"Hüma Hatun, you should come with us, Meleksima Hatun is giving birth," Afife Hatun, one of my new maids which Osman gave to me came into my chambers to notice me about the event I was scared of.

I knew Osman was really happy to finally have a child which he wanted so much, but what I wished was that I was the woman who would gift him with a child and not another woman.

I took a deep breath and closed the book which I was reading to relax my mind, prepared myself and went together with her and Selma in front of infirmary where Meleksima was giving birth.

Kosem Sultana was already standing there with her daughter Ayşe who couldn't stand to even look at me how much she hated me without the real reason. Şehzade Mehmed was also standing there and even though five months have passed since my wedding with Osman he couldn't accept the fact that I became his brother's wife and not his.

"Don't worry, everything is going to be fine. That child won't change a thing that Osman loves you and only you," Humasah Sultana came and smiled to me as she stood next to me.

I smiled to her as I didn't even want to think about this as it was breaking my heart, but at none moment I wanted to show my jealousity or sadness in front of Osman who was really happy and excited about this. Seeing him being so overwhelmed by the emotions made me happy for him as I loved him a lot.

"You are already five months married to Osman and there is still no sign of your pregnancy, while Meleksima went on halvet once and she is pregnant," Kösem said to me making Ayşe laugh at her words.

I wanted to fight with Kösem so hard at this moment but at that moment Osman has arrived and the cry of baby could have been heard.

The doors of infirmary opened and only Osman and Kösem were allowed to enter while no one of us outside could see what will happen now.

Osman took a baby which was in white blanket in his hands and kissed its forehead. He was so happy and Kösem immediatley gifted Meleksima with most beautiful presents, each time making sure I see it because she thought I would be jealous of presents, but I was not like that. Only thing I wanted was to have Osman by my side and his love.

"Meleksima Hatun gave birth to a son," nurse came inside to inform Hümaşah Sultana who was happy to have a niece, but I knew she felt bad for me.

"Your name will be Süleyman," Sultan Ahmed repeated three times into each ear of the baby.

After the naming ceremony I instantly left to my chambers. I sat down on my sofa trying to calm down after what Kosem has said to me, because her words really hurted me.

For five months I have been married to Osman and still there were no signs from my pregnancy, even though I wanted to give birth to a child so much. I also wanted to take my child into my arms.

"Hüma," Huricihan Sultana came inside my chambers and came and sat next to me. She was like my mother to me and there was nothing I could hide from her.

"What are those tears in your eyes?" Hümaşah Sultan asked me as I couldn't hide my tears from her. She putted her hand on my cheek and tried to remove the tears from my face and tried to make me happy at least.

"Kösem, she can't stop mention how I can't still bear Osman a child," I said to her and looked down at the floor from shame, because they all thought I have problems with pregnancy, even though nurse said everything is perfectly fine with me.

"You shouldn't worry about the words of that snake, you will soon have a beautiful son or a daughter with Osman," Hümaşah took me into a hug trying to comfort me as much as possible.

"But what if Osman will get tired of me because of that? What if he will want to have more sons as more heirs?" I asked her as tears couldn't stop going down my eyes.

"Osman will never have that feeling, my love. He loves you so much and nothing can change that fact, he married you even though it was forbidden to him in first, but my nephew Sultan Ahmed has a big heart. You should never again worry about that," Hümaşah said and took me into a hug but at that moment someone knocked at the doors.

Aghas opened the doors and Osman came inside and Hümaşah and I stood up to bow him. Hümaşah gave me one last smile which said to me 'don't worry its going to be fine' and left my chambers leaving me alone with Osman.

"Hüma, my beloved, what is that expression on your face?" Osman asked me as he approached me and puted his hand on my chin.

I didn't even want to look at him because I didn't want him to think I am sad because Meleksima gave birth, because I loved him and what made him happy made me happy too.

" Is that because of Meleksima?" Osman asked me and lifted my chin making our eyes meet.

"It is not because of that, of course I am happy that you are finally happy to give birth to a child," I said to him and gave him a slight smile.

"Then what's the matter for your sadness my angel?" Osman asked me as he took my hands into his.

"Kösem Sultan, she can't stop mentioning how I still didn't give you a child," I said to him and looked his eyes while my eyes were filled with tears.

"I don't want you to be disappointed in me because of that, my biggest wish would be to give you a child," I said to him as I couldn't control my tears anymore.

"Hüma, we will get by God's will a child one day and you shouldn't even think about it. I could never be disappointed in you," Osman said and took me into a hug as I placed my head on his chest.

"I want you to go with me in Edirne. We can rest there for few days and spend our time alone. We will be in nature and we could relax on fresh air," Osman said and kissed my forehead.