i just wanna look at myself without this ache
without this pain that i'll never look the way
other guys do, but you'll never hear me say
i don't feel like the person i claim i am today
'cause i'm afraid of what everyone would say

i just wanna talk to my dad without this fear
that he'll use it against me, so i hide my tears
i hide my feelings, he left me traumatized
he hurt me in the worst way he could've
yet i forgive him every time

i just wanna live at peace without this cloud
raining over my head, rain is too loud
never thought i'd ever say it
but i don't wanna be alone
i cant do this anymore
'cause what am i doing it for?