𝐻𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑜 𝐷𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠!

I don't have much to talk about if I'm being totally honest with you all!

I think today I'll talk about my music addiction since I'm probably not the only one.
As you easily guessed I have a music addiction.

It started when I was young, constantly playing songs on my mom laptop or putting the TV channel where they was music h34, and putting on the radio in the car.
I didn't think much of it, my mom likes music and my aunt was the lead singer in a group!

Then I grew up, and got my own phone, long live the treasury!
Kids around me where constantly taking pics and selfies, and busy spreading gossips while I was figuring out a way to listen to music, with no WiFi, that was through downloading on pc, apps, anything I could've of found.

It's to the point where I felt betrayed by Deezer when they did their update.
Trust me, I hated it.
It was the shitty update of the shuffle.
You couldn't listen to your song freely anymore, you were constantly on shuffle mode!
Oh and guess what, can't listen to music without internet!
I now despise Deezer from the core of my deep deep soul.
Now I don't hate much in life, but Deezer? My biggest nemesis now.

Yes, before you could go on Deezer and listen with no internet and freely your music, didn't need your stupid shuffle mode.

After that, I became a criminal and downloaded at least 1300 songs illegally, but like everyone honestly!
Can't blame me.

Then my music addiction got bigger to the point where every morning in the bus, during recess, coming back home, I was listening to music.

I grew up again (only age, not height, I stopped in 7th/8th grade) and oh boi
I needed music, constantly.
I had at least my headphones or my earphones on me and if not, my friends always made sure to have some on them.
I started writing my own music, and found incredibly concerning ways to download music but who cares!

And then health problem came in my life, such as panic attacks and social anxiety in general.
I needed music to calm down.
At all cost.

Then insomnia got worse, agoraphobia developed, ADHD too, anxiety got worse, music was the only thing I needed and it calmed me down very fast!

I felt the NEED to listen to music, even when mentally stable, even when I had friends around, I needed music, or at least the access to music.
It was a literally feeling of need
A crave kinda?
At 4am I would wake up and suddenly wanted to listen to music.

When I have a new phone my first move is to add songs.

I literally had my gf making a move on me with music!!!
Idk if I'm the only one really, I had the inspo of this chapter because it is 3:38am currently and I really want to listen to music but I didn't charge my headphones enough
..

Welp!
Have a good day/noon/afternoon/night/early morning!
𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑏𝑦𝑒 𝐷𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠!