"Beetee?"

"I'm losing them." He muttered and Coin looked at the screens trying to figure out for herself what was going on.

"Are they powering back up?" She questioned and he groaned

"Ma'am, the Capitol air defence system is rebooting. It's coming back online."

"Must be filtering a power from another source, And filtering transitions. Another 60 second and we'll be cut off." Beetee worked to prolong the time

"Madam president. Shall we call back the hovercraft." No I had to do something

"Broadcast me" I told them and the turned to look at me "If Snow's watching maybe he'll let the signal in, if he sees me. Put me on the air so he can see me." I told them. Plutarch agreed as did Coin

"Put her on."

"Can we do this, can we still get in?" Haymitch asked

"Yes, for the time being. The lines open he will only see you." Haymitch aimed a camera at me

"Okay Lily. Go."

"President Snow. President Snow. It's Lily. President Snow, President Snow I need to speak with you. Are you there." I messed with my fingers hoping this would work

"President Snow. It's Lily. Can you hear me?" there was still nothing.

"President Snow it's Lily. Are you there? Can you hear me?" I looked at Coin and Plutarch who were not thinking this was going to work. "President Snow..."

"Mrs Mellark, what an honour." His voice came back then his face on the screen "I don't imagine you're calling to thank me for the roses."

"I never asked for this. I never asked to be in the Games. I never asked to be the Mockingjay. I just wanted to save my friends and keep Peeta alive . Please just let him go and I will stop being the Mockingjay. I will disappear, You will never have to see me ever again." I told him

"Mrs Mellark. You couldn't run from this anymore than you could have run from the Games."

"Please. You've won, you've already beaten me. Release Peeta and take me instead." I offered he shook his head sighing.

"We're long past the opportunity for noble sacrifice."

"Then tell me what to do. I've always kept my promises haven't I?"

"You said you didn't want a war and that's just what happened. I told you what a fragile thing peace was. And still like a child you took pleasure in breaking it. I know what you are. I know you can't see past you narrowest concerns. But please Mrs Mellark, I doubt you know what honesty is anymore."

"You asked me to convince and distract the people with mine and Peeta's love. Haven't I at least done that?"

"Lily Mellark. It's the things we love the most that destroy us. I want you to remember that I said that. Don't you think I know your friends are in the tribute centre." I stumbled back as he cut me off

"What happened?" I asked. Beetee was on the radio trying to get through to Boggs.

"He knows that they're in there. It's a trap." I panicked Haymitch came over to me

"Lily, hold it."

"We have to get a hold of them. We have to tell them that he knows. We need to get them out." In instead trying to to let my emotions run wild on me again. Keep it in Lily for now just keep it in.

"There's no signal. We can't contact them." Plutarch told me and that made me even worse.

"No. Haymitch he know the whole time. He was taunting me. He trying to take my brother and friends away from me. No Haymitch they're in there."

"No, we don't know that." He tried to calm me down

"Did I lose them all tonight." I repeated as he comforted me. I broke down in tears. "I can't lose them. It will break me if I lose them"

"I lost them, I lost them."

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I sat alone in the mess hall I couldn't face my family or Mr Mellark. I just sat holding my legs rocking back and forth. I heard footsteps and saw President Coin.

"They're no news. I'm sorry." She sat down across from me "It's the worst torture in the world. Waiting, when you know there is nothing you can do." I nodded understanding. Sniffling I wiped away more tears.

"Especially for people like us. But whatever strength, courage, madness, keeps us going, you find it, at times like these. You have it Soldier. It's what kept you alive all this time. And it won't fail you know. Even when it all seems lost."

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I sat with Finn waiting, he was making a knot while I toyed with my necklace. The door opened and Haymitch peeked his head through.

"They're back" I shot up and took off running to the med bay. The three of us got there and I heard a commotion. Thinking it might be Peeta I went to look.

"Johanna." She looked frail and bald as she pulled out the oxygen

"Finnick! Finnick!" I heard Annie.

"Annie" They ran to each other. I began searching for familiar faces.

"Gale! Katniss" I ran and jumped my brother hugging him

"Are you okay?" I asked sliding back down but I could see the look on their faces "What? What is it?"

"I don't get it. every gun was back online and on us. Yet we flew right past them. They let us go." That was strange as I looked at the both of them.

"He's in there." Kat told me directing me toward the room which held my husband.

"The gas we used on the guard knocked him out, too, but it's wearing off now. You should be there when he wakes up." She told me. I gave her a hug.

"Thank you." I then saw Boggs and thanked him before bursting in.I saw him in another room and opened the door just as the doctors were putting a IV in.

"Peeta." I breathed happily. He heard me because his back straightened. God he looked so thin. I moved round to see him properly. I didn't want to do anything too rash too soon. He looked at me and followed me with his eyes. I stopped in front of him and slowly went closer when he leapt at me and grabbed my throat.

He pushed me into a glass cabinet then onto a trolley. Before falling on the floor. It happened so fast but he was strangling me with such hate and anger in his eyes. I briefly heard Haymitch shout ad him and try to help me but he fought them off and smash me back down onto the floor. I looked into his eyes those sweet eyes which once held such love and devotion for me. I felt the air and life drain out of me. The last thing I saw was Bogs and Peeta.

I blacked out.

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I slowly woke up and I didn't know where I was. There was something around my neck. What happened?

Peeta straggling me.

"I fought to remove what I thought was hands around my neck. I panicked when I couldn't get them off.

"No, Lily. No, you're swollen. Don't touch. No, no, no. Calm down." I heard Boggs. I saw him he was here and he saved me. I let my grip go and stared at him It wasn't hands it was a neck brace and I was in a med room from Peeta strangling me.

"You're okay" I looked to the side of me and saw a nurse

"Tell them she's awake." She nodded and left. I tried to ask about Peeta.

"Don't try to talk. Peeta's Okay. I promise. I just had to get him off you." I nodded and soon my family minus Posy was here with Plutarch. Haymitch and Beetee. Plutarch was explaining what the hell was going on."

"It's called hijacking. We don't know how long the Capitols been doing this to Peeta."

"It's fear continuing. Enhanced with tracker jacker venom. You were stung your first games remember?" I blinked in acknowledgement to Beetee "The venom puts the subject into a dedicative state. And the torture him, with shocks and beltings. Stripping him of his own identity and then all of that fear and suffering is redirected. Associated with other memories or a person."

"They can change his memories of Lily?" Rory asked

"Too make her seem life threatening ." Life threatening? I would never hurt him, ever.

"They turned him into a weapon, Lils." I looked at Haymitch "To kill you."

"Can you reverse it?" Vick questioned

"The fear is the most difficult thing to overcome. We're hardwired to remember fear the best" Beetee answered

"It's new terrain. But we've put together a team. I'm optimistic." I turned my attention to Plutarch. I'll show him optimistic if I don't get my husband back. I had enough of playing possum I promised Snow if he hurt my Peeta. He would pay. They would all pay.

Once they were all gone I got out of bed and walked though the halls. I kept out of sight, not like it was hard because they were all in the assembly hall with Coin. I found him in a secure room. He was strapped down to a bed fighting against his restraints viciously.

They had broken him and for that I would have their heads.