3/5/02

I am moving away soon. I will miss you dearly, my friend.

3/7/02

Remember when you came over to my house for the first time? You said you didn't like me and begged me to let you go home. I told you that you couldn't and you cried because you didn't understand that were to be best friends forever. Mom couldn't know I had you so I locked you in the closet.

3/10/02

I wish I didn't have to go. I wish we could play in the huge field out behind our houses and throw dolls down the stairs like we use to. Remember when Miss Duncan's hamster

scratched me all down my leg and you promised we would make her and the hamster pay? I remember watching her blood pool across a blue carpet while you made her innards her outards. We laughed and we laughed as her hamster ran away and got flattened in the street. I was 7 then and wasn't very good at separating bones yet.

3/18/02

I can hear you at night, begging me to stay from my closet. You tell me of away. You tell me to jump from the top of the stairs, maybe lay on the bottom of the tub, swallow glass or you will kill me yourself.

3/25/02

Last night you told me no one else would love me for who I truly am. I think you are right. I stood over mommy and daddy last night while they slept and I wanted so badly to kill them. Can they say here for ever too? Perhaps it would be better if it has just me and you.

3/26/02

Mommy saw you in the mirror yesterday. She said you wanted to kill her. You promised we wouldn't hurt them. You promised. I'll go with you, okay? I promise. We will be best friends forever like I said When I locked you in my closet.