I open my eyes slowly and I feel something warm is on my right shoulder. I take a look and it's Rarity. She lays her head on my shoulder and puts her arm on my stomach.

I try to move and try to get her away carefully, so I won't wake her up, but my move really wakes her up.

I see her slowly opening her eyes and looking at me. She looks so happy and instantly gets closer to me then she hugs me.

"Oh, Thank God. You're up."
"Yeah."
"How do you feel, my dear?"
"Feel shit as always."
"Oh.. I'll get you breakfast and take some pills to reduce your pain. I'll be right back."

I still remember what I exactly did yesterday. Yes, I do regret it. I don't regret it because I'm in pain now. I regret it because I didn't die. I'm still alive.

Now she does everything for me. Even after all I did to her. I wish I didn't do all this to her. I don't know why my feelings are slowly changing for her. I only wanted to hurt her but now I'm stuck in this.

I don't know if it's all just her game or it's the truth that she loves me.
Everything is possible in this world. Maybe she already knew my plan or maybe she's sincere. I don't know.

I'm so confused. All I do is trying to continue my plan but she's like that. I can't deny that she melts my heart often. She's not a stupid bitch as I thought she was. She's way more better than that.

I feel like I'm drowning in my thoughts about her until she comes into the room with some foods and drink on her hands.

"Here, darling. Eat your breakfast. After it you'll take pills and if you wouldn't get better I'll drive you to the hospital."

I don't know what to say so I'm only being silent as she gives the foods to me. It's so surprising for me that she treats me like that. I honestly feels so good and not lonely anymore, but I know I can't feel all this.

I'm so surprised of all this. She's being so sweet even after I was being a jerk to her.

Now she gets closer to me and kisses my cheeks without saying any single word.
It feels so warm and comfortable. I close my eyes as she continues kissing me until she stops it. I thought she's done with treating me like that but I was wrong. She grabs one of my hands which I used to break the mirror and starts to petting it slowly. I feel her soft fingers running on the bandage she put on my hand maybe last night. It feels so good, so I close my eyes and starts to enjoy it all.

"I love you so much. Please don't do that ever again. I'm so worried."
"Uh.. love you too but I can't guarantee that, but don't think about it Okay?"
"Okay. You have to eat now, dear."

She knows exactly that I'm so hungry even though I don't have that much apettite after I saw the food which she brought me I somehow want to eat it even though it's a bowl of.. soup..

"What's the matter, darling?"
"Nothing. I just don't like soup."
"Well, you have to. I would cook you anything you'd like but I want you to get better so you have to eat soup."
"Okay.. but I can't eat now my hand hurts."
"Let me help you, okay?"

I'm only nodding as she gets closer to me and starts to "feed" me. It's embarrassing for me also kinda sweet because no one except my mom ever did this before.

She's so kind to me and now I'm thinking to end it all right now. I don't want to hurt her in the end when she'll be really in love with me. It would hurt so badly, but now I just can't.. she makes me feel not lonely anymore but I also hate her. I just don't like her in that way. I have no feeling for her. I don't want to have a feeling for her. I just can't decide.

I stare at the wall blankly while I'm swallowing each spoon of the tasteless soup she feeds me, until she says that it's done and instantly hugs me. I got nothing else to do in my mind except hugging her back.

"I promise I won't hurt you at all, I won't leave you and I will make each time with you is worthy. I love you so much, Rainbow."
"Don't promise anything to me, Rare. Because I can't promise anything."
"I love you no matter what. I don't care if you are like this or whatever, I would still love you."

Good job, Rarity. That's all in my mind now. You're really making it difficult for me and each time you do this kind of thing the more I believe that you're kind. I don't even know if you truly are kind or this is just your and your friends' game to to kill me even more. I am so fucking confused.

I slightly try to get rid of her hug as I see her phone is ringing and she answer the call.

"Yes, Sunset Darling. What is it? I'm at Rainbow's house now. She's sick."
She said as she starts to get away from me to the window.

That's it I know that they're planning something. I knew that it was their way to hurt me. But they don't know who I am. I will hurt them back as well. They will just wait for it.

She gets closer to me and hands me her phone.

"Sunset wants to talk to you, darling."
"Give me it."

I grab her phone madly and I'm really ready to fight all of those bitches.

"Hi, Rainbow Dash. I heard that you're sick today and I hope you feel better soon."
"Thanks. Now tell me what is it?"
"I only wanted to ask you for something since yesterday. Pinkie said she already told you to go to the cafeteria but you weren't there."
"I know I wasn't."
"Yeah.. that's why.."
"Yeah right. What do you want?"
"I won't say now because I have to meet you in person to talk about it. And don't worry we can wait until you feel better."
"Ugh. Is it that important?"
"Yes."
"K then. Let's meet anytime I feel like it but I dont know when though. Remember I only come whenever I feel like it. Bye."

I close the call and give the phone to Rarity. I wonder what in the world do they want from me. I'm so curious but I know Rarity won't tell me even though I would ask and beg her to tell me what it is, she would only be telling me that it's nothing or she doesn't know it.