I jogged down the steps going back to my pod so that I could clean my face. It was obvious growing up in district 12 Make up wasn't a thing and even having it on for the best of intentions just make me feel icky.

"Lily!" Haymitch called "Slow down" I came to a halt.

"What, what do you want?" I snapped at him.

"Look I know your angry. So go ahead say it. Get it off your chest" I grit my teeth a little.

"Fine. You lied to me. You promised to save him but you didn't."

"I know."

"Now you."

"I can't believe you let him out of your sight. You got to stop moping around and having tantrums cutting your hair with a freaking medical knife. I want a bottle so bad I'm ready to distill my own turnips. But I'm here and you know why? Because Peeta's still alive, he's not dead yet and neither are we. We're still in the game Lily. Okay?"

"Yeah." I whispered "You're still and ass though." I turned on my heel and left.

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Katniss, Gale and I walked into Beetee workshop/brain of weapons. It turns out that Katniss had joined my brother in being a solider. She was one of my trusted few who came nearly everywhere with me.

"I've made you some surprises." Beetee told me I looked around at the training room.

"Why don't you try one out. Seen as you're going to be apart of Lily's propo team you may ask well look the part. Kat and Gale both had crossbows. I moved back as they both took a shot causing a small bang.

"This one. Is for you." Beetee directed my attention away to a bow "Plutarch wanted you to have a weapon for the sake of the propo's but I could just make you a fashion accessory. He handed me it and I held the bow in my hands it felt weightless and yet a perfect fit. Like it was a part of me."

"Beautiful."

"Oh and here." I step out of the way so he could show me the arrows.

"Regular, Incendiary, Explosive Arrows. All colour coded. And tell Finnick I've got a trident for him..." I picked up a red one and twirled it in my fingers before aiming it. "It might cheer him up, lets not fire the red ones in here." He took the arrow off me.

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I walked through the halls I had a few hours before we were set to leave. Looking around for a a specific person I found him through a pod window and backed up heading inside. He saw me enter.

"Hello Lilly." I smiled slightly.

"Mr Mellark."

"I think it's time you address me by my first name, Kol." he insisted holding onto my arms with a soft and calming expression like his son had.

"Okay, Kol."

"I wanted to thank you for what you did for my son. I'm sure once he is returned he will be thankful too."

"I hope you don't think that because I'm doing this propo stuff I'm not concentrating on him. I am this is the only way I can think of to get him back." he shook his head and sat us down on the little table area.

"I know and I would have done the same thing. You're the only person who can do this Lily. I believe in you and I know Peeta does as well."

"Thank you, Kol." we parted ways and I went to change. I did what I did to get Peeta back.

Once I had changed Boggs took me to the loading bay. As we came out I saw rows upon rows of weapons, rocket launchers, bombs, stuff that could have been used to end this fight ages ago.

"You had all of this and you just left the districts to fend for themselves?" I questioned walking to the Jet.

"It's not that simple Lily, we barely survived. We weren't in any kind of shape to launch a counter attack. Yeah we could have bombed the capitol but they would have retaliated with at least twice the firepower. Then what?" he replied "Then there would have been nobody left to claim victory."

"Sounds exactly like what Peeta said when you all called him a traitor." I retorted

"This way soldier " I saw Effie bother Katniss and Gale

"Effie put them down. They're not dolls."

"No, but they're camera ready. Don't you brother and comrade look magnificent." I looked them up and down

"They look like they have my back, yes."

"Let's go." Boggs led me on with the others following behind me."

"Come back safe." Effie stated before she left

"Quick introductions, Lily. These people have come a long way to support the cause. This is Cressida. In my opinion one of the best up and coming directors in the Capitol." Plutarch introduced

"Until I up and left. Hey." she held out her hand and I shook it in greeting.

"Hey." I replied

"Let's see what you can do." Plutarch left the Jet and Cressida looked to the others that were joining us on this expedition.

"This is my assistant Mesalla."

"Nice to meet you." He told me and I gave him a nod

"And your Camera men over there Castor."

"Hello"

"And Pollux" who simply gave me a smile and and nod.

"Um, this is my brother Gale and my Best Friend Katniss." Both of them gave a nod in greeting.

"Let's get locked in." Boggs told us and I sat down between Pollux and Kat. I turned to talk to Pollux.

"You're all from the Capitol? Plutarch got you out?" I questioned

"Don't expect much chitchat from him." I snapped my head towards Cressida "He's and Avox. Capitol cut his tongue out years ago. And no It wasn't any sort of rescue if that's what you mean. We all fled on our own...for this. For you."

"No pressure then." I joked.

"A sense of humour, you're gonna need it." Cressida smiled

"Yeah well I've seen the other option, don't fancy being there again." I sat back and I felt Kat grab my hand I looked at her and gave her a small smile. When we arrived in District 8. Bogs and Gale were already up before landing.

"This has gotta be fast. In and out." Boggs shouted over the engines. I jogged down and crouched as the Jet took back off once cleared we were told to...

"Move out" Following Boggs we met the Commander of District 8.

"You're alive then. We weren't sure."

"Lily, Commander Paylor, District 8. Lily has been recovering but insisted on coming out and seeing some of your wounded." Boggs spoke for me

"We'll we got plenty of those." She motioned for us to follow and we did. She took us into the hospital, the sights and smell got to me. On either side there were the dead line up just lying there.

"We have a mass grave a few blocks west, but I can't spare the manpower to move them yet. Hospitals past that curtain." She pointed to the one up ahead.

"Anything you can do to give them hope, is worth it. The Capitol has done everything they can to break us."

"Aren't you worried about having all your wounded in one place?" Gale questioned. I looked at the sight of the dead bodies all with serious injuries that made my stomach turn.

"I think it's better than leaving them to die." Commander Paylor replied. To be honest I saw it from her point of view. This was a war and with most things these past 75 almost 76 years you had to pick the lesser of two evils with a situation.

"That's not what he meant." Kat added softly

"Well that's my only other option. You can come up with another, I'm all ears." I couldn't look at them, I turned my head to Kat who was thinking the same thing.

"It's right here." She opened them up and nothing prepared me for what I saw. People of District 8 were taking amongst themselves and some were tending to the sick. The amount of destruction, illness and injury just piled on top of one another. How could I help these people?

"Don't film me in there." I told Cressida. Looking at these people they put me to shame, nothing I ever went through seemed in comparison. "I can't help these people"

"Just let them see your face." She told me understandingly and I walked in.