~Jungkook's P.O.V~

~Sunday~

I sit up on bed and yawn

I look to my right and see the beautiful view outside the window...the nature...the light)

I'm glad to have taken a house here in Nortford Hills

I remove the blanket from my legs and stand up from the bed

I stretch out my arms and yawn again

Sunday, huh? It's not like I'm free anyway

I go inside the bathroom and brush my teeth and decided to take an early morning shower

The cold water pours down on me and I pull back my wet hair and look up with my eyes closed..

The memory of pinning down
(Y/N) in my car and wrapping my arms around her...what was I thinking?

I put my hair in the side glass and look down at my feet
It's like whenever I see her...I'm an 18 year old kid again....afraid to say anything...instead I talk to her in a rude voice...

God...my heart's beating again like crazy....fuck....

What am I thinking? 
What's wrong with me?
Why...?
Why did I have to have her back in my life again?
She chose to leave
She chose to shut me out
And yet...
I feel...so...fucking suffocated ..
Like her eyes in me is enough to kill me...
Whenever I touch her..it's like our hearts are one...beating in the same pace... beating for each other..

She has a boyfriend, huh...?

I punched against the wall

Fuck this...

I turn off the shower, take a towel and wipe myself dry and get out of the bathroom after wearing a bathrobe

I need to make this call...

I stand in front of the window, and dial the number in my phone

Lisa: Hey..sweetie...*yawns*

Jk: Oh sorry...what time is it there?

Lisa: It's around 2:00 at night. Is something wrong?

Jk: Oh I'm sorry...I forgot to check the time difference. It's okay, nothing's wrong. Go back to sleep.

Lisa: Well you called me for a reason right?

Jk: There has to be a reason? I can't call you just to see if you're okay?

Lisa: Oh I'm sorry *giggles* I didn't mean it like that..Are you okay? You sound...weird...I don't know

I sigh

Jk: Nothing ..it's nothing.. you should go back to sleep...just wanted to hear your voice

Lisa: Just a few more days babe...and you'll hear it all the time. I miss you.

Jk: Yeah...me too

Lisa: Oh man...You can at least pretend to make it sound like you do miss me...

Jk: Hehe...I do...

Lisa: Kay... bye bye..love you

I put down the phone on a small table and sigh again

I look at the ring on my finger

Two weeks...
After two weeks of my engagement and you had to come back into my life... that's bullshit...

I go down the stairs and make myself some breakfast
Eggs and bacon with some coffee

I put them on the table and eat them

Hm..where's my laptop? 

I turn around and saw it lying in the kitchen counter

I walk up and take the laptop and sit back at the table again and take a sip of my coffee

I open the laptop and...

Wait...this isn't mine...what the hell..? Whose is this?
I open one of the accounts and see the names of the files

"(Y/N) (L/N)"

Great...why the fuck do I have hers? Oh... must've got switched when she put hers on my table yesterday

She didn't say a word to me at all yesterday...
Just nodded and did everything I asked...like a robot...
It pained me inside...like fuck
I don't know why
She's my secretary..I can't care less...I shouldn't...
Why did I even make her my secretary..?
To be closer...?
For what?
It's like we're further than ever now...

I sigh and close the laptop
I looked out the window and noticed it was raining

All the more reason to stay home today. . .

Well...what the hell...better call her and make her bring my laptop back...don't care if she's busy...

I reach for my phone but stopped..

Wait...am I just trying to find excuses to bring her over here?

No no... It's for business...I need my laptop... everything is in there

I take my phone and dial her number

Jk: Hello??

(Y/N): Oh um! Sir! Ahh...Good morning! I'm..

Jk: Why are you screaming?

Damn it....

(Y/N): Oh I just...I can't hear you Sir! I'm outside!

I really want to see her...

Jk: I see. You do realize that you have my laptop right?

(Y/N): Yes Sir!

I want to hold her close...

(Y/N): That's why I'm coming over!

Huh?

Jk: You're what?

(Y/N): Yes sir...I'm walking up to your door now Sir

Without wasting another second I walk up to the main door and open it

And there she was...with an umbrella in her hand
Her hair slightly wet
As she looks at me surprised because she was Abt to ring her bell

How...?

How does she always come right in front of me whenever I want to see her most?

(Y/N): I'm sorry Sir...I would've called but...I had no balance in my phone so...

I want to hold her....
I want to feel her heartbeat
I want to caress her hair
I want to see her smile
I want to feel her warmth
I want it all
I want all of her...

(Y/N): Sir? Are you...okay?

I want her...to be with me...

Without even realizing it
I wrap my arms around her and pull her close
I hugged her tight

(Y/N): Eh? S-Sir? W-What?

Jk: You're right on time...Miss. Secretary

I nuzzle my chin on her shoulder

I can feel her heartbeat going nuts
Her ears are red and hot

(Y/N): Do..you..wanted your laptop that much..?

I know this is wrong....
Terribly wrong...
But I can't help it...
She has no idea..how much she helped me
Our conversations must've meant nothing to her
But she saved me...so many times...and in so many ways...in every  possible way that a person can be saved...

I can feel her arms wrapping around me slowly

(Y/N): Let...me go..please..this..isn't funny anymore

Funny?

I let her go

Jk: Sure..it was always a joke to you from the start right?

(Y/N): Heh?

I sigh

Jk: You're right. I'm just messing around. Get in and take your laptop and then get out

(Y/N): Um...okay...

I look up at the sky and see the rain has stopped.. and the light blesses the ground again

It's like we're stuck in one place...
13 years or whatever...
We're still the same..

Lost...
Waiting to be found...