I open my eyes slowly and my vision is so blurry. I keep trying to remember what happened until I got in my mind that I was being with a purple hair bitch last night. I remember how she crashed my heart when I wanted to play my "game" to her.

I look around and I see alcohol and cigarette. I smell myself and I smell so damn bad. I only smell cigarette and alcohol on my body.

Well, I have to take shower now, or they will smell that I smell like a fuck boy and they will hate me even more.

I stand up and I take a look on the clock and yeah, I'm almost late for school. So just screw it. I will just take my stuff and go to school. They will still hate me no matter what anyway, so why should I even try to fix that crap?

I grab my stuff and then I get out of my house and start to walk to that hell.

On my way, I hear someone was screaming my name from the distance but I don't really care. It can be only my imagination, or I don't know for sure.

I keep walking until I feel I hand grabbing my shoulder.

"Hi, Dashie!"
"Ugh. What is it, Pinkie?"
"Nothing, but can we meet in break?"
"Why?"
"Me and my friends need to tell you something. So see ya there, Dashie."

Yeah, she instantly ran away.

It was so annoying when she said "me and my friends." Who are her friends? Those fake bitches? Those bitches who said that they "love" me and would never leave me?

Whatever, I don't care about them. I won't even go to them in break. They're not my business.

I walk into the class. I have math as my first hours. I only take random seat there but instantly Rarity takes a seat beside me. It is so annoying.

I bet she will ask stuff which is not important for me.

"Hi, babe. How was your night?"
"It was so good, Rare. Thanks."
"Oh okay"

See, I knew she would ask that kind of stuff, but anyways, I don't care about everything in this world.

I see the teacher isn't there yet, so I lay my head on the table.

"Are you okay, dear?"

I heard Rarity said that but I will just ignore her because I don't want to talk with anyone at all.

I don't want to learn at all today because I still feel so dizzy because of last night. I think I will skip school again.

I stand up and grab my back, then walk outside. I see Rarity is following me.

"Rainbow Dash, Wait."
"What is it?
"Where will you go, darling?"
"Skiping as always."
"I'm coming with you, no matter what."
"Ok."
"I will take my stuff, Wait here."

I don't know what to say. I feel so upset and I know I need someone right now.
I somehow want her to come with me. I never thought or expected that she would do this to me. I only want to break her heart but she do this to me.

After a minute she comes from the class and getting closer to me.

"Where will we go, dear?"
"Home."
"Okay."

I get away from that place where all of memories with my "friends" are staying and bothering me.

Right now I'm walking home with one of them. I don't know what she actually wants from me. Maybe she is only playing around or she really loves me. I really don't know, but I think if she's playing she wouldn't do all this for me.

Everything is just too confusing for me.
I don't want to be a lesbian. I always wanted to marry a good guy and have a really amazing wedding someday since I was a kid.

I remember I told my mom that I wanted to marry a guy who really loves me and then we will have a nice little family when I was a kid.

Now everything has changed just because I'm too dumb and my life is too difficult.

I messed up with my life just because I wanted to give one of them a lesson, but now she turned really good to me and I'm afraid someday I would fall in love with her.

I know I can just leave her right now but I can't deny it. The truth is that I feel like I need her. She is the only one who is with me now. She tries to make me feel better when I'm down.

It's not worth it if I would just leave her just like that, because I think she's really in love with me. And I know I can also break her really down now because she's in love, but I just can't. I have a feeling that if I break up with her I would feel worse.

I keep thinking about it all until I noticed that I'm in front of my house, so I walk in with her.

She takes a seat on the couch by the living room. I sit down beside her while I'm staring at the floor and thinking nothing at all.

She only looks at me the whole time and then she puts her hand on my shoulder. She's trying to calm me down.

"What's the matter, dear?"
"Nothing. Let's have some drink."
"Okay but not to much.. I have a feeling you're sick, my love."
"Ok."

I instantly walk to the kitchen and grab one bottle of beer which contains a lot of alcohol and I grab a glass and pour some wine for her.

I walk to the living room and place her drink on the table.

"Not too much right."
"Yes, darling. But are you going to drink the whole bottle? It got pretty much alcohol inside, dear."
"Yeah, it's okay. It won't make me drunk."

I sit next to her and then I start to drink it.

I keep drinking it until I feel that my body's feeling worse so I stop drinking. It was only a bit left, and I feel so sick, so I lay down on the couch then I close my eyes.
I feel so dizzy and my stomach hurts a lot.

I decided to take shower just to make me feel a bit fresh and better.

"Rarity, I'll be right back. I'll take shower."
"But, dear, you don't look fine at all."
"It's ok. I'll be back."

I leave her and heading to the bathroom. I walk into the bathroom then I take off my clothes and then I take a look to the mirror.

I see myself again, but this time, it's worse.

My skin is really dry and my body is so skinny. I hate myself a lot.

I keep looking into the mirror until I have enough. I punch the mirror until it's broken. I take a piece of it then I start to cut my arms with it. I am so done.

I keep cutting my arms until I fall to the floor with my head landing first against the wall and it made sound when I was falling.

Everything I see is so blurry but I hear Rarity is screaming and crying. She grabs my body and place it on her lap while she's holding me. All I can do is letting her do everything she wants to do. I'm too weak to help myself.

I feel her is trying to carry me to my bed, and when she places me on my bed she's running while crying. She runs out of my room but I don't know where she's going I can't see and hear clearly until everything is faded.