i hate this part
wish i could fast forward to the start
of the life that i want to build
because right now i'm so unfulfilled

the future that i want is in the palm of my hands
i could have it, and all of my plans
but not now 'cause i can't fast forward through the present
even if the right now's unpleasant

it's torture knowing what you want and how to get it
but not having the power right just yet
because i know who i am and what i need
and it's all right in front of me, just out of reach

so what do i do while i have to wait
do i just sit around and play this game?
i don't know whether it's in my fate
but i can't live the same life i had been

but i'm grown up now
i won't sit through self-pity or slow down
i'll pick myself up again and again
because that's who i am and who i've been

i'll do better than before
i'll be the best version of myself
the same life doesn't have to mean the same me
even if the world doesn't change, i can and that's enough for me

at least it has to be right now
because i can't fast forward through this part
no matter how badly i wish i could