"I am sorry but I don't feel the same way you feel but we are still friends right?"I said looking into his eyes.

"But... but..
no I don't think I can be your friend
I don't want to."he said as he walked  away.

...

Sometimes i wonder wtf is wrong with me I never like those who likes me I am so stupid, I had a lot of people trying to steal my heart but I never really had luck because everyone wanted me for my fame or were just playing Around .. so I promised myself not be an easy girl and to learn how to love before I date again to not be heart broken anymore...

with Taemin oppa even thought it was just acting for the program and being friendly I still fell deeply in love and confused my feeling for him and got rejected right away..

I guess I am too fool.

FLASHBACK:

"Oppa I like you, i know you don't like me and you are just acting for the program yet I wanted you to know that I like you.."I said looking into his eyes.

He was silent for a moment and it made me worried.

"Oppa?"I asked again wishing for an answer.

"Naeun ah.. you are pretty and a nice cute girl that so many boys would want..." he stopped for a moment and sighed before he started talking again

"See Naeun ah I just want you to know you deserve the best you are beautiful.. "he said and i was stopping myself of crying because i knew what he was going to say..

I knew it so well.

"but me.. I have to focus in my career i cant think of dating now.. you can understand,right?"he replied as  he looked at me with sorrow

*Lie all lie ,a girl that so many boys would want? Everyone would know that he was saying that to not be harsh..

so you are just doing that to make me feel better you are a liar too oppa... like all the others*

"it's okay you can say that you don't like me you shouldn't be making excuses just to make me feel better ,I am sorry that I was such a fool to make thing awkward like this" I said as i turned around and wiped the tear that was coning down so he wont see before looking back at him and faking a smile

"Naeun-ah mian.."he said with a sincere eyes before sighing.

"no it's okay..i am sorry for making things awkward .. "I said as i smiled for him not to worry.

"Umm I guess I have to go .. and since today was the last day of our shooting I guess it's a goodbye then oppa"I faked a smile.

"I guess you are right ."he said as he looked back with a sad smile.

"So... it was nice meeting you and during this short time I really felt comfortable oppa
Thank you  for everything oppa, I will miss you ".

"Same here Naeun-ah I will miss you too , we still can meet at the programs right?"he asked me with a smile, the smile that never failed to melt my heart.

"Sure oppa"I said as we shook hands.

END OF FLASHBACK:

I went to my dorm.

"where were you?"Chorong unnie asked .

"Mian unnie, I went out to meet a friend."I replied as I faked a smile.

"okay, now go and sleep its getting late."she said smiling.

Unnie is too kind she always goes easy on us..

I went and sat on my bed thinking about Taemin oppa, right I got rejected but I still like him.. I believe you can fall in love in only a moment.

And I did but it was with Taemin oppa ever since we met ...

I miss him.. even when we meet on Tv programs it's just for a second when I can see him and we cant even say hello because we are too busy

or he doesn't even remember me? He doesn't even think of me? Cause he never really tried to talk with me even when our members are friends and talk together..

You are the only one who cant move on..

I really fell in love with him but I should forget him and move on

I have dated once but it didn't last more than 2 months...because no matter what I did I couldn't love him..

Holding his hand didn't make me feel warm like Taemin oppa's..

The hugs he gave me didn't make my heart flutters like Taemin oppa did..

Oh god help me forget him I mean he is not a special why am I just thinking of him...

Even today like other days I am thinking of him..from the day we said our goodbyes i feel like time never goes by

Minuets feel like hours, days feels like years and my missing for him grows more and more i wonder is it because we were both young and busy when we met so we were able to rest and lay our burdens together that made me so close to him?

Everytime I hear his name or his group name theres this familiar feeling

Okay Son Naeun, your comeback is near don't think about him and focus on your comeback..

I fell asleep while telling my self not think about him over and over again.

_ _ _

"Naeun-ah Wake up and wash.." unnie woke me up.

I went to wash I looked at the mirror and my eyes were puffy it must be because I cried a bit last night.

Anyway I washed up and went out of the bathroom as I dressed up..

"Naeun, come and eat breakfast  with us.."Bomi unnie said.

"I am on diet unnie and I don't actually feel like eating and also my stomach hurts a bit...so I will go before you guys.."I said smiling at them as I went to the company to  practice.

Author note: hello guys this is actually a story i wrote in 2015 when i was just 14 years old but due to circumstances I unpublished it back then and decided to publish it again i hope you guys enjoy it!, and if you are a fan of F(x) I recommend my other story the flames of desire⭐️ please show alot of love.