i need this in my life!!

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i'd love to stop comparing myself to others in a way that is toxic and harmful to my mental state!
i'd also love to stop being an avoidant bitch who makes themselves for no goddamn reason other than i'm loosing motivation to even perform daily tasks such as feeding/hydrating myself or getting homework done because life is totally pointless and i'm a huge hypocrite because i tell my friends how to feel better and i don't take my own advice because i invalidate myself and constantly compare my struggles to other peoples' struggles!
i also took pictures of myself yesterday because i was feeling confident about my body! also thigh gaps are pointless and i could care less about them but i have one so popular bitchwads can't say shit about my body because its what society aims for even though i have an unnaturally high metabolism and its unhealthy! :D!

also thats my most ""revealing"" outfit and my mom will sometimes bitch at me for "not covering up my butt when i wear leggings"!

a wip of my painting even tho i finished it so hopefully i will be able to take a pic of the finished product or else i wont get it back till the end of this semester!
wait no it IS the final product im just an idiot dumbass who forgets stuff!
the order in which i painted them: bottom left! bottom right! upper right! upper left!
they all were painted with a specific color thingy like monochromatic and stuff!
on the bottom right i had to use a shitty paintbrush and shitty paint that was probably the wrong kind of paint!