It's been like a couple hours Rarity sits next to me. We are being on silence because I don't want to talk. I don't really know why she doesn't start a conversation, she was only being silent and take a look at me a bit and then she stares at the floor again with her empty eyes. I guess something is wrong with her.

"What's wrong?"
"Oh nothing, dear. Don't worry."
"Tell me."
"I'm just... so worried about you.. "
"Listen, I'm not a thing which you can worry about."
"I can't.. I can't stop worrying. What if you would do that thing from last night again?"

She starts to cry and looks away from me.
Is she really worried about me? It feels like she really is, but I somehow got a feeling she's crying just because she's a drama queen.

She keeps crying and crying but the weird thing is it doesn't annoy me at all. I start to feel sad when she's sad I don't know why.

I keep looking away and trying to ignore her until I can't anymore. I start to get closer to her and grab her head then put it on my chest.

"It's okay.. I guess I won't again."

She only keeps crying on my chest while I run my fingers through her hair.

I hear that she somehow manage to stop crying as she leans on to kiss me.

I see her face full of tears of being afraid that I would leave this world and leave her alone. From this moment I start to feel something I can't deny anymore for her, but I'm too ashamed to admit that I have this feeling. This is a feeling I should keep for myself, but I think why do I keep denying I have this feeling but act like I do have it when I'm around her.

Just fuck it all. I'll just let everything be. If my dumb heart really fall for her then I could never help it.

I keep thinking while looking at her face until she kisses me hard on the lips. This time that feeling is really obvious. I can't deny anymore. I kiss her back. I really feel safe in this moment until she breaks the kiss.

I decided that after this I will take her out for a while, maybe to a beach or a park. I don't know for sure but I'm going to make her happy after everything she had done for me.

"Uhh, Rarity?"
"Yes, darling?"
"Do you wanna uh, go out to night? Just me and you."
"Oh.. I'm so sorry, dear, but I have a plan tonight."
"Oh okay.."

Yep, and that's it. I was just trying to be normal so my life would be better with love and peace, but it's too impossible, I guess. Everything I do is always wrong and crappy.

"Uh dear I have to go, see you tomorrow I will be here for you later." She said as she kissed me on my forehead and walked away from me.

I heard she closed the door.

Right now I feel so lonely again I want everything which I had back then come back into my life again. My mom, my friends, my old personality, my happiness.. everything. I miss everything.

I keep staring on nowhere untill I think about something.

Yes, this time I'm going to get all of my friends back. Maybe back then I lost them all because of my fault even though I don't know what my fault was, but I'm just going to be sorry and get my friends again.

I search for Twilight's number on my phone then I call her.

"Yeah, Rainbow Dash?"
"Um.. hi Twilight. I um, Sunset said that you all wanted to talk to me."
"Oh, yes, but we are all not able now because we are practicing for our band."
"Oh.. is Rarity there?"
"No."

I instantly hung up the call. She didn't tell me where she was going. When I tried to think positive but she isn't with them..
Where is she? Maybe dating with someone? I don't know, but just fuck it up. I don't care anymore.

Life is too bad for me, when I start to love somebody, they always leave me.

I decided just to go out by myself. I guess I'm gonna go to the bar even though I'm not allowed, but I will just try. I'm so desperate and I need something to make my mind fly away.

I grab my black hoodie and then I put it on. I walk outside as I grab my key.

I got inside the car and I start to drive no where.

I got no where to go. No friend's house, no family's house. Just nothing at all. Just me and my desperate self.

I keep driving and feeling depressed until I saw a little building with colorful lights inside of it.

Yep, it's what I was looking for. A bar.

I put my car in front of it as I look around.
There are 2 mans with really huge body standing in front of the door. They are checking for everyone's ID.

Crap, I can't get in then.

Except.. if I lie to them.

I walk closer to the door and they start to look at me with their creepy eyes.

"Give me your ID" said one of them with a really loud voice.
"Um.. I'm sorry sir, I'm not here to drink or to have sex, I just want to pick up my big sister because our mom wants her to be home as soon as possible. I really need to find here in this bar or else my mom would be so mad." I said shyly and softly as I hope that they would let me in.
"Ok. Get in. But remember once you get her you two need to get the hell out." He said.

He was trying to be scary but they looked disgusting for me.

I don't care, I walk into that building and I start to hear really loud crappy music and also I see really colorfull lights moving around which make me feel so dizzy.

This is the first time I'm in a bar or something like this. I drank so much alcohol but I've never been in this kind of this place, so it's kinda strange for me here.

I keep walking and walking through those drunk people who keep dancing and screaming like crazy.

I keep walking through this smelly little craps until I see some girls with tiny clothes are standing and also sitting in the edge of this weird room.

All of those girls are really confident wearing those shitty tiny clothes even a lot of thirsty disgusting guys are starring at them.

They are showing their body with a lot of confidence except, on of them. She is only looking down the whole time. I can even barely see her face because she keeps hiding it.

I walk closer to her and I stop in front of her. She got surprised and she takes a look at me, and then she instantly looks awaya again.

I see her eyes are so pretty, they are green like emeralds or something. I guess she is younger than most of those girls with tiny clothes. She's also wearing a weird vintage dress which isn't showing her body at all.

I keep looking at that girl until a man with a huge body make me surprised.

"What are you doing here?!?"
"Woah, chill man. I was looking at these girls. Who are they?"
"Well you can get any of them if you want, but of course you have to pay first. But I know a homeless like you can't pay any shit." He said roughly.

I ignore what he said and keep focusing on my thoughts. I keep thinking.. why just why did she become one of these.. I didn't know that they were.. those craps who sell this kind of stuff.

"Well you are wrong, dude." I said as I grab my wallet out of my pocket.

"I want that blond girl with that weird dress over there to be mine." I said as I point at that emerald eyes girl.

"Well then you have to pa-"

"Sshh! Take this to buy some toothpaste because your breath smells like hell to me." I put a bunch of money on his hand.

He instantly goes to her and grabs her arm roughly, she is so scared, I can see it.

"This is yours, Ma'am just pay her a little bit after you are done. Where should I put her?" he said like he was my servant.

"Don't have to do that to her, she will follow me to my car alone. Don't touch her even a bit. " I said as he nods.

"Come" I said to that blondie and she nods. We both walk to my car and then I open the door for her, and then she sit down. I see that she instantly looks a little bit happy. Maybe this is the first time that she got treated like this.