Fck. Yung Exo'luxion guys. Nabitin ako pero ang gheis, jeske. Nagkasala ako sa kakamura sa kanila sa arena. Tingini. My feels. OMG.:")

Tignan nyo yung MM. Feeling ko sila yan. :") 
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"Maghiwalay na tayo, Sehun."

"Babe, please tell me it just came out of your mouth. Hindi ka makikipaghiwalay di ba?" he said in a low voice, holding both of my hands. Napabuntong hininga ako at tila pagod na pagod na umupo sa higaan.

"Nope. I want a divorce."

Natulala sya sa akin ng ilang segundo dahil sa narinig at niyakap ako ng mahigpit while he's crying helplessly on my thigh. Ramdam ko ng basa ang hita ko dahil sa luha nya. "No please, Luhan. Make me suffer but please don't leave me. Please," Napahinga ako ng malalim. Ilang beses nyang binabanggit ang please sa tonong biyak. "Gagawin ko lahat, huwag mo lang ako iwan. Hindi ko kaya."

"Di mo kaya? Pero kaya mo magloko?"

"I'm so sorry for being selfish,"

"Hindi ko rin kaya, Sehun." he lifted his head to meet my gaze. His eyes still wet for constant crying. Napapagod na ako sa mga nangyayari na gusto ko ng gumive up. I felt like I don't have that enough energy to fight back. "Hindi ko rin kayang patawarin ka. Why don't you just spend your days with Yna and the kid?" Napabitaw sya sa akin. I bowed down, "I'll process the papers once the killer is arrested." sabi ko't tumayo na.

"Babe, don't do this." he said, crying.

Hinawi ko ang kamay nya, "I already did. Once the court approves it, I'll take this house, Sehun. Pack up your things.. and take that bitch outta here. But maybe, I will be more happy kung AALIS na kayo. Whenever I see you two, it's making me want to kill someone. Baka hindi na ako makapagpigil." madiin na dugtong ko pa.

"Luhan, no. Give me another chance."

"Chance? Sa movie lang yun."

"P-Please," he held my hand, looking at me with such teary eyes, swallowed by sadness. I tried to get his hand off me but he pulled me into a hug instead. His sobs even louder. Right at there, I don't know what to do. Yes, hearing him cry melts this anger but when I think about how he cheated on me or how he thrusted deeper inside Yna for I don't know how many times to get her pregnant, it's fueling back this anger in me, and this pain in my chest. I can't seem to ignore it.

Hindi ako martyr. Hindi ako si Rizal.

"Bitaw na, Sehun." I told him but he's not moving, instead, he tightened his hug; not letting me have the opportunity to push him away from me. "Sehun, ano ba! Hindi na ako makahinga!" I punched his back for a couple of times but he won't still let me go. My hands went down, just letting him cry on my shoulder and it's breaking my heart in pieces. "Ano bang nangyayari sa atin? Bat ba nangyayari sa atin to, Sehun?" I said as a tear fell from my eyes. Humigpit lalo ang yakap nya sa akin. "Just let me go, please."

"I.. I can't.." he said, weeping.

"Just the two of us," I paused, "Ain't that not enough? You should've told me, may iba namang paraan." Lumuwag ang yakap nya at tinitigan ako. I cupped his face with my free hand. I don't want to remember the sad look in his eyes. I do love him but this is tearing me apart. "You just really made me feel so useless, Sehun, for I can't give you what will really make you happy. Sorry ah?" he shooked his head, "pero wala eh. Cannot be." he held my hand on his face.

"I'm sorry," he murmured. He cupped my face and gave me a kiss. I didn't respond yet hindi ko rin sya tinulak. He started trailing kisses on my cheeks down to my neck and shoulder. I stand still looking at the door. His hands works inside my shirt with his warm and passionate kisses. He lay me down the bed, continuously kissing me and stopped when he noticed I'm not responding to it.

