan?" tanong ni Sehun na may ngiti sa labi nya. Yung totoo, ang cute nilang tignang dalawa. Bagay kay Sehun maging tatay. I know he'll be a good father anyways. Napakacaring nyang tatay pero duh, nothing will change between us.

"Kay mother Kyungsoo po." aniya.

Hinawi ni Sehun ang ilang hibla ng buhok ni Luna sa mukha. "Huwag mong gagayahin lahat ng sinasabi ni Kyungsoo ha?" aniya na syang tinanguan naman ni Luna habang nakangiti ng malapad. "Do you want me to teach you how to dance waltz..?" he said.

"Opo!" sigaw ni Luna.

Ibinaba ni Sehun si Luna at inilahad ang kamay nya sa akin. "Your mom and I will show you how to dance it." Tinignan nya ako na parang sinasabi nyang, tanggapin mo na kamay ko at wag mo akong pahiyain kay Luna. "Dance with me, Luhan." he uttered huskily. Hindi agad ako nakakilos. Nagulat nalang ako nang hilain nya bigla ang kamay ko saka pinulupot ang kamay nya sa bewang ko. "Hands on the hips and never let your prey get away." he murmured in my ears.

"I'll try my best to run and never to fall for your trap again, Mr. Oh Sehun." sabi ko. I held onto his chest when he squeezed my hips and pulled me closer. I was caught off guard. Panic claned it's way through my gut and felt his cold cheeks brushed against mine. I could feel the heat spreading, heart clenching and a familiar feeling of electric jolts running through my veins and spine.

"No matter how hard you resist, you'll still end up falling and falling because you.. are born to fall for me, Luhan." I decided not to utter another word and just let him feel all his delusions. I was staring down at his chest as I retraced the path we both long abandoned. All the struggles and heartaches. All. "Unloving you is the only thing I won't never learn." he then added.

Lalayo sana ako pero pinatid nya ako at binend ang katawan ko. Napakapit ako sa batok nya sa takot ko na bumagsak ako sa sahig. "Don't run, baby deer.. Just jump and fall and I'll catch you like this. You know what?" he glanced at my lips, "You are still pretty even with your nostrils wide open." nakangising asar nya sa akin.

"Just help me get up!"

"Nope," he smirked. He leaned forward to whisper something, "I'm hesitating for a hundred of times now but I really want to taste your cherry lips again, baby deer." he whispered seductively, eyes luring me.

But suddenly, Sehun groaned loudly when someone hit his back. Si Hansol. Nabitawan nya ako nang biglang kagatin nito ang braso nya. Aw. HOW TO DEAL WITH HANSOL 101.