another night goes by, sitting in my room
so much on my mind, but what's a guy supposed to do?
when everyone around me always just assumes
every little thing without listening to

i'm getting kicked out, have to pack up my shit
i'd rather die than have to live like this
listening to my parents who always dismiss
the way that i'm feeling and just call it quits

i've got a lot going on in my life
brand new career and so much to decide
i'm growing up but i feel so behind
i'm living just to survive

i thought i was "over" depression
thought i'd lived and learned my lesson
but guess that i was wrong cuz i'm lost and need direction
on where the hell to find my heaven

i'm overwhelmed but i still feel numb
all i ever wanted was to be somebody's number one
but now that i have it, it isn't very fun
it's so much pressure and it's only just begun

i'm starting a new chapter in my life
and i've never been one to decide
so now i'm growing up while still behind
and living just to survive

i thought i was "over" depression
thought i'd lived and learned my lesson
but guess that i was wrong cuz i'm lost and need direction
on where the hell to find my heaven

i don't express emotion the way that normal people do
instead i trap it all inside and build up walls no one can get through
a barrier so high up it's impossible to get to
but it's not like i expect anyone willing to pursue

i thought i was "over" depression
thought i'd lived and learned my lesson
but guess that i was wrong cuz i'm lost and need direction
on how to show some self-expression
maybe even make some type of connection
or should i just find my way to heaven?