"Did you kissed her like this too?" Para naman syang nabuhusan ng tubig dahil sa tinanong ko. Hindi sya sumagot. "Do you want to fck me that bad, Sehun?" I said. Sehun seems lost and confused, he couldn't even say a single word. I took my shirt off and pulled my shorts. "There, fck me and when you're finish, LET ME GO." I stated.

Umatras sya, "No,"

"So, you don't want to?"

"No, not to let you go."

"Why still hold on to us when you already tried to jump, Sehun? Come on, fck me at nang matapos na ito at tigilan mo na ang pagdradrama mo sa akin!" Hinila ko sya at pumaibabaw sa kanya. I kissed his neck as I tease his manhood with a few grinds like, a fcking cowboy. "Come on, you fckng jerk!"

If only I could be pregnant but it's rare.

I kissed him with this anger running in my veins. Sehun responded differently. He' so gentle. He grabbed my nape to deepen our kiss. "I didn't kissed her like this, Luhan. Yes, it's a kiss but it's different when it's you because you're the one I — love." he almost whisper when we broke our kiss.. He moved his ass out, topping me. "Yes we had sex but with you, it's making love and this is how I do it with you." he challenged me with a stare. He kissed my forehead, the tip of my nose, neck and my lips, passionately.

I was frozen with this pain in my chest. Napangiwi ako when Sehun penetrated instantly in me without any foreplay. He pulled me in raw without any lubricants. I bit my lips when he started moving, restraining myself from making sound of pleasure. I turned my head, not meeting his eyes. Sehun settled his forehead on my shoulder with a few kisses on my chest as he keeps on moving his hips.

"Don't leave me, please." I didn't answer. He then caressed my head that is so gentle. His movement so passionate. "I love you, I'm so sorry."

A few breaths came out of my mouth while I'm still biting it. Sehun moved even faster and a soft moan escaped from me. I bit my wrist to stop myself. DON'T, my head told me. I was just staring at the door when he held my chin forcing me to face him, giving me a peck on my lips. Minute after minute, he moves deeper and — harder making it hard for me to hide this pleasure stirring in me. His breathing became ragged and then his body stiffened. He let out a soft groan when he exploded inside me. His hot fluid.

Our breaths are synchronized. I pushed him to the side of the bed and — picked up my clothes on the floor. Nagbihis na agad ako. "So deal sealed then. Thanks for that one last sex, Oh Sehun, and for letting me go." I said and went out of the room.
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In the afternoon, pumunta kami ni Detective sa bahay ni Vina Yagan. Maganda at malaki. "Ito na ang bahay ni Vina." Kharin said. For I was just staring to nothingness, he snapped his fingers on my face. "We're in a mission, Luhan. Pwede ka mapahamak sa loob ng bahay na yan kung sya nga ang killer sa ganyang estado ng isip mo." He lectured.

I massaged my temples. "Ano ba sasabihin ko? Nagiisip pa ako kung bat ako nandito ano!" sabi ko. Ano ba sasabihin ko? Paano ko malalagay tong camera sa loob? This looks like a book na may camera in between since she likes to read, hindi nya mapapansin to dahil libro din. "Kinakabahan na ako eh." Hindi nila huhulihin agad si Vina kahit na matches yung finger print nung fake nila sa kanya. Detective wants to make sure dahil tingin nya rin may mali sa sitwasyong yun.

"I got your back. Fighting!"

Napa-eh ako. Litsi talaga to. Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago ako nagdoorbell. May boses na nagsalita dun sa maliit na speaker chuva. Si Vina. "Yes hello, sino yan?" aniya.

"Si... Si Luhan." sagot ko.

"Dr. Oh? Ah, sandali lang." Nagantay pa ako ng ilang minuto bago ako napagbuksan. Nagtataka ang mukha nya. "Bakit nga pala napadalaw ka? Paano mo nalaman kung saan ako nakatira?" Dire-diretsong tanong nya naman na hindi ko alam pano sasagutin.

"Hahahaha. Nagtanong ako sa company nyo since gusto ko sana kamustahin ang libro na sinusulat mo yung ako ginawa mong role model for the character?" ani ko na tinatago ang pagkanerbyos. Sana po kagatin nya, der lerd please. "Ah baka kasi may maitulong pa ako sa progess nya eh"

"Ah ganun ba? Sge pasok ka."

Napahawak ako sa bag ko kung saan naroon ang libro na may camera. Sumunod ako sa kanya sa loob. Sophisticated and modern ang style ng bahay nya. Malaki din siguro kinita nya sa mga librong nabenta. Meron syang dalawang bookshelf sa sala. "Ang dami mo palang mga libro ano, Vina.?" bulalas ko.

"I'm a good writer and a good writer is also a good reader, that's why. Kung may gusto ka hiramin, I can lend you some."

"Salamat bait mo teh," sabi ko na syang tinawanan nya. "Dito ka ba madalas ah, magsulat or magstay?" Pinaupo nya ako dun sa couch. Napacross finger naman ako, nagdadasal na sana sagutin nya at doon ko ilalagay itong libro na may camera na ito.:")

"Nope, I have a small office sa taas. Dun ako madalas magstay para magsulat ng novels ko. All the walls are plain black and may mga painting ng Lethe diana," Nangunot ang noo ko, "Ah, as we all know butterflies are fond of nectar or rotting fruit but this one is fond of — corpses." Napalunok ako. Corpses? "I told you I like mystery and — scary things that much." she said with a laugh, "Want some tea?"
Tumango ako, "Sandali at gagawa ako."

Umalis na sya at nagtungo ng kusina. Agad na kinuha ko ang pagkakataon na yun para pumuslit sa itaas. Binuksan ko ang bawat pinto. Baka nasa secret place yun? Tingini. Anong gagawin ko? Sa panghuling pinto na nabuksan ko, desk at puro libro at itim ang wall. Marahil ito na yun. Nagisip pa ako ng place kung saan ko ilagay ang camera. Nang maset up ko na sinuri ko ang paligid. That room is giving me these scary chills. Yung painting nung lethe diana, parang scary at too deep ang meaning. Kung hindi mo alam kung anong butterfly sya, it will be pretty.

Vina's character is just too dark.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito?"

Napapityag ako sa gulat. "Sorry, nacurious kasi ako sa Lethe Diana na sinasabi mo."

Nangunot ang noo nya. "I think you should go out. I don't really like someone coming into this room." Napalunok ako dun. I said sorry again at bumaba na rin. Pinainom nya sa akin yung tea na ginawa nya. "So, how's Krystal pala?" She asked out of the sudden.

"Still at the hospital." I answered.

"I'll pay her a visit in her burial."

"You hate her that much?" I asked.

She crossed her legs, "You can say that."

Hinilot ko ang hita ko. "Sige una na ako. I really like to stay a bit pero magimeet pa kasi akong pasyente ko somewhere near here. Salamat nga pala sa tea." bulalas ko.

"Ok. Wala yun, ingat ka."

Lumabas na ako ng bahay nya na ang bigat ng kabog sa dibdib ko. Sumingaw boobs ko dun ah. "Anong nangyari?" Kharin asked.

"Nalagay ko na." sagot ko at sinabi ko ang mga weird things na nalaman ko. Hinatid agad nya ako pagkatapos nun. Paguwi ko, I quickly went to the veranda at the back to breathe some air when I turned my head. I saw a body floating in the swimming pool. Nanginig agad ang kamay ko dahil dun.

Si Thunder.. Is he dead?
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Long update again. Sana nagustuhanan nyo. Habang patagal nang patagl, parami nang parami ang word counts ko. Hala. Sorry. :"(

Wag sana kayo mabored. Hihi.

Nagjugjug sila paktay. Juntisin si Lulu. :